“I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn’t deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed. On those gray days where eight in the morning looks no different from noon and nothing has happened and nothing is going to happen and you are washing a glass in the sink and it breaks-accidentally-and punctures your skin. And then there is this shocking red, the brightest thing in the day, so vibrant it buzzes, this blood of yours. That is okay sometimes because at least you know you're alive, even when the numbness makes you feel otherwise.”
░░░Akane; Meaning 'brilliant red'░░░
░░░Akane; Meaning 'brilliant red'░░░
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- Akane Rie
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- Ane, Anna, Akn | | Rearrangements of her first name, often her parents or brother referred to her as these.
Bubble, Kit, Bambie, Buttercup, Cutie Pie || Pet names that her parents often called her as a child, hardly anyone knows of their existence.
Ak-a, Sissy, Sis, Bubble, Red || Generally names her brother had called her when he was younger.
Dunce, Idiot, Default, Moron, Spaz, A answer someone tried to erase but didn't finish. || When she had been bullied.
ＭＩＳＳＩＮＧ ＰＩＥＣＥ
- Cutting
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- Female
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- Eighteen
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- Asexual
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- Japanese
“The marks humans leave are too often scars.”
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- 5'9
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- 112 lb
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- Chocolate brown
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- The same color as dried blood
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- Pale like a porcelain doll
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- Strands of dark chocolate brown color most of Akane's crown. The color itself is a bit odd since it isn't a completely brown shade, instead, having darker strands running through it along with lighter. Some have stated it reminds them of a demon like color, but regardless, the shade is a strange and vibrant hue to be seen. It falls down her back and rests gently a few inches above the small of her back, very nearly to her hips. When the girl was much younger, her hair had been very short, only reaching her shoulders. Her skin tone is a bit peculiar. While retaining the appearance of a pale, ghostly color, there are shades of red and peach in the underlining. This gives her the appearance of having porcelain-like skin tone.
Her body could be considered one that is decently desired by school girls. While she has no large bust, her hips are full and wide, making her form see lilith. She stands roughly five foot nine, almost six foot and with a weight to keep her body proportioned. Her eyes are a rather peculiar shade of dark red and dark brown that seem to glow in certain lights or at night. They are accented by curved eyebrows that hover with a light arch in the middle.
Ane always has her two red hair clips in her air and her red scarf on, they were gifts from her parents and brother, and no matter how painful a reminder they are, she can't seem to part with him. Up close her eyes seem empty and hardened. She was once told her looked older than what she was because her eyes looked so worn.
“It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.”
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✦ Sad ✧ Lonely ✦ Depressed ✧ Kind ✦
Akane is the kind of girl who shies away from human interaction and would rather go for a walk than be in a room full of people. She doesn't let others push her around though, and is a bit outspoken. While a few years ago she wouldn't have shied away from a crowd, she is now a shut in and seeks the company of art, writings, or animals instead of other human beings. She prefers to be left to herself, only allowing those who have taken the time to get under her skin, to get anywhere near her. She's strong and smart, capable of making decisions and carrying them out precisely, as well as backing up her choices against anyone who would dare to oppose her.
She can speak to a crowd and captivate everyone's full attention, but she has a little trouble with the one-on-one interaction, through she doesn't like to interact with large crowds, it's not avoidable most time. The dark haired woman likes to seclude herself and doesn't take compliments very well. Should she do something for you, don't thank her. She'll merely say it had to be done and wave it off.
Despite all this though, Suta is incredibly motherly and caring. She takes care of the people she cares about secretly in a tender manner, loving each one of them as a mother would love her child or as a sister would love another sibling. It's kind of a strange thing, to see her act motherly, expressing her love in small gestures that are often hard to pick up on. When people trust her, she can't think of anything worse than letting them down. She doesn't even fear for her own safety, but that she'll fail in keeping the others safe. Though Suta seems like an impenetrable fortress, underneath all her built-up walls, there's a soft, vulnerable girl. She may not show it, but she grows easily attached to people.
When her family died, she cut her ties with the world around her with a jagged knife, slicing until nothing remained but mangled ties and bonds. That was the first time she started cutting. It has always helped in some way or form, sometimes she would feel too much, and it would make her go numb, and other times she would feel too little, and it would give her that burst of life she so desperately needed. Someone once asked her how it felt to be so lost in depression. "I answered, it was like drowning in the darkest water you could imagine falling into, having all of those fears and feelings be sucked into your lungs as you desperately try to breath, and up above you, you can see other people walking around, breathing with ease, and looking down at you with such pity it made you want to claw your eyes out."
Akane is the kind of girl who shies away from human interaction and would rather go for a walk than be in a room full of people. She doesn't let others push her around though, and is a bit outspoken. While a few years ago she wouldn't have shied away from a crowd, she is now a shut in and seeks the company of art, writings, or animals instead of other human beings. She prefers to be left to herself, only allowing those who have taken the time to get under her skin, to get anywhere near her. She's strong and smart, capable of making decisions and carrying them out precisely, as well as backing up her choices against anyone who would dare to oppose her.
She can speak to a crowd and captivate everyone's full attention, but she has a little trouble with the one-on-one interaction, through she doesn't like to interact with large crowds, it's not avoidable most time. The dark haired woman likes to seclude herself and doesn't take compliments very well. Should she do something for you, don't thank her. She'll merely say it had to be done and wave it off.
Despite all this though, Suta is incredibly motherly and caring. She takes care of the people she cares about secretly in a tender manner, loving each one of them as a mother would love her child or as a sister would love another sibling. It's kind of a strange thing, to see her act motherly, expressing her love in small gestures that are often hard to pick up on. When people trust her, she can't think of anything worse than letting them down. She doesn't even fear for her own safety, but that she'll fail in keeping the others safe. Though Suta seems like an impenetrable fortress, underneath all her built-up walls, there's a soft, vulnerable girl. She may not show it, but she grows easily attached to people.
When her family died, she cut her ties with the world around her with a jagged knife, slicing until nothing remained but mangled ties and bonds. That was the first time she started cutting. It has always helped in some way or form, sometimes she would feel too much, and it would make her go numb, and other times she would feel too little, and it would give her that burst of life she so desperately needed. Someone once asked her how it felt to be so lost in depression. "I answered, it was like drowning in the darkest water you could imagine falling into, having all of those fears and feelings be sucked into your lungs as you desperately try to breath, and up above you, you can see other people walking around, breathing with ease, and looking down at you with such pity it made you want to claw your eyes out."
- ✦Singing - "It's not too bad, singing, I mean."
✧Reading - "It can be so peaceful, getting lost in another world."
✦The Moon - "Pretty, it is the light in the darkest time of the day"
✧Art - "I love making something come alive..."
✦Silence - "It can be so peaceful, helps with the headaches"
✧The Dark - "More soothing than the light, the dark just wraps around you, like an embrace."
✦Runs - "It's how I think. I like to go for runs at night, I know this perfect route through the forest, the prefects never know."
✧The Night - "Silence, dark, peace."
✦CrossWord Puzzles - "I love trying to piece them all together. There is this garden outside, I sit in there at night, behind the rose bushes."
✧Rain - "It washes away everything, makes the world start anew in a way, makes it feel fresher."
✦Colors - "They can be so bright and vibrant when everyone else around me isn't."
✧Sleep - "It's the only time I don't hurt."
✦Music - "My mom used to love music. Its hurts to listen to it...but some songs aren't too bad..."
- ✦Yelling - "it brings back bad memories
✧Anger - "When is anger a good thing? Anger because you lost a loved one, anger because you want to end your life, anger because you don't have the guts to do it. Just anger."
✦The Sun - "Not as pretty as the moon, makes your skin flushed and hot."
✧Pain - "Who likes pain anyway? Don't be mistaken, just because I bring a knife to my skin doesn't mean i enjoy the bite of the metal."
✦Blood - "Oh the irony that something I hate so much could make me feel happy for a second."
✧Drugs - "How could he stoop so low! How could he get lost in that!?"
✦Illnesses - "I couldn't do anything, I couldn't do anything to save her. Nothing!!!"
✧Hospitals - "They smell so...clean, and yet, of death."
✦Heights - "So what if I jumped to try and die? Doesn't mean I like heights, idiot."
✧Snow - "Just...no."
✦Rudeness - "Be nice to me unless you don't want to see my fake smile anymore."
✧Hot Soda - "Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew. Ew."
✦Math - "My dad used to help me with my math...."
✧School - "The bane of my existence. Every day was hell, the work was horrid, but the people were worse. Bullies, teacher; their one in the same, right?"
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- ✦Art - She always has loved art, it is a way to express herself, show who she really is without others really knowing thats how messed up she really is.
✧Singing - Ane loves to sing, but only if she is alone.
✦Running - Going for runs is a good way to clear her head - well it was a good way, it doesn't really work anymore, so she turned to cutting.
✧Swimming - Underwater, being alone in that odd silence, it is so peaceful, so wonderful. If she could live in the water she would.
✦Writing - Poems, stories, songs, they all help her express how she really feels.
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- ✦Depression - That is a flaw, a horrible horrible flaw.
✧Self-Hate - She hates herself for never being able to help her mother, for not being able to stop her brother, for not being able to save her father, for letting herself get bullied, for letting herself fail, for letting herself and her family down. For cutting. For trying to end her life. Her living. She just...hates.
✦Regret - How can you not feel regret and live in it when you are all that is left of your family?
✧Cutting - She cuts in the morning, in the night, in the middle of the day. She wants to die sometimes.
✦Numbness - Whats worse than the cutting? When all you feel is nothing.
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- ✦Drowning - The feeling of suffocating? I already have that without sinking into a dark abyss.
✧Heights - They just give you chills and make you want to puke.
✦Blood - Oooooh the irony.
✧Violence - She has had bad experiences from bullies and such.
✦Snow - It was snowing...the day her family died.
"The memories are the most painful part of life."
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Mother - Deceased
Father - Deceased
Older Brother - Deceased
Father - Deceased
Older Brother - Deceased
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- The noise of the heart monitor beeping was the only sound in the white room, but it seemed to echo restlessly. A small family stood in front of the hospital bed, their hands linked, but as the time passed, they slowly let go of each other. The woman in the bed would not open her eyes again to see them, and they all knew it, their was no point in lying to themselves. The youngest boy in the room looked half dead, his skin ashen and dark bruises were wonder his eyes. His cheeks were hollowed out. The youngest girl in the room looked worn, her face pale and her eyes terribly sad, her lips would tremble so bad at times she had to bite onto them to make it stop, the coppery taste of blood soon filled her mouth, but it was ignored. The father of the family stood solemnly, but he seemed to be the one moving one, the one that would heal from this first. That was not a bad thing.
All too soon though, the beeping faded, and the woman flat lined. None of them moved, their eyes never leaving the woman's body as she was loaded and taken out of the room. They didn't move until the boy seemed to burst to life and run from the room. The father and girl followed as the boy climbed into his car, and spun into the road. Everything seemed to happen in slow motion, the father and girl stood in the road, in front of the car that was coming right at them. The girl screamed, and the boy behind the wheel sobbed - his foot never once moving towards the brake pedal. The elder shoved the girl away, out of harms way - just in the nick of time, and then-
"NO!" A ragged breath. "No...we do not speak of this."
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- Dɪᴀʟᴏɢᴜᴇ Cᴏʟᴏʀ ✦ "Of course I'm happy!"
Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ Cᴏʟᴏʀ ✧ "I wonder why our blood is red..."
Fᴀᴄᴇ Cʟᴀɪᴍ ✦ Tateyama Ayano
Pᴏʀᴛʀᴀʏᴇᴅ Bʏ ✧ ℰℯℯ℘
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character basic form © aurei
modified form ઽ૮૨Α
edited, modified form Luna Delta
