{"The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.β }
-MARK TWAIN
Find A Way || Young Blood || Boats And Birds || Young, Wild & Free || Blue Jeans || Royals
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|{Full Name}|
Aeshan Zoran Kit
|{Nickname}|
Ash Sometimes[i] || Z [iSometimes || Kit Often || Za-Za Close Friends/Family ||
"Kit's the name and don't wear it out."
|{Birthday}|
May 8th
|{Age}|
Eighteen || 18
|{Nationality}|
60% Italian || 25% Australian || 15% African
|{Sexuality}|
Heterosexual (Publicly) | Homosexual (Secretly)
|{Occupation}|
Librarian Assistant and Barista
||At his families local coffee shop 'International Coffee'||
{"Just living is not enough... one must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.β}
-HANS CHRISTIAN ANDERSON
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|{Quirks || Habits || Oddities}|
βͺWhen He's Extremely Stressed He Will Read The Picture of Dorian Gray From Start To Finish Nonstop βͺ Aeshan Will Eat Standing Up, Unless He Is Forced Otherwise βͺ Has To Have At Least One Cup Of Coffee And A Glass Of Alcohol A Day βͺ Caffeine Addict βͺ Slight Alcoholic βͺ Has A Cigarette Daily {keeps it hidden} βͺ Allergic To Perfume/Cologne βͺ Always Wears His Thick Black Rimmed Glasses, Even Though He No Longer Needs Them βͺ Talks A Lot With His Hands βͺ Can't Stand Wearing The Color Orange βͺ Randomly Quotes Books, Movies, Philosophers, Etc. While Having A Conversation βͺ While Talking Sometimes He'll Start Speaking French Without Meaning To βͺ
|{Talents || Strengths || Skills}|
βͺ Has The Ability To Notice When Someone's Lying By Their "Tell" Signs βͺ Can Easily Persuade People Into Getting What He Wants βͺ Can Make Almost Any Lie Sound Like The Truth {though he doesn't lie often} βͺ Speaks English and Italian βͺ Thinks Things Through Quickly βͺ Knowing When It's Best To Stop Talking {he doesn't always stop} βͺ Understanding Peoples Moods Or Feelings βͺ He Knows A Lot Of Information From Reading A Lot βͺ Easily Comprehends Things βͺ Isn't Easily Upset βͺ Has Pretty Good Sense Of Sarcasm And Joke Skills βͺ
|{Flaws || Weakness}|
βͺ Always Thinks He's Right βͺ Stubborn βͺ Always Tries To Get His Way βͺ Rarely To Never Asks For Help And Will Usually Refuse To Accept It βͺ Slightly Addicted To Alcohol βͺ Extremely Addicted To Coffee βͺ Doesn't Know When To Drop Arguments From Time To Time βͺ He Sometimes Refuses To Sleep Leading Himself To Pass Out From Tiredness βͺ
|{Hobbies}|
βͺ Reading βͺ Smoking βͺ Playing The Piano/Guitar βͺ Listening To Music βͺ Writing Stories/Instrumental Music βͺ Swimming/Exercising/Working Out βͺ Spending Time In Nature βͺ Drinking Both Alcohol And Coffee βͺ Painting/Drawing/Doing Crafts βͺ
|{Fears}|
βͺ Having Bad Visions βͺ Losing His Ability To Draw βͺ Drawers Block [color=#]"Worse than writers block."[/color] βͺ Doing Nothing Meaningful With His Life βͺ Being Left Alone βͺ Being Tricked Or Deceived By Any βͺ Dying Painfully βͺ Losing Someone Else He Loves βͺ
|{Secrets}|
βͺ He Was In Love With His Best Friend βͺ He's Homosexual βͺ He Took Up Heavy Drinking After The Death Of Boy 3 βͺ
|{Goals & Dreams}|
βͺ To Travel The Worldβͺ Become A Successful Painter/Writer βͺ To Be Truly Happy βͺ
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{"Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.β }
-JOSEPH CAMPBELL
|{Personality}|
|{ Caring || Funny || Clingy || Wild }|
Aeshan is one of the most open people someone could ever meet. He loves to make people laugh, bringing joy to others brings joy to himself. Laughter is the best medicine to him, for he does laugh a lot. Sometimes he laughs at nothing, he'll just bust out into laughter for absolutely no reason, this is annoying to people, but he can't help himself. Aeshan even laughs at his own jokes even if no one else finds them the least but funny; he won't let their boring nature stop his fun. His caring nature leads him to put people before himself, to him other people's needs and wants are more important. He can be a very big people pleasure and normally tries to make everyone happy even if it causes him pain. Aeshan has tried to stop being so pleasing, he knows in the end it's just going to hurt him so bad, but he doesn't. He just stays so pleasing. He's also a borderline pushover and he lets people walk all over him from time to time, like his bestfriend, Boy 3, in a way. He use to let his friend treat him anyway he wanted, for the most part it was good, but it was hard for him to be around him because he was in love with him. Aside from that Aeshan is also a gentlemen. He knows how to treat people right, which he always does. He's the type to hold the door open for people, if it's raining he'd take off his jacket and place it over a puddle for a lady to walk across, he cooks every meal for his family, and so on.
With the caring he does he tends to get a little too attached to people. It's somewhat strange that he loves to always be busy, but hates to be away from the people he's close to. There's a clinginess about him that gets overlooked because he doesn't put it out there. When wanting to spend an unusually amount of time with a person he makes it not to obvious, like asking them to help him study or hanging with the person through another friend. Aeshan hates to just come out and say he needs someone from the fear of looking weak, something he defiantly isn't. He's not a guy that always has to prove how strong he is, he finds it so unattractive when other men do it, but if he has to prove his strength he would. He has been into a few fights to prove he wasn't a complete pushover, he can't stand to be bullied and taunted like other kids, being almost outcasted, perhaps that's way he clasps onto the people he's so fond of. He may be friendly, but not everyone he talks to he becomes attached to. Like when he does travel he's always with his family, and in the past he would always take Boy 3 with him.
Drinking is a bad habit of Aeshan's that he knows he should stop. It's something he picked up after the death of Boy 3, with every sip he took it would make him forget the pain. When he's drunk it's so obvious, he stumbles, starts random fights, says things he shouldn't, in other words he's just a mess. He is never one to just randomly start a fight without a reason, but when drunk he does fight and for some reason he becomes even stronger, making him a little sort of unbeatable. Of course he's gotten his butt beat a few times, not that he'd ever go around admitting that, because that would just lead to people trying to fight him even more in school. That's the same reason he doesn't want people to know he's gay, he knows he'll probably get ganged up on by homophobic boys. He's only ever told his brother about him liking the same sex, but some way other people can tell as well, other homos, it's like they have better gay tracking skills than he does. He wishes he could tell if people were gay or not, if so he would probably already be in a relationship, perhaps.
|{Relive}|
"My life after the death of Boy 3 was- is hard. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him... he was my best friend. We grew up together, neighbors. We got along so well, never fought, it just wasn't something we did. Aside from him my life is amazing. I'm getting ready to go to college, where? I'm not so sure, but I'm thinking about leaving the island in order to pursue my dreams of becoming a painter and a writer."
|{ Caring || Funny || Clingy || Wild }|
Aeshan is one of the most open people someone could ever meet. He loves to make people laugh, bringing joy to others brings joy to himself. Laughter is the best medicine to him, for he does laugh a lot. Sometimes he laughs at nothing, he'll just bust out into laughter for absolutely no reason, this is annoying to people, but he can't help himself. Aeshan even laughs at his own jokes even if no one else finds them the least but funny; he won't let their boring nature stop his fun. His caring nature leads him to put people before himself, to him other people's needs and wants are more important. He can be a very big people pleasure and normally tries to make everyone happy even if it causes him pain. Aeshan has tried to stop being so pleasing, he knows in the end it's just going to hurt him so bad, but he doesn't. He just stays so pleasing. He's also a borderline pushover and he lets people walk all over him from time to time, like his bestfriend, Boy 3, in a way. He use to let his friend treat him anyway he wanted, for the most part it was good, but it was hard for him to be around him because he was in love with him. Aside from that Aeshan is also a gentlemen. He knows how to treat people right, which he always does. He's the type to hold the door open for people, if it's raining he'd take off his jacket and place it over a puddle for a lady to walk across, he cooks every meal for his family, and so on.
With the caring he does he tends to get a little too attached to people. It's somewhat strange that he loves to always be busy, but hates to be away from the people he's close to. There's a clinginess about him that gets overlooked because he doesn't put it out there. When wanting to spend an unusually amount of time with a person he makes it not to obvious, like asking them to help him study or hanging with the person through another friend. Aeshan hates to just come out and say he needs someone from the fear of looking weak, something he defiantly isn't. He's not a guy that always has to prove how strong he is, he finds it so unattractive when other men do it, but if he has to prove his strength he would. He has been into a few fights to prove he wasn't a complete pushover, he can't stand to be bullied and taunted like other kids, being almost outcasted, perhaps that's way he clasps onto the people he's so fond of. He may be friendly, but not everyone he talks to he becomes attached to. Like when he does travel he's always with his family, and in the past he would always take Boy 3 with him.
Drinking is a bad habit of Aeshan's that he knows he should stop. It's something he picked up after the death of Boy 3, with every sip he took it would make him forget the pain. When he's drunk it's so obvious, he stumbles, starts random fights, says things he shouldn't, in other words he's just a mess. He is never one to just randomly start a fight without a reason, but when drunk he does fight and for some reason he becomes even stronger, making him a little sort of unbeatable. Of course he's gotten his butt beat a few times, not that he'd ever go around admitting that, because that would just lead to people trying to fight him even more in school. That's the same reason he doesn't want people to know he's gay, he knows he'll probably get ganged up on by homophobic boys. He's only ever told his brother about him liking the same sex, but some way other people can tell as well, other homos, it's like they have better gay tracking skills than he does. He wishes he could tell if people were gay or not, if so he would probably already be in a relationship, perhaps.
|{Relive}|
"My life after the death of Boy 3 was- is hard. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him... he was my best friend. We grew up together, neighbors. We got along so well, never fought, it just wasn't something we did. Aside from him my life is amazing. I'm getting ready to go to college, where? I'm not so sure, but I'm thinking about leaving the island in order to pursue my dreams of becoming a painter and a writer."
{"Hope is the only bee that makes honey without flowers.β }
-ROBERT GREEN INGERSOLL
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|{Place of Origin}|
Paris, France
|{History}|
"Chai, c'mon, why are you so slow?" Aeshan yelled at his brother as he ran at top speeds. The two brothers had always been close, then at the age of four Aeshan adored his older brother of seven and looked up to him in every way. Before long Chai had caught up with him and picked him up and spending him around in circles. "You're so precious." Laughing loudly the boys spent hours playing in the woods: playing hide and seek, climbing trees, and anything young boys do.
Though Aeshan was fond of his brother there was one person he came to favor more. Boy 3. Since the two were neighbors their friendship came naturally. "Have you ever noticed that you come over alot?" Casually pointing this out Aeshan sighed, thinking that perhaps this was causing his friend despair. "I mean... yes, does that bother you." Boy 3 laughed at the response, his laughter completely filling the rooms within seconds. "Of course not," he exclaimed, "I love you being here, I just meant that I never really come to your place!" Relief set in, Aeshan smiled, and the conversation went smoothly.
Sitting on the edge of the bed, he watched the movie with one of his friends. "You don't have to sit down there all by yourself, you can come up here with me." Looking back at his friend, he gave a smile before scooting up to his friends side. "Is this better for you, Marcus?" Asking the question they both exchanged small laughter. Marcus reached, resting his right arm across the shoulders of Aeshan, "You could always lay back." Giving a smile in responses, Aeshan took the gesture as a friendly thing and just laid against Marcus' chest without a second thought. "So, how's school been, kiddo?" Sighing, Aeshan positioned his head so he could see Marcus, but still remain comfortable. "Well, my grades are good, I've been in about two fights in the past semester, I'm making all A's, and Boy 3's been devoting most of his time to other things." Marcus just seemed to grin about what had just left Aeshan's mouth, which left him a little confused. "What is it?" "You're just really cute is all." Aeshan's face grew bright red at the compliment and he immediately popped up from his resting place. "What's that suppose to me?" "Isn't it kind of clear? I think you're cute." "Cute? Like a three year old?" Marcus laughed, adding on to the confusion already forming to Aeshan. He wasn't sure what he meant, he was pretty sure he didn't mean it in that way. "It means I find you attractive, stupid. Now don't go ruining the moment." At that his face became even more heated, he wasn't prepared for this. He was kind of use to girls coming on to him, but was this man, Marcus, coming on to him too? Aeshan then tried to speak, he couldn't get any words out, not that he had any words in mind to say, so he stared humming. A few seconds passed where he stared at the wall and could sense Marcus' eyes on him, until finally Marcus broke the silence, by gently taking hold of Aeshan's chin and holding the gaze face to face. "I know you're gay, other people may not see through you're act, but I know better. I see how pissed off you get when Boy 3 doesn't notice you, but now you know how I feel to your oblivion about me." He smirked while Aeshan tried to process it all before saying, "You're gay?" "I'm bisexual I guess, I've taken interest in you, but soon I'll be going off to college and you're in love with Boy 3, so I'm not even going to waste my time trying to make you mine." His voice had started of full of happiness and slowly faded to the monotone sound that he expressed to most people. He had been right though, Aeshan was in love and had no interest in anyone else, and that was probably why he hadn't seen this coming this past year. "Let's keep this our little secret, ok?" He had no time to say anything before Marcus softly kissed his cheek and left Aeshan's room.
"The weather's nice, isn't it?" Aeshan spoke softly with his eyes shut as the car drove down the road. He could hear Boy 3 take in a soft breath, "Yeah," he responded. The two had been together all of the day, it had been peaceful and full of joy. Now that everything was settling down they were heading back to Aeshan's house for the night. Everything had been perfect: they had went to the movies, took a trip to the park, and even went out to eat. Perfect. On that night Aeshan even thought about confessing his feelings for his best friend. But unfortunately fate had other plans. Before Aeshan knew it he heard a scream from his friend and then a slam. Everything happened in flashes, his whole body hurt. Pulling himself out of the car he looked at how smashed it was into a tree. "Boy 3!" He continued to scream over and over until falling to the ground from exhaustion. When he woke up he was informed he had been asleep for three days from the accident and that Boy 3 had passed away. He grieved and cried, he refused to eat and ended up staying in the hospital for two months. While in the hospital his injuries healed well, his cut up body healed without scar."Chai, c'mon, why are you so slow?" Aeshan yelled at his brother as he ran at top speeds. The two brothers had always been close, then at the age of four Aeshan adored his older brother of seven and looked up to him in every way. Before long Chai had caught up with him and picked him up and spending him around in circles. "You're so precious." Laughing loudly the boys spent hours playing in the woods: playing hide and seek, climbing trees, and anything young boys do.
|{Family Tree}|
Father || Marco Kit || 50 || Owner of International Coffee || George Clooney
Mother || Lana Mary Kit || 45 || Veternaian || Taraji P. Henson
Brother || Chai Morai Kit || 21 || Mechanic || James Franco
|{Happiest Memory}|
"One summer Boy 3 and I went to the beach around three in the morning, gosh I think we were about fourteen. We laid on the sand and just talked forever. We talked about our families, we talked about our dreams and aspirations, we talked about our future together... we just talked about everything. At one point we stopped and tried to count as many stars as we could, we got to 1,050 before giving up. Then, at one point we both grew exhausted. Instead of going home we fell asleep on the beach together... I even told him I was cold as an excuse for us to cuddle... it was so peaceful."
Character Dialogue || #435F35
Character Thought || #51355E
Face Claim || Dylan O'Brien
Character Thought || #51355E
Face Claim || Dylan O'Brien
