Snippet #2261135

Bo was happily walking along next to Vane. To her own surprise her stuttering began to calm down. The only reason why could be pinned on Vane. Bo was not one to make friends right away but it had been years sense she'd made even a good acquaintance Vane was the first she'd become slightly close to... And with a smile on her face she noticed she was slowly able to talk to him more like a person... Though she knew that would change soon as she felt even the slightest bit of nervousness or fear

Bo blinked upon hearing Vane say her name. He spoke in a tone she'd heard before. It was the tone someone used when in there own way they unworthy and selfish to be around a person... so they would try and tell them they would be fine around others with others. She knew that tone... She knew it all to well from the only boy she'd ever dated. She narrowed her eyes and for once the wild girls face and emotions dropped. Dropped into something darker. "No... No... I-I won't..." She closed her eyes and looked up at Vane her gaze for once not kind or scared simply frozen in a form of pain and coldness. "I-I'm weird... V-Vane... e-even i-if they l-like me f-for a cute t-tasty lie... I-It won't be o-ok...I know... I-I know." She lowered her eyes and pain shot through her memories and heart.

They continued walking in silence when this time Bo was the one to whisper. "Y-Your... one o-of those p-people." She rubbed her arms. "T-The t-type who a-are scared t-to stay close... Y-You want too... b-but you feel you d-don't deserve t-too." She smiled grimly. "I-I know you a-are... I-I knew someone v-very much like y-you... He... h-he made m-me like that too... a-among... other.. things." She hugged herself at the memories of bruises and tears. Of blankness, anger and her own self hatred. The one that simply made it so easy for her to call herself weird... To use that as her own excuse to keep away from others. "I-It's... ok to be a little s-selfish... s-so long... a-as its for... t-the right t-thing." She smiled remembering the day her eldest brother said that when he'd left for college and she'd clung to his leg crying screaming she knew it was selfish but she'd not let go.