Snippet #2682430

At first she said nothing, as if she had not heard before raising her head and forcing a smile on her face before replying, "It's nothing Drisela, thanks for respecting my privacy though and not trying to find out..." a short prolonged sigh before she continued, "It just I am thinking. I know you keep saying I did not know the Dwemer would be such monsters? But still... it was my vote in the end that sealed my people's fall... We were arrogant and maybe we even deserved to be humbled... but I lied to myself for so long I was never part of that choice... when in reality I was... I guess I lied to remove the guilt..." she paused seeming deep in thought her eyes focused before she went on, "I told you the choice leave Skyrim or trust the Dwemer... how could we imagine they would enslave us... They would rape our cultures and steal our architecture. I never imagined anyone could be worse than the Nord? Was I wrong? Was I wrong to think that no one could be worse?"

Sighing gently she mewled in response to the ministeration but nonetheless continued, "How could I ever have made the choice to completely leave where we were all born? Maybe we could have survived, but after the death of our Prince we were being hunted down, We needed allies, we needed hope... Could I have handled it better?" her grew heated and depressed, "I have two regrets that vote and Kat... Kat I at least can understand was not my fault... but my race... I feel like the architect to what destroyed them? It burns, the whole implication I did that to them..." pausing she stared her beloved straight in the eyes as she wailed, "Don't lie Drisela, you seen what I did? What I caused, my people blind and feral? In my eyes they are worse than what I am now? Vampires at least keep their personality their thoughts. My people were turned in aberrations... You no doubt killed some if delving in areas with them... You can feel the bitterness... I did that... I trusted the Dwemer... I trusted them and because of this... I doomed my race... If I was anything like them it would be justified, but I survived..."

Teardrops eveloped her eyes, the soft features full of years of utter remorse and regret, "I am more a monster than you will ever be... Drisela don't lie to me... I don't want sympathy... I just want to know one thing... Did I make the right choice?"