Those people, walking down the street without fear... they would never understand the thoughts of the dark like i did. Those people would just live there lives, be happy together, marry a loving person, get kids... and eventually they would die surrounded by family. At least, that's how it seemed to me.
I knew... that even in my most fool dreams... things would never work out that way for me. At first: I didn't have family... i didn't even have friends. Friends were a weakness, just like love and tenderness. They could use you, they could get you to trust them... and then they could.. and they would.. let you down.
That was what my master had taught me all those years back, and that was the code i used for living... living my life as an assassin.
Of course i used to have a family... a long time ago. I didn't remember much about that time: the Guild had beaten all memories out of me. I did know that my mother had died several years after i had dissapeared.

I carefully emerged from the shadows of the alley, where i had been watching the people in Makrat living there daily lives. I enjoyed watching those happy souls, however it also brought me sadness as i knew i would never be like them... not anymore at least.
Allthough i did feel all those emotions... they would never leave my head. I would never show any of them on my face. I would never show a sad... or happy emotion to the outside world. They... the guild... they had done to much to me to open up again.
While i slowly walked down the road, i made sure my face was hidden in the shadows under the hood of my cloak of dark material. I knew showing my face would be the same as committing suicide at once. There were many posters on the walls in Makrat, showing my face and the text "WANTED!".
When i saw such a poster, i couldn't hold back the smile... however it was a cold, emotionless one (one that would make the shivers run down your spine).
"WANTED!... for assassination, thievery and more...". I looked at it for a short moment, before turning around and continueing my way trough Makrat. Most of the time i was glad it was a large city, as people like me didn't really get to much attention... but right now, with all those people on the street... i just got a little frustrated by the fact that i couldn't easily move on. Then i remembered... it was marketday today! I should have been thinking about that! How could i be stupid like that?!
Eventually i got out of the stream of human bodies and leant against a wall, thinking about other ways to get on my destination.

I sat in the sitting room of my home. Poking the glowing orange coals of the fire. I blinked and m,y eyes began to water, staring at the coals at the base of the blaze had them drying out. I couldn't help staring at the majestic beauty that was the fire. After i blinked a second time I realized the fire would be there later and I tore my gaze from it. I looked to to dinning area, my mother by the cooking fire, heating some chicken for breakfast. I walked over to the table thanking my mother for her cooking.

We ate and exchanged words for a bit. My mother looked at me. "Here son." She said handing me a small sack of copper and silver coins. "Go get some food, and something special for yourself." She told me. I beamed at her. I got up kissed her cheek from across the table and set off saying my farewells.

"Excuse me, pardon me, sorry." I said as I walked through the huge group of bustling people in the streets. That's when I noticed a dark figure looming against a wall. I stared at it for a bit and confirmed it was a woman. Something was odd though. I only caught a small glimpse of her face through the darkness of her hood. She looked, so.. Grim. I walked up to her. I could never stand a woman looking or acting depressed. "Hello." I said to her in a kind tone, hoping to somewhat brighten her day. After that though I continued walking towards the butchers.

I had just thought up that i would just take the rooftops when a guy walked pass me and greeted on a kind tone. I looked up slightly, wondering who was actually brave enough to greet a stranger who looked dangerous and dark like me. I didn't show any emotion. I didn't greet back and i didn't move at all. He had already walked farther, walking over towards the butchers. I hadn't really seen his face as i wasn't interested in him at all. My master had learned me never to let go of my concentration. However this was still a hard thing to do for me: i was a curious person at heart.
I realised i was pretty hungry and slowly walked over to the market, going over to a man who sold vegetables and fruit. I was fast and it was clear i had done it more often; easily i grabbed an apple and walked farther as there was nothing wrong. Normally nobody would see it, and if people saw it, they mostly didn't say anything. I knew they were scared of me... However it was clear that i was a woman, the hood that covered my face in shadows made me look like a dark figure... a dangerous figure you should stay away from.

When I Turned the corner I turned around and watched the dark figure, she was up to no good. I saw her pass a stand and seem to steal something , what it was though it wasn't obvious. I couldn'\t help but tail her, to make sure she did't cause trouble. I would beat my self up if something happened and I wasn't there to stop it. She continued walking for a bit. I stayed about a block away from her, using the crowd as a form of camouflage.

I left the market and walked down a street that ironically was called "Apple-lane". I went on in a way which showed that i knew my way around Makrat and slipped into a dark alley. The clothes i was wearing made me look like a shadow and my feet did not make any sound on the street. There were no other people in the small alley and i froze when i heared a sound untill i realised it was comming from a skinny stray cat. The animal was red, which ment it was a male, or a female that would never be able to produce young. It had light green eyes and looked at me for a moment before going on eating the leftover he had found on the side of the alley.
I knew on the end of the alley there was a low window with windowsill, and i knew i could use it to clime onto the roof.

I followed the figure further, she gracefully stepped into an alleyway. A skinny, red stray cat walked out, a scrap of some sort of white meat in it's mouth still hanging from the bone it dragged along aswell. it hissed at me and I shooed it away before I stuck my head around the corner to see that there was no one in the alley. But I looked deeper, looking for movement instead of one solid image, and I saw her. She looked like she was pondering something as she looked at the window of one of buildings that made the alley.

My brain was sending me alarm bells. My heart though, it told me to keep following this character. So I did. I noticed she must have been considering climbing the building seeing as she was seeming to look for a path up the wall, a safe passage to the roof tops. That's when my heart began to thunder, It blotted out all sound, It was like thunder. It's an Assassin I told myself thinking of the old legends of The Murderer, or Assassin's guild that was told to be located somewhere in the forests surrounding the city and villages near it.

My mind told me to stop. But I knew... there was something in me telling me to keep trailing this odd and dangerous looking character.

I was about to clime onto the windowsill, my foot already steady on the wood and my arm reaching out for the window above this one. that was the moment i got this odd feeling. like somebody was watching me from the shadows. i carefully turned around and stared down the alley. 'who is there?' i whispered with a voice that would sent shivers down anybodys spine. The words leaving my lips soubded cold and almost emotionless. i stared into the dark and slowly pulled my large silverly dagger out of it's sheet. 'show yourself' i commanded.

I shivered a bit at the voice but wouldn't be deterred. "Just a young man, just please don't hurt me." I said in a quivering afraid voice, I had taken up acting, I was a good liar. It should have fooled her. I grabbed a boy out of the street and threw him into the alley. that as the key, he looked scared because of the sudden tossing of him, and then he saw the glint of cold steel and he fled. I watched him run away.

'She better keep going. i don't need to get killed in an alley.' I told myself in my mind.

I looked at the younger boy, who fled on high speed. i frowned slightly under my hood... the voice that had spoken didn't fit with the young boy. I didn't turn my back to the alley and took a few steps forwards. my senses, trained by the guild, made me feel that things were not okay. 'i know you are there' i whispered... however i wasn't sure about that. still i couldn't take the risk of somebody following me. I took another few steps forwards and saw a slight figure of a men standing. he was taller then me and seemed stronger... however i knew i could beat him. 'so there you are..' i grinned coldly. 'did somebody send you after me?'. i watched the figure carefully.

I smirked to myself. I expected that she may see through my ploy. That went hand in hand with my theroy nof her being a theif, or assassin. "Well..." I said Knowing I couls stand a fight, but probably not win against her, I didn't even reach for my sword, I thought it better to remain neutral. "I'm just a man searching for someone, Not you though.I don't think so" i said. thinking of a way to get out of this. "My name is Roran." I told her.

I listened to his voice carefully, not really interested in what he had to say untill he said his name. I looked up under my hood and frowned slightly. Could this be THE roran? The boy i had been friends with all those years ago? I knew it was possible, and i also knew he shouldn't stay close to me, for his own good.
'You should not chase the shadows of the past' i said coldly, putting my dagger away in it's sheet carefully and turning around, going to clime onto the roof again. 'and besides' i said and turned my head slightly. 'i think i know who you are searching for... you should stop putting effort in it: she's already dead' i shuggred emotionless and with an elegant and fast movement i climbed onto the rooftop, looking back at Roran for a moment.
I felt sad on the inside, but would never be able to show it.

I looked at her with a asking look on my face. i hurried after her up the walls, Climbing after her, I wasn't as swift and agile as her, but i still managed to get up there. I realized up close I was much bigger than her. "Who are you?" I asked.

I turned around when i reached the rooftop and was taken in surprise when i realised he was so much taller. I looked up at him slightly, my hood falling back as i looked up at him with my blue eyes. Eyes that had seen to much horror and pain. Eyes that had no emotion in it anymore, but still were the light blue colour they had always been. My hair had turned slightlly darker over the years, but was still blonde and my ears, that had always been slightly pointed but now it was even more visible that i wasn't fully human.
'It's pretty easy, as i am the one who took her life' i said emotionless, looking up at him.
Inside i wished we could go back, to the time when we were kids. But i knew i couldn't. He couldn't. I had seen to much during the last few years.

I looked at her eyes, I knew now. "But.. bu.. they..th..." I trailed off. "What happened?" I asked.

I looked at him and shook my head. 'doesn't matter' i just said and pulled my hood back so my face was in the shadows again. 'you better make sure you are not seen with me anyway' i told him, turning around again to walk away.

I had finally found her after all these years, and she expected me just to let her walk away. I Grabbed her by the shoulder and brought her to a halt. "You just expect me to say goodbye, as soon as hello?" I asked her. She was my best friend. Like my sister. I couldn't let her go.

My hand automatically went to my dagger as he stopped me and i looked at the ground before turning around, holding my dagger in my hand. 'I'm sorry Roran' i said emotionless. 'yes, i expect you to go now, i do not want to kill you too...'

I knew she was serious, but I knew she wouldn't kill him. "Then you have to kill me." I told her in all seriousness.

I looked at him and grinned emotionless before shaking my head. 'no, i'm not killing you, not even for a real lot of money i would kill you' i said and smiled coldly. 'Roran, we will always be friends, but i can not have you on my side anymore... others will take you life then' i told him and turned around again, walking off again.
Inside i felt broken and sad... but i wasn't able to show that anyway.

"You know I'm coming with you. I spent my entire life looking for you. They can kill me. I have my sister back, you say people want to kill you. I'm here now, your big bro, I will go with you and protect you." I said. She knew that even if she didn't let me come, I'd follow. She had to say yes.

I walk around town with my hood up. Lately I have made myself a target, and now I'm on the run from armies, assassins, everyone. I can't even sleep without worrying that someone will realize who I am. As if the universe wanted to insult me, I see a wanted paper with my name on it to the right. Someone drew a picture of me, and it was quite inaccurate. However, there are some features that can still be compared to the real thing. The hair style, for example.

I immediately take the poster and rip it up. I crumple it and burn it to ashes inside my own hand. How dare they? I save a kingdom from a tyrant and their reaction is to have every person in the kingdom try to arrest me! I sigh, then I see a couple people going to an alley way. I hesitated, thinking it was a trap. However, I decided to pass by anyway, just to see who's there. When I passed it however, no one was there. I pull my hood over my face more and kept walking. No one should be able to see my face. Not while my head is down and my hood is up.

I walked down the city street looking for my Master. She was always running off. Not that it mattered. I could always find her. I walked by a merchant cart and plucked an apple from the stand as I bowed to an oncoming noble. They smiled and kept on their way. I made my way down the street taking a bite out of the apple. It was so sweet. Sinking my teeth back into the apple, I turned down dark alley and scaled the building with relative ease. As I reached the top, I noticed a hooded man. I watched him curiously for a moment and then coninued my search.

I looked at him, wondering... but laughing coldly at the last thing he said. Every emotion i tried to show was unnatural and not real, my eyes didn't laugh at all. 'Oh, Roran... the old days are over: i do not need protection, i do not need a big bro anymore' i said coldly. 'and i can't be saved, you'll eventually will believe me' i said. 'but okay... of course you are welcome to join me in my despair' i shuggred. It was nice to have him back... but on the same time i was filled with worrie... and all of this, the happiness... the pain.. the fear... i couldn't show it to him because of what the guild had done to me.

We were still on the rooftops and i looked down when i saw a hooded figure *Asher* walking around. I didn't move, but just watched him with curiousity that was natural for somebody of my kind.

*guys, a little message outside the rp. We got more characters in the rp, so it would be nice if you all ADD CHARACTER to your post! Only your own character you are playing with, so it's more easy and less confusing who you are interacting with inside the rp. Thanks*

I smirked to myself. I then did what I wanted to do for years. I walked up to her, and hugged her. I knew I would again if it was the last thing I did. I released her and then looked at her. Her face, her body, what kind of clothes she wore, everything had changed, except for her eyes. She still had the same eyes as when she was that little girl playing tag with me in the market place.

"So with all this, would you still drop in to see my dear old mum?" I asked her. i knew my Mum would love to see her.

I felt myself freeze totally and didn't move when he hugged me, not hugging him back at all, looking away even. When he asked me if i wanted to see his mother... i looked up at him confused. 'you really do not get the situation....' i said slowly, coldly again. 'everybody i talk with is in danger, and i'm not gonna put your mother in danger too...' i said.