Addie couldnât really say no to Sam sheâd never been able to say no to him. Even when theyâd first meet heâd known she was an angel, heâd known she was running from something, yet he accepted her just the way she was and he loved her. The only reason theyâd called it off was because Dean had come back and Sam had left with him to go find their father, of course Dean had never seen him.
They were together for a year and she was ready to get herself kicked out of heaven for him, but being with him again brought back to many broken memories, being with him again almost hurt, because as much as she didnât want to admit it she was attracted to his brother. She missed him and she was tired of being alone, though.
âAddieâŠsay something.â He breathed, breaking through the silence and pulling her from her thoughts. What was she supposed to say? What could she say?
So instead of saying anything she kissed him again pressing her lips to his, letting him know she missed him and even if it was just for the night she wanted to remember what it was like to not be lonely all the time. She could tell just by the way he kissed her back that he was tired of being alone too.
After a long silenced moment of heated kissing Sam picked her up and she willing wrapped her legs around his waist as he carried her into his room and closed the door behind them. She wondered where Sky and Dean were, but she wasnât worried enough to ask and she trusted Sam enough that he wouldnât have called her if they werenât going to be gone for a while.
When Sam finally rolled of her she wasnât sure how long theyâd been in Samâs room and she honestly didnât care. She fought to get her breathing under control, she pulled the sheet up around her as she sat up leaving her back bare. Sam sat up and pressed his lips to her skin, tracing along her shoulder. The front door slammed shut causing her to jump.
âShit.â She breathed and she watched as Sam slipped his jeans. There was no talking or laughing which meant it wasnât Dean or Sky. âItâs Cas.â She whispered Sam looked at her confused.
Just as she was slipping on her bra and panties, she heard voice outside the door and she couldnât exactly hear what they were saying but it was Dean and Sky that much she knew. She glanced to Sam and he didnât bother putting on a shirt, her eyes focused on his anti-possession and it reminded her what he was and brought down from cloud nine ad back to reality.
âStay here.â Sam said calmly, though they both knew she wouldnât listen. He slipped out of the room leaving her alone.
Castiel was in Italy, somewhere, stumbling down coble stone streets. He couldnât actually remember where the hell he was, the last place he remembered being was Italy, so he just assumed thatâs where he was. There was no one on the streets, it was cold and dark and he was feeling beyond miserable. Heâd managed to find a bench and he took it as the perfect opportunity to sitâŠer lay rather.
His phone went off in his pocket reminding him he had voicemails and text messages and as much as he didnât want to check them because he already knew whoâd theyâd be from he forced himself to sit up and pull his phone out of his pocket. He listened to the voicemails. A few from Sam and the rest from Dean wondering where he was.
None from Sky, because sheâd been praying. Which surprised him, he had heard every single one of her prayers and he replayed them almost nightly. It was a mix of what she said when she prayed and wondering why his daughter hated him, that had drove him to drinking every damn night.
The last message was from Sam giving him there current location or what might possibly be there current location and so he stood up and within seconds he was standing outside the apartment like complex. He managed to stumble up the stairs and find the room number Sam and given him and he let himself in, slamming the door behind him and sitting down in the seemingly empty condo.
"Cas..where the hell have you been? We've been trying to get ahold of you for the past two weeks." He heard Dean say and he glanced up seeing both Dean and Sky come through the door.
âHere, thereâŠeverywhereâ He slurred a bit answering Deanâs question âYou know.â He shrugged like it was no big deal.
"CastielâŠAre you drunk?" he said focusing his attention to the best of his drunken ability on the young girl in front of him as she took his hands gently and led him to the bed.
âNo.â he scoffed âOf course notâŠmaybe a little.â He sighed
"What the hell? You're drunk?! Is that all that you've been doing this past month? Drinking? What the hell is wrong with you? We needed you here Cas!
Castiel glanced to the eldest Winchester âHas anyone ever told you how unpleasant you voice is when your angry.â He said before glancing back to Sky as she placed a hand on his forehead and he suddenly didnât want her seeing him the way he was and wished he hadnât drank.
"Are you okay, Castiel?" she asked in a gentle tone just as Sam came out of his room, in nothing more than his jeans.
âWhatâs going on?â he asked obviously having not heard the conversation. Before anyone had the chance to answer Addie came out of Samâs room in nothing but Samâs shirt which looked more like a dress on her small thin frame.
âDad.â She sighed as she walked over to him acting like her and Sam hadnât just had sex, although Cas wouldnât have caught onto it if she acted like thy had. âYouâre drunk.â She said kneeling down in front of him next to Sky. âYou smell like a liquor store.â She smirked up at him.
âSky, sweetie, mind getting me some water and a cold wash cloth?â she asked the young girl that looked worried for her father.