Lola 'Lolly' Martinez's Story

"Oh, I can't wait to see everyone!" Lola Martinez squealed from the passager side of her father's Truck. "It's only been 3 months, Lolly" said Beauregard Duncan said with his eyes on the road. "I know but still. I have all these gifts an' stuff from all the places we've been." chirped the pretty afro-latina. She wasn't slow, she knew it wasn't a normal vacation. They'd visited every place the KOA was in Europe but whatever. She got to spend some much needed Daddy-Daughter time with her father. Something they hardly did. She was glad for it and while she was a little upset that it was only possible because of work,but since he was usually gone because of work, she was content. Unfortunately, she was starting 9th grade and had only two weeks to prepared for that.

"Okay so what all did I get for everyone?" Lolly asked herself as she stood in her pink and green bedroom of their two-story home. She took the boxes out of her bags and set them of her bed. "Messenger bag from Madrid for Ria." She said and set the bag to the side. "Bandanna for Merc from London." She set that to the side. "Shark tooth Necklace for Jason also from Madrid." She said, with a small smile. She hoped he liked it. She knew it was so very surfer not biker but when she saw it she thought of him so she couldn't resist. "Earrings from Mexico for Nickie and Trucker hat from Texas for Deacon." She said and smiled. She ran downstairs with a smile but it faded when she saw her Daddy putting on his cut. "Daddy?" She asked. He wasn't supposed to go to work just yet. "Wh-what about dinner?" She asked, trying and failing to hid the disappointment from her face. "I know, I have to head to the clubhouse for a bit. I'll see you when I get home.""We just got home." Lolly said, her eyebrow creased with a sad frown. "I know, Baby girl but I have to work." He said and kissed her forehead. She blinked black curly hair from her eyes. She knew there was no arguing with him. He was always working. She didn't know why she expected that to change. It was her own fault, having spent 3 months just him and her, she'd gotten use to it. He only worked when she was asleep. They both pretended it was a actual vacation and he spoiled her every stop so it worked.
She sighed. "Alright. I love you, Daddy." She said and he nodded. "I love you too, Baby girl, Don't wait up." He said and disappeared out the door. "Do I ever..."

After Lolly bagged up her gifts and made her way out the door. She wondered if they'd recognize her. She'd grown a little taller. She was 5'4 so it wasn't much, She'd started coming into her womanly figure as well, she wasn't the skinny little kid, she was when she left. She had her braces removed right before they'd headed out, she still had a retainer but it couldn't be seen. She wasn't blind. She knew she had a body now. One that got her some attention when she was in Madrid. She then realized Maybe they really wouldn't recognized me She thought with a cheeky grin.
She liked the idea of surprising them, somewhere in the back of her mind, she hoped Jason would noticed.

After few blocks. Lolly saw a group of guys, one of them was extremely tall blonde. She cocked her head confused. They were crowded around bikes that she was sure belonged to her friends but they weren't that tall before. More specifically Jason. They were almost the same height when she left, he was slightly taller. It was then she heard his laugh and knew right away it was him. She walked up to them, pressed a finger to her lips after setting down her bags when she saw Nicky and Merc, who gave her a look she'd never gotten from them before. She ignored it as she rose to her tip-toes and covered Jason's eyes. She giggled, her curly hair falling over her shoulders. "Guess who." She sang happily, having a hard time keeping her hands over his eyes as he was much taller then her now.

Jason felt a pair of hands cover his eyes as he was hanging out with Merc and Nicky, he heard Lolly's voice right away and grinned "hey Merc, I think it's your mom?" he said, Nicky laughed as Lolly punched him in the ribs. He turned to look at her and took a second glance, she wasn't the same skinny kid she was when she had left. "You know you still punch like a girl right?" he said with a grin and laughed as Lolly flipped him off. "Where the fuck did you go anyway? We figured some guy had hit on you and your dad had finally snapped and taken you to some convent to become a Nun" Nicky said teasing, "don't Nun's gotta be virgins first?" Merc said with a grin, then quickly dodged Lolly's fist flying at him. "You know she can kick your ass right?" Jason said laughing at Merc. As they joked around Jason couldn't help but notice that Lolly had filled out a bit more than before, but they were like brother and sister, it was weird to think of her like that.

"So how was the Europe trip anyway?" Jason asked, having been on similar trips many times before, however unlike Lolly he always had his mom around to keep him entertained while his dad was doing work stuff. As they talked a bit more Lolly noticed something else had changed with Jason, as the four of them talked she caught a glimpse of his arm, under his forearm she saw the letters "KFFK" tattooed onto his arm. It was a tattoo members of the club got, but Jason, even though he was 16, was still way too young to be involved in the club, the club had a rule that members had to be 18 with no exceptions, but it's not something Jason's dad would have just let him get for no reason either.

As they talked they saw Ria walking up towards the group, "hey Jason's wife is coming now" Merc said with a laugh, "uh oh, it's the girlfriend" Nicky said teasing Jason as Ria came towards the group.

Lolly flinched as Jason turned her to him. Her head was down, her face hidden behind her curly hair, she was crying fully then. Lolly never cried. Jason knew that. She'd broken her arm in three places when she was 5 and didn't cry but now, faced with the fact that she couldn't allow herself to be with Jason. It was too much. "It's not hard. Jason. It's...It's...not right!" She said her voice raising to a crescendo. She was trembling. She wrapped her arms tightly around herself. Her eyes closed tight. "I want to be with you. I do...Maybe you don't believe in Karma but I do and so far...I can't let anything happen to you, Jason and if we keep this up...I know something bad will happen." She said and turned away from him, sobbing. "I still have nightmares of seeing you bleeding out on my bed. You'd gone so pale so fast..." She said, her voice breaking as she cried. She felt sick, her head hurt and as did her chest. She'd never seen Jason down like that and what made it worse was her fault. Atleast that's how she felt. "It was horrible." She said softly."I can't see that again..." She said, finally looking up at him through bleary red eyes. "I can't."

"Listen....it wasn't your fault okay, your dad heard something and jumped to conclusions, if anything it's more MY fault than yours" Jason said, putting his arms around her as she cried. "Listen, if you want to be with me what the hell else matters? So what if you believe in Karma, you believed there was a monster in your closet till you were 13...you were wrong back then and you're wrong now. Listen, even if we didn't get together I can't go back to Ria now anyway" Jason said looking into Lolly's eyes.

Lolly cried in his chest as he held her. He didn't get it. Of course he didn't believe in Karma the way she did. He wasn't the type of person to concern himself with consequences. She was. He couldn't put two and two together. He keeps blaming himself. She baited him. He'd broken the bottle. He ended the game. He actually had enough sense to quit while he was ahead. She didn't. The more she thought about it. The clearer it became. It was her fault. All of it. From the very beginning. Now, faced with the same scenario. She could stop it, even if Jason didn't see it. She looked up at him as he spoke about being wrong about Karma. "I'm not wrong, Jason." She said as their eyes met again. Her heart began to race. "I'll make this right for you two." She said and it occured to her how bad this must of have been for Ria. After all, her first time was with Jason too, The exact same night. Only to have him cheat on her with her supposed best friend. Lolly was too busy wallowing in her own self pity to realize that. "I have to make this right..." She said and pulled away from his arms and felt unreasonably cold. She leaned up and kissed his forehead. She was so scared he was gonna hate her too. "I'm sorry but I can't..." She said and turned away. "Not until I make this right somehow." She said, roughly wiping her tears. "please don't hate me..." She whispered so softly, it was hardly audible.

Jason couldn't stand listening to it, mainly because of what it meant. "You ARE wrong" Jason said, his voice raising a bit, it had taken him this long to figure out his feelings for Lolly and now she was telling him she couldn't, it was wrong. "You keep saying you can't...why now is this the only time I've ever heard you use that word...with this, with us...NOW you can't do something?" Jason wasn't going to cry, that would never happen, however if he wasn't going to do that it had to be replaced with something else, and Walkers were known for their predisposition to anger. "Dammit Lolly you don't ever give up on anything, if anything you fight harder for it, so why can't you do that now? Because this IS right, the two of us together...hell, you were the one who taught ME to not give a fuck about what other people thought..." Jason's voice trailed off, "I mean how the hell do I just walk away and pretend like this never happened?" he said quiet looking at her.

Lolly jumped as Jason's voice rose. Suddenly, her fear -which she wasn't good at handling to begin with- turned to anger. But she somehow managed to keep her words calm. "You don't get it, Jason. I'm not giving up. I'm using the good sense to stop while we're ahead. Like you did at the party. You had enough sense to stop things before they got started but I pressed the issue. It's not even about what they think. It's about what we did. What I did." She said shaking her head. She couldn't believe that she was telling him no. After all this time, She knew she had feelings for him, Long before this. Now that he had feelings for her too and they couldn't be together. Oh the irony.

She watched as he managed to calm down. She didn't want to have this conversation anymore. If he hated her forever, then fine. It was better him hate her while he was alive then love her and be dead. If he could only understand karma the way she did, then he'd get that. They wouldn't be having this conversation. Then his next question struck a nerve. She turned to him. How were they suppose to deal with that? They'd done it twice now. The first time had her mind so messed up, she almost slipped off the uneven bars during training. She took a deep breath. She didn't know how she'd deal with it but if she could somehow get him back with Ria... She ran her fingers through her hair. "I'll talk to Ria...She probably blames me anyway and she'd right to because it was my fault all of this happened...I'll make sure she knows that." She said and grabbed her top from the floor, with trembling fingers. "If she can forgive us...then...maybe..."

"You know for as long as I can remember you do this...torture yourself, blame yourself when it's not your fault. I want to be with you, you want to be with me...but can't...because of that fairy tale Karma shit" Jason said pulling his jeans and shirt on. "You know by comparison, this hurts a hell of a lot more than some fucking shotgun" he said, his emotions were getting to that spot where he wasn't sure what was coming next. "Sorry....I can't keep talking about this....I'll see you later, call me if you change your mind" Jason said walking out the door. He couldn't think straight, he wanted Lolly, she wanted him...but they weren't together, Jason hopped onto his bike and took off, not sure where he was going, but he just had to go somewhere.

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Jason ended up in the one place he seemed to go to when he needed to get away, the clubhouse garage. He'd been working on his bike for awhile when Nicky walked into the garage. "Hey, how's it going?" Nicky asked walking in. Jason didn't reply, there was only one person he'd have any interest in talking too...but he was pretty sure he wouldn't like the conversation. "I heard about getting the patch, that's a pretty sweet deal...although I guess you were always going to be the first one out of all of us" Nicky said. Jason stopped and looked at Nicky, "unless you want another wrench upside the head fuck off and leave me alone" Jason snapped. "Hey take it easy bro...I'm just coming to see what's up?" Nicky said. Jason was seeing red, he couldn't get angry at Lolly, it just didn't work that way...but because of everything at the barn, he and Lolly couldn't be together, at least that's how his mind read it. The unfortunate thing for Nicky is that Jason's mind was desperately searching for a target to focus his anger on and Nicky was in danger of becoming the lucky target. "Bro huh? Cause you couldn't fucking pull the trigger now everything is fucked up" Jason snapped. "What the hell are you talking about?" Nicky said confused. "Cause you didn't have the balls to finish the deal with Lolly, she's all fucking conflicted about what happened with me and her" Jason said angrily. "Sorry, I didn't know I had to leave EVERY girl alone, see you were pretty tight with Ria and all" Nicky snapped back, "Maybe if you could have kept it in your pants instead of cheating on your girlfriend like some fucking loser of an asshole..." and that's all Jason needed.

Deacon and Jimmy had been sharing a beer in the lounge when they heard banging and crashing coming from the garage. They ran into the garage and saw Jason and Nicky at each others throat. "Well...ya think if we let em keep going they'll beat the stupidity out of each other?" Jimmy quipped, "they'd have to kill each other for that brother" Deke said as the two men rushed over to the boys. Deacon grabbed Jason and pulled him away as Jimmy grabbed Nicky and yanked him back. "Cool it dumbass!" Jimmy snapped at Nicky, Jason tried lunging past his dad who slapped him upside the head "calm the fuck down!" Deke snapped at Jason. Finally both boys were just glaring at each other, Jimmy grinned "besides if we let you keep fighting like two fags what would people think?" Jimmy said laughing. "Fuck it...I got other places to be" Nicky said walking out the door, he started realizing the pain in his jaw, and realized he had been cut in a few places as well. Jimmy walked out as Deacon looked at Jason, "I don't know what this shit was all about...but you best sort it out before you kill somebody" and with that he walked out of the garage.

Jason just sat there by himself thinking....he then kicked a spare gas tank across the garage, this thing with Lolly was affecting him more than he'd ever thought it would.

Lolly watched Jason's back as he left. Overwhelmed, She threw herself on her bed and cried more then she ever did in her life.

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Ria finished packing finally. She couldn't deal with them now. Her grandmother wanted her to visit her for a while and now she had a reason to go. She sighed heavily. Now she knew why she felt a little guilty when she told Lolly she and Jason was dating. Lolly wanted him. She could have said so instead of just fucking him. "Ugh!" She huffed and threw down her luggage.
Most people thought Ria was nice and sweet...and compared to Lolly. She was but to any other girl, she was down right mean. She wasn't as sassy but she had a temper on her.
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door, she arched an eyebrow and opened the door.
"What the fuck do you want?" She said as she saw Lolly on her porch. Lolly looked sick. Her eyes were bloodshot and puffy. Her face was unnatural pale. Ria felt a twinge of pity until she remembered what happened. "Look, Ria. I can't even begin-" She stopped when she saw Ria's bag. "You're leaving?"
"Yea. I'm going to see my grandmother in Ireland until school. What. Do. You. Want?"
Lolly took a breath. "Everything that happened. I wanted to apologize. I mean, I wanna make this right." She said and Ria rolled her eyes. "You wanna clear your fucked up conscience. You fucked my boyfriend, Lola!" She shouted. "The one I lost it too but you knew it." She said. "You know, I went over it in my head a million times. You wanted Jason. You did and You took him." She said and Lolly didn't say anything. "He was gonna let it go. You couldn't. You saw the opportunity to kiss him and you knew he wouldn't back down. Not from you." She said and turned to her again. "You always needed to the center of attention and now you are. I seriously hope it sucked to have explain how you fucked my boyfriend with a gun to your face." She said and Lolly closed her eyes. Ria just scoffed and went back to arranging her bags. "Look, Ria. It was wrong. I know that but I'm not here for me. I don't expect you to forgive me but Jason. He-"
"Fuck him. Oh wait, you already did!" Ria shouted. "You want me to forgive him? He fucked me ad you the same night. I heard thought the rumors were fake, but he really is a community guy!" Ria probably would have a kept that to herself if she weren't so pissed but it was too late as Lolly cocked back and punched her hard in the face, she held back enough not to completely level her. Ria fell backward into her bags but recovered quickly and rushed her out the door and they tumbled down her porch steps. Lolly's wrist twisted some but she hardly felt it. She grunted as Ria punched her in the face. Lolly having grown up around nothing but guys, was used hits much harder then Ria's so she took it without so much as a blink. She grabbed her hair, forced her down and climbed on top of her. "Everything was my doing. Mine. If you wanna blame anyone blame me. Don't you dare put this on him!" She hollered at her. Ria fought underneath Lolly's grip but to no avail. "I do blame you!" Ria barked. "I blame you more then him!" She screamed and threw her head forward and hit her in the nose. Lolly fell backwards and Ria got to her feet. "You got him to chase you! You got him to kiss you! You got him to fuck you and you got him shot!" She barked. "I will never forgive you." She said and went back inside as Lolly held her bleeding nose. Lolly got up and made her way home. She didn't know how much Ria's opinion mattered to her and now she hated her. She hoped that if Ria could forgive her. Then she could maybe forgive herself but now...She'll never forgive herself.

Lolly made her way home. She checked to see if her nose was broken and thankfully it wasn't but her face was brusied up pretty nice. She iced her face and decided she just wanted to sleep. She climbed into bed and dispite her nose still bleeding, she could still smell Jason all over her sheets. She sobbed into her pillow. She wanted to talk to Jason but she knew it would only end in more yelling from him and more crying for her. Now, all she wanted was to have Jason back on her side. She wanted her best friend back. Both of them. Ria would never forgive her. She wanted to be angry still for her calling Jason a Community guy. It was something they called guys who fucked just about anybody. They were like a community pools. 'Open to the public.' It was funny then but now. It pissed her off yet she could only get but so mad. Ria wouldn't have said that if things hadn't gone down the way they did. With that, Lolly ended up crying herself to sleep.

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Beau watched as some stupid Prospect called his daughter q slut in front of Jason. Jason was already on egde, He saw that so Beau didn't even bother stopping him until Jason got hit. Beau decided it was his turn so He grabbed the kid up. It was like pulling back a pitbull, Dangerous and only a few men had the balls to do it. Jason looked up at him and saw that it was in fact Beau that did it and seemed to be able to calm him some. Beau glared as the prospect spoke and Jason instigated. Beau was a big man, easily 7ft and though he looked big, it was all muscle. He was not a man to be triffled with as that prospect would find out later. Beau would deal with him later but for now. He had to keep Jason from killing someone. He gave the kid a pat on the back and decided that he'd go check on Lolly. When he got home, he went up to her room and peeked in. She was sleeping but she kept heaving every so often, the way she did when she cried. He didn't know what happened between her an Jason but it wasn't good. That girl never cried this hard. Only one person has done that and unfortunately it was him.

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Ria was actually terrified as Jason screamed at her. She wasn't Lolly, who wasn't afriad to yell back at Jason. She jumped hard when he punched the wall and took off. She clapped a hand over her mouth, trembling. She decided enough was enough. "I-I gotta go. My flight leaves tonight."She said to Red as Red frantically dailed on her phone. Ria almost ran home, she was so scared. She didn't know how Lolly did it. How she could handle that.

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Nickie was over at the garage almost immediately. "What the hell is wrong with you, Screaming at Ria like that?"

Ria had been icing her face from the fight with Lolly as she heard another knock at the door. She was not ready for another fight. She put down the ice and went to the door. She couldn't believe that it was Nickie and Jason at her door. She didn't dare curse in front of Nickie but she wanted to. She had a few choice words for Jason but she wasn't sure if she could say them after the way he snapped out. She was still actually scared but Nickie said she'd deal with him if he tried something like that.

She listened to him apologize and sighed. " The things I said. probably not the proper choice of words but..." She shook her head. "It hurt. Way too much. She was my best friend. I never thought in a million years she could do something like that. You either. I mean I knew you two were close so maybe I should have seen it coming..." She sighed."I guess a part of my anger was because Lolly's ...well Lolly. We do the exact same things, yet She's better then me at everything, She'd a dead eye, She's stronger, tougher, She's not afraid of anything, and She's gorgeous, she could have any guy she wanted but I had you so...I thought I finally had something she didn't, something she couldn't beat me in but then..." She felt tears brim her eyes. She didn't even realize that until now. " I don't know if I'll ever be okay with what happened I mean...you were my fi..."She stopped as her eyes fell on Nickie. "I should have came to see you but I guess...I don't know...I didn't want to feel sympathy for you. I guess if I saw you, laid up in the hospital, I would have." She said and looked at him. "I honestly don't hate you but I don't know how I feel right now and I'm still too hurt to think about it." She said and looked over at Nickie then back to him. "I really gotta get going if I'm gonna make my flight..."

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Lolly woke up with a start. Her head swam and her face hurt. She had to give Ria credit. She hit pretty hard. Lolly took a shaking breath and decided sleep was not happening now. She got dressed in a plain tank top and some beat up old work jeans and decided she needed to keep her busy, so she'd fix up that old Bug she'd been working on for ever. Her dad had told her she could keep it if she could fix it even though she was legally old enough to drive yet. Although once when they were about 12, She and Jason went joyriding. She ended up crashing into a utility pole. Something none of the adults ever found out about. Lolly sighed. She really wished things went back to the way things were before all this shit. She pulled her hair into a ponytail and made her way downstairs. She found her father asleep on the couch. She was hard on him, she knew that. She needed to her forgive herself but she also needed to forgive him as well. Jason was fine as she found out already. She needed to let that go. She found a blanket and gently lay it over him, she kissed him atop his head and headed out.

She made her way to the garage. Most people weren't allowed there but who was dumb enough to tell Lolly what she couldn't do? aside from the fact that if Beau didn't kick their ass, She certainly would. She noticed the clubhouse was relatively empty save for a few Mama's cleaning up. She made her way through the clubhouse and it was then she heard the Mama's whispering among themselves. Talking about how she could show her face after getting the heir apparent shot. Lolly went from Melancholy to Rage in a matter of seconds. She turned and sailed over the bar, and commenced to tearing into the Mama. Destiny, if Lolly bothered to care. She sent her fist into the woman's face twice before grabbing her by the throat. "You got something to say, you stupid bottle blonde bitch?! Huh?!" She screamed as the woman tried to block but was no match for the 15 year old's flying fist. As she sent a numerous amount of blows to the woman's face as she screamed. "Say it again, You stupid cunt! Say it again!" the woman, who was easily 20 maybe 30 years old, whimpered as her face was nearly bashed in. Lolly suddenly felt a pair of arms wrap around her and snatch her off the woman. Lolly thrashed violently that she was almost out of their grip. "I'll kill her, I'll fucking kill her!" She screamed and Jimmy laughed and told the woman to get lost or seriously get dead. Lolly was breathing heavy and she was almost snarling as Jimmy practically dragged her toward the garage, the heels of her shoes dragging across the floor as Destiny managed to get up and run off but before Lolly lunged at her one more time, slipping at out of Jimmy's grip. Luckly for Destiny, Jimmy managed to baseball slid across the floor and scooped Lolly up and through her over his shoulder. Lolly heard Jimmy mutter something about Lollypop taking on a whole new meaning. "Lemme go! She's dead!"
Lolly had no idea that Jason, not too long ago was doing the same thing. Those two were almost identical in their actions. Lolly was just as violent as Jason, she just didn't look it.

Ria had no way of knowing how much her comment hurt Jason be re-opening the wound he was actively trying to get rid of. He was more in control of himself though this time around. "Sorry...." Jason said his voice trailing, it was the only word he could get out. Jason got up and walked over to a seat a little ways away. This flight wasn't going to be fast enough...he couldn't be with Lolly, he obviously wasn't wanted around Ria, him and Nicky weren't quite there yet....he just wanted to get to Ireland, hang out with Uncle Louie and the boys, and drink beer...and lots of it. His eyes kept trailing over to Ria, dammit Ria was a great girl, good looking, and they got along great...going for Lolly was just him getting greedy and it ruined everything. He just shook his head, dammit he needed to be in Dublin right now.

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Nicky walked into the garage as Lolly was yelling for a wrench...she was alone in a garage and yelling for somebody to hand her a tool? Nicky picked up a wrench, Lolly rolled out from under the car and snapped at him. "Ya got something on your face" Nicky said with a grin as Lolly mentioned what had happened. "Yeah I talked with Jason...it didn't end that well either" Nicky said. "You want a beer or something?" Nicky asked with a grin

"No offense but...if I hear anymore about that Karma shit..." Jason's voice trailed off. He was quiet then looked up at Ria...at least she was still talking to him. "It's more than just that...I mean this is nothing...it's like, girls, dating, friendship shit...and I fucked this up, I mean REALLY fucked it all up....hell I got fucking shot..." then it hit him, "fucking hell I'm not even going to get through the damn detector probably" he shook his head. "My dad's counting on me to take over, to become Vice President one day and then take over the whole club one day....how the fuck can I do that? I can't even date a girl I really liked without fucking it up. Like shit look at this...me and you are here at an airport running to Ireland, I nearly kicked my best friend's head in, Lolly is all fucked up...I nearly got killed.....and this is just over dating and sex" Jason said, the stress getting to him more, "how the fuck am I supposed to run anything, how can anyone ever fucking trust me not to get them killed when I can't even protect myself from getting killed in the house of somebody I grew up with my entire life." He then looked at Ria and kinda snapped out of his rant, "I dunno where that all came from" he said quietly..."Maybe I should just leave LA for good" he said looking down at the floor.

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Nicky and Lolly sat drinking but it didn't take long for Lolly to start feeling the effects. Nicky smirked a little when Lolly talked about how she should have just fucked him instead. He saw that if he really wanted, Lolly was probably prime picking right now, he could probably say anything and get into her pants. "Listen...let's get you to the loft so you can sleep this off before your old man catches you and kills you" Nicky said chuckling, helping Lolly into the garage and into the loft. There was a bed and blanket, Nicky laid her down and covered her. "I'm down in the garage if you need anything" Nicky said to her.

Jason sat there with his arm around Ria, he wanted more than anything to go back to Ireland, he wanted revive Matthias and make him really pay for what had happened. But he couldn't, so the only person left was whoever leaked him the information, whoever that person is...or was...they were going to pay, Jason could feel for Beau, but Lolly was close to him too, he could understand Beau wanting payback but if he wanted the traitor he was going to have to beat Jason to him...hell Beau had shot him with a shotgun at point blank, so he owed him one anyway.

Deacon walked over and sat down beside Beau, he could see Beau shutting down. "She's a fighter brother, just like her dad, if any kid could make it through this, it's gonna be her" Deacon said with arm around Beau's shoulder. It was a rare sight to see these guys showing emotion like this, but this was one of those rare occasions where the bond of the brotherhood really showed through. There were even members from KOA London at the hospital, they had no involvement or part of the incident, even though some of them probably had no clue who Lolly was...she was family.

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Back in Los Angeles Jimmy had called an open church meeting, this meant even prospects and Mama's were allowed in, something that rarely ever happened. With Deacon gone, Jimmy was the acting one in charge.

"You've all heard about Lola, I know everyone here is feeling for her and Beau....well almost everyone" he said as a murmur went through the group. "The asshole who did this had info on Lolly, info there is no fucking way he could have gotten on his own, info that could only have come from this clubhouse" Jimmy said, he was far from the reserved one, and he was doing everything he could to hold his anger in right now. "Somebody in this room sold her out, sold out Beau's little girl...the only family he's got left", the room went silent as all eyes were on Jimmy. "To whoever it was...if you haven't figured it out yet....you're fucking dead" Jimmy said coldly. "But this club respects honor....whoever it is....man up....admit it, own your actions.....and whatever your ending is, I promise you it'll be much easier than if we gotta find you ourselves....cause we will find you, I fucking promise you that" Jimmy said as he scanned the group. Members were looking around at each other, the un-asked question was who would have done it. "I understand admitting it right now would probably get you killed on the spot by everyone in this room....so when we're done here, everyone go home...I'll be in my office....you want to prove you still got balls, you'll know where I'll be..." Jimmy slammed the gavel down "We're dismissed"

Beau looked at Deacon. He let out a shaky breath and stared off into oblivion. He wanted to scream. He wanted to break something, He wanted desperately to take her place but it would do no good. That's what was driving him insane. He had to sit there. Beau ws a man of action yet he had to sit and wait.

After a long while, Deacon got up after getting a phone call from Jimmy as one of the KOA London members. Danny Boy, approached Beau. He was in his late 20's, Deep black hair. He placed a hand on Beau shoulder. "Alright then, Mate?" He said softly. Beau looked up. "Hey." he said, his voice was low. DannyBoy and a few others met Lolly over the summer. Beau made it a point to show off his daughter's bike knowledge by having her take apart Danny Boy's bike and put it back together. It worked better then it did when he got it. They all loved, respected and slightly feared the kid after that. "Ya'know. She said if I messed up my bike again, she'd throttle me. Well bloodyhell, if I didn't wipe out the week after you left. I thought. That kid's gonna fuckin pop me off." He said and Beau looked up with a small hardly audible chuckle. Dannyboy was a jokester. He was always good for a laugh even at his own expense. "I guess I'd better git while the gettings good cause when she wakes up-"


It was then that the doctor came rushing out. Everyone was on egde. Beau shot up. She looked scared. "She had another seizure but she's stable now." She said quickly. " We hoped that if we kept her stable long enough, the drug would run it's course, so long as we treated the symptoms. However, we found that the drug administered twice. She had a much heavier dosage then we first though. One was in her stomach, Then other in her bloodstream." She said. "We've pumped her stomach but it's still heavy in ger blood so she will need a blood transfusion." She said and Beau nodded. "Alright. Then do it." He said but she looked down. "Lola has a rare blood type. B negative. It's rare here and in the US. We've checked with other hosptials and having some rushed in but the supply is limited. We aren't sure if it'll be enough." She said. "This is a shot in that dark, I know but do you know of anyone with that type. You maybe?" She asked. He shook his head. "A-" He said. "Her Mother? " That hit Beau like a bus. "Her mother is dead..." He said. The doctor bit her lip. She hadn't even had time to consider as there was no crying woman in the waiting room. Just alot of men and a boy and girl. "I'm so sorry. We'll do what we can. See if maybe we can check with other hospitals." She said and rushed off.

Beau walked back in the waiting room. "She needs a blood transfusion but her blood type is rare for the UK. For the U.S too apparently..." He said and that was it. He couldn't state the obvious. Everyone in the room knew what was happening. Without the transfusion. Lolly would die.

Beau sat back against the seat. His hand covering his face, trying to think. His mind went to some strange places as he wondered who he could bleed. He wondered darkly if Mathias was a B-. He hadn't been dead that long.

Suddenly, Ria's voice broke him from his thoughts. "Um. What's her blood type?" She asked with a sniff. Her eyes were puffy and red. "B-" Beau said softly. Ria looked around to the group. The members looked at one another. "I don't even know mine..." Dannyboy said softly. Beau though he was hurting, he felt grateful as everyone asked about their blood types. They all were willing to give up their blood to save his daughter.

It was then Deacon walked in finished with his phone call and asked about the progress. Ria spoke before Beau did. "Lolly has a rare blood type. None of us have it." She said softly.

After a long wait, the doctor came out, her face was grim. Beau looked up. "There was a hospital that had B- but it'll take a day or so to arrive." She said and it was then Deacon spoke up saying something about his blood type being B-. The doctor looked hopeful. Beau looked up almost as if he was gonna say no. Deacon shoot him a look saying something about sitting down and shutting up. He wasn't doing it for him he was doing it for the kid.

Deacon went with the doctor- Dr. Douglas and then it was more waiting.

Finally after what seemed like forever, Dr. Douglas returned. "The transfusion was a success." She said and Beau sighed and started for the room. Dr. Douglas raised her hands. "She's still in a coma." She said and Beau looked confused. "How?"
"We-we never really sure when a person comes out of it. It could take days...weeks...years even. It's up to her." She said grimly. Beau sighed. "When can I see my daughter?" He asked, trying to keep the frustration from his voice. "Soon." Dr. Douglas assured him.

Days had gone by and Lolly still hadn't woken up. After a while, Everyone was able to come visit her. Ria walked in as Beau sat beside Lolly in a chair beside her bed. Ria looked at Lolly's face. It was strange to see Lolly so still. Lolly could never sit still, she hated it. She moved more in her sleep. As Ria drew closer, she noticed how pretty Lolly was. It was an odd thought but she looked so peaceful, where ever she was, Ria hoped it was as peaceful as she looked. She looked at Beau. "I'd been talking to Dr. Douglas." She said softly. "She said that, it sometimes, it helps to talk..." She said. Ria had been learning all she could from the doctor about coma care. She wanted desperately to wake Lolly up. "She told me." Beau said softly, Ria noticed, Beau's hand on Lolly's. Her heart broke for him. Ria took a seat on the other side of Lolly, looking at her. She hated that she'd had to be hooked up to all of those tubes and monitors. Thankfully, She'd been breathing on her own and her heart was at it's normal pace. Now she just had the IV hooked to her arm. She smiled some. Lolly would tease her now. Ria hated needles, she'd pick on her about it when they were younger. "You know. She'd pick on me right now." She said and Beau looked up. "I hate needles. Lolly, who fears nothing, would pick on me any chance she got." Ria said with a light laugh. Beau gave a small grin. "Like the one time, we were watching Nightmare of Elm Street: Dream Warriors. I screamed when Freddy had the needles for fingers. She laughed at me so hard." Ria said and laughed at the memory. "I remember. I came home about that time." He said recalling hearing Ria scream. If it weren't for Lolly's boisterous laugh, he'da thought something was wrong. He'd give anything to hear that laugh about now.
"I'll be taking her home soon." he said and Ria looked up then nodded. Lolly would need a nurse and Ria was more than willing to do it. She wasn't certified but there was a midwifery program at her school in Ireland that was acing. She figured she could apply those skills to helping Lolly. She was going to back to LA.
It was funny, It was Lolly that made her want to leave and it was Lolly that made her want to come back.

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A Month had gone by and Lolly hadn't changed. Beau had her brought back to LA. Deacon had made it his main focus to find whoever this rat was -As did Jason but that was a given-

Everyone had came to see Lolly. Talk to her, bringing her gifts and what not while Ria gave them instructions on it. Ria kept at Lolly's side, she was her nurse of sorts. She would call Dr. Douglas every so often for guidance.

Ria sat with Lolly, having just finished checking her vitals and what not when she noticed some. Everyone had come to visit Lolly, Nickie, Beau -of course-, Nicky, Merc, her friends from her gymnastics team, Hell even Jimmy and Deacon. They were talk to her though Jimmy didn't talk long. They weren't particularly close, neither was her and Deacon but it seemed that after the transfusion. Deacon seemed to have a bit of a bond with Lolly. Even if she weren't conscious to feel it. The strange thing was, everyone but Jason had come to visit. Which Ria thought was odd. Lolly and Jason where like Batman and Robin. Well more like Bonnie and Clyde, they were inseparable -literally- in some cases as she found out last summer. So why hadn't he come to see her?

One day. Ria approached him about it. "You know. She'd been ticked if you didn't come to see her?" Ria said to him. He said something about being busy and that he hadn't found the time as he was looking for the rat. Had that been Lolly she would have seen right through that lie and bitch slapped the mess out of him. Ria nodded. "Okay." She said and was about to go back to Lolly's house. She'd been practically staying there since Lolly's been out He went on about not wanting to see Lolly like that, venting a bit. Ria nodded."I get it but maybe it'll help."