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age: 21
sexuality: bisexual
birthday: july 27
occupation: english/journalism student. part-time bartender.
hexcode: #4e4956xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxstrangersxx||xx life of the partyxx ||xx last hope
secrets:
as a teenager, lee was blackmailed into selling sex. somebody had some compromising footage of him, and told him it would be released to the world if he didn't do exactly as he was told. at first, it was small things, things he could handle. but when he started being forced to have sex with grown men and women, he started doing anything he could to get out of it. eventually, he became so desperate that he just went to the police. the video was never released, as far as he knows, but there's a part of him that still worries.
writing
coffee
herbal tea
house plants
books
running
fashion
cats
x
bad journalism
hypocrites
manipulative people
being tired
stereotypes
feeling weak
being drunk
feeling pressured to do things
only wears his glasses when he's tired
almost always cold
has a love/hate relationship with sex
always well dressed
plays with his clothes when anxious
the video being found
his secrets being told
angry dogs
heights
enclosed spaces
we're just strangers with the same damn hunger to be loved
appearance:
at 5'11, lee stands only a little above average height. he's slim, with some muscle, but on the whole there isn't much to him. His hair is jet black and always just on the stylish side of messy. he doesn't do much maintenance with it, just runs his fingers through it and hopes for the best. He tans at the slightest ray of sun, and his skin stays a light brown all year round. His brown eyes are slightly downturned and narrow, but are bright, and friendly when he smiles. He usually wears contacts, but wears his glasses on occasion- usually when he's tired or stressed. he's always quite well dressed, and is seldom seen looking disheveled. his ears are pierced, and he has a tragus piercing in his right ear. he also has a number of small, easily hidden tattoos. his favourite is an outline of an elephant on his ribs, with the words "je ne regrette rien" in a fancy script beneath. he also has a paper airplane on his inner forearm, gotten the summer he went travelling, a flock of birds on one shoulder blade, and "breathe" over his heart.
personality:
lee comes across as an open book to many. unapologetic about who he is, he's flirtatious, he's open with his affections, and he's regularly found sprawled across some of his friends. he laughs easily, and is known to get the giggles in the middle of a lecture over something relatively small. outspoken is perhaps the wrong word for him, but he's not afraid to speak his mind or to say that something is wrong if it's wrong. he's honest with everyone around him, but not brutally so. at times, he's adventurous, loving exploring and trying new things. he went travelling with a few friends last summer and developed a wanderlust he fears may never be fulfilled. he has been known to hook up with people for one night stands, but that's where things get a little... complicated.
many expect lee to be more promiscuous than he actually is. but sex is a complicated subject to him. when you spend eighteen months being manipulated into having sex with total strangers, sometimes the thought of having sex with strangers makes him panic a little. but sometimes, it feels liberating that he can now do it out of his own choice. he hates being drunk, because he feels like he's not in control of himself, of his own fight. getting drunk is how this all began. underneath the surface, despite appearances, lee is an anxious mess. half the time he doesn't even know why he's anxious. he got on flights to jet around the world with his friends, and spent weeks wandering around unfamiliar cities, and that was when he felt at his least anxious. he's afraid that everybody knows, that everyone is going to turn on him and betray him. he sometimes shoves people away when he's particularly bad, because he lets his brain convince him that they don't love him or even like him. he lets his anxiety rule him and refuses to do anything about it or talk about it. he has himself convinced that doing so will only give people more ammunition, will just make people like him even less. he's a little lost, feeling like he isn't in control of his fate.
lee's upbringing was thoroughly unremarkable. he was the youngest of two kids, his sister being 5 years older than him. they were close, but still fought and argued from time to time. lee's parents were pretty open-minded, and knew that trust was the most important thing with their kids. so they always trusted them, and the trust was mutual. lee had an idea that he wasn't just attracted to girls from a young age, but nothing really came of it.
as a teenager, lee was much more into partying than his sister ever had been. not to the point where it was a problem- again, him and his parents were open about it. they didn't have a problem with him having a few drinks, as long as he was smart about it. and for the most part, he was. then there was one night. his parents were out of town, so he was going to be staying with a friend anyway. he had a few more drinks than usual, and his inhibitions were gone. there was a guy at the party, a guy lee recognised. a friend of his sister's or her boyfriend or something. they ended up having sex. it was supposed to be a one time thing. but at a party a few weeks later, when lee was more sober, they hooked up again, against lee's best judgement. this proved to be one of the worst mistakes he'd made.
unknownst to lee, the older guy had filmed it. he threatened to send it to all of lee's friends and family if lee didn't do as he was told. lee wasn't yet out to his family, and while he had already been planning on coming out to them, this wasn't how he wanted it to be. so he did as the boy said. at first it was small things. then it turned into something more malicious. lee would attend parties with him, and lee would then be forced to have sex with strangers. the other man was generous. he let lee keep some of the money he earned. but after a while, after the guy turned malicious when lee refused to do something, lee realised that he needed to get out. he came out to his family, then went to the police and told him what had happened. they caught him and it transpired that lee wasn't the only person who he'd manipulated in such a way. lee left for college before the court case was even over, and he had deliberately chosen somewhere far away. he doesn't go home all that much, not with all the memories it brings up. he's afraid he'll run into someone who recognises him from those parties, or worse, a former client. so he finds excuses not to go back. but he still talks to his family regularly. he's hoping that he would have been able to leave it all behind him, but now he's being called home.
