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"Is there so much hate for the ones we love?"
Running Up That Hill - Meg Myers
Spanish Sahara - Foals
Obstacles - Syd Matters
Heavy - Linkin Park Ft. Kiiara
Silhouettes - Of Monsters And Men
I Scare Myself - Beth Crowley
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F U L LXN A M E
Erin Cerys Aleen Monahan
N I C K N A M E (S)
Rin/Ri | Most common
Cer/Cerys | Common, doesn't mind it
B I R T H D A Y
March 15th, Pisces
A G E
Twenty-Five
S E X U A L I T Y
Panromantic | Homosexual | Openly so
E T H N I C I T Y
Caucasian
H O M E T O W N
Brooklyn, New York
H E X
#800000
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S T Y L E
Erin wears whatever feels more comfortable for her that day. Anything from a t-shirt and skinny jeans and boots, to wearing an oversized hoodie and sweat pants. Her sense of style isn't anything of note, except that it fits her and demonstrates how exactly unorthodox she is in every aspect. Herpreferred go-to outfits are anything that is a t-shirt and jeans, to button up short sleeves with jackets and boots. X, X, X, X, X, X, X
H E I G H T & W E I G H T
5' 7", 170cm | 125lbs, 56kg
A P P E A R A N C E
Erin is one that could be considered the epitome of unorthodox, especially considering her profession as a bartender. She is considered such because, firstly, she has a plethora of tattoos that are usually on full display for all to see, usually by sleeveless shirts or loose-fitting clothes at work. Erin can normally be found wearing skinny jeans and baggy tank tops or t-shirts, as well as the occasional sweater or jacket, along with her normal everyday boots or vans. She is best described as a hard rock punk girl due to all of the tattoos, her hair and abrasive nature.
As for appearances, Erin has long hair that is usually styled messily, as well as usually being shaved in areas, that is usually tied up or let down and flowing, but depending on how she feels that day. The fancier she goes, the more glamorous her appearance will be. Contrary to her brother's business casual and constant professional attire, Erin goes with what fits her when and where, never really caring what kind of person she appears to be, as long as she is happy with herself that's all that matters to herself. Erin holds an air of confidence and self-assurance, and a bit of cockiness, but for those that know her, know that she is rather insecure and constantly nervous. And that the confident side is simply a facade.
As for any oddities or scars, she has a few. Mainly from broken glass from one shattering from her earlier days as a bartender, or the accidental slip of the knife while cooking litter the top and palm of her hands. She has a small scar that runs along the backside of her right hip, from an old accident a few years back when being hit by a speeding car, a small piece of shrapnel was wedged into her side. And lastly, she has two small but rather noticeable scars on her left wrist, but only when someone truly notices it or looks very closely. Which is usually why she wears a variety and multitude of bracelets and accessories. Something that goes with her style, as well as helping to prevent anyone from noticing her scars that she's rather not talk about as she isn't exactly proud of those.
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L I K E S
// Music, it shouldn't be surprising that Erin is a big music head considering that the bar she works at has made itself known for being the place to go to for good food and drinks as well as music // Singing and playing guitar, while they aren't strictly speaking the best, she has a love for sitting in her room and just letting herself get lost in the music, something that few people get to see anymore // Erin's acoustic guitar Cynder, she hasn't really touched it much since high school and keeps it under her bed back in her apartment // Romance, it doesn't matter what it is she is a love-struck puppy. She hasn't been into hookups or one night stands as much like she used to back in high school, as long as it means something she is willing to give it a try at least once // Sweets, anything from candy to cakes and muffins is an immediate way to win her over // Small gestures of kindness, anything from a compliment to showing someone cares is an easy way to win her over even in the smallest of ways // Movies, anything from horror movies to romance movies can garner her attention // Rock climbing, spelunking, and all-around extreme sports are something she loves, and as such she knows some of the best hot spots for a good time in the city // Her job, not only doing something she loves but being able to have her own business has finally given her a sense of being stable and in control // Card games, poker, and gambling, anything that costs her money or the thrill of possibly losing is something she looks forward to // Alcohol, from an all too early age she was hooked and has managed to cut back on it in recent years, but has proven to be skilled in coming up with new drinks that cause people to keep coming back to the bar // Making sure people are having a good time, while also being safe, she's a thrill seeker, not reckless // Adrenaline rushes, something about the feeling one gets from doing something one would consider reckless always helps liven her up // Having a good time with friends and those she holds close // Making sure her friends are well looked after and taken care of // Flirting or teasing, she is easily one of the biggest flirts out there and isn't ashamed of it. Seeing the looks on people's faces or their reactions from her advances or flirtations are something she usually enjoys, always in a harmless way though // Certain cigarettes and other forms of smoking, it helps calm her down and relax even though she is trying to quit as she knows it isn't good for her // Tattoos, whether on herself or someone else, it isn't much of a shocker considering how many she has of her own // Drawing, it's something she was rather skilled in while in high school and had originally wanted to be an artist, but that dream had fallen through. It's still something she likes, just not as passionate about anymore ||
D I S L I K E S
// The sound of loud chewing, something about it causes her skin to crawl and grosses Erin out // Loud or sudden noises, especially if the cause is unknown // The smell of something burning, especially toast and coffee // The smell of lavender, vanilla, and certain cigarettes and poorly made or cheap pot // Having a guitar string break while playing, nothing angers her more than a busted chord // Bigotry of any kind, even if it's a joke, Erin doesn't find it funny and will get loud over it in a split second // // Erin doesn't like having to talk about her past, and even being asked about it in pure curiosity can shut her down or ruin her mood in an instant // // Attention seekers, as she can easily read people's body language it bothers her when people act out for simple attention // Having to kick people out of her bar for causing a scene or distruption // Large amounts of blood, she can handle regular amounts, but seeing large ammounts is stomach turning and can cause her to be nausious //
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Contrary to the first impression that she give off, and her rather rough-looking exterior, Erin is quite the opposite of how she may seem. Upon first seeing her, people assume that she is an angry, angsty 'stick it to the man' sort of rebel, when while yes that is partially true, it also couldn't be the farthest from the truth. Once someone can look past the rough, tattoo-covered exterior, that can see that she is an incredibly kind, caring, outgoing, and loving individual who, that once given the chance could prove to be one of your best friends. She is rather possessive and clingy, once getting close to someone that is, but for the most part, she will give you your space and let you be. When not at work at the Bar, Erin can be seen anywhere in the city. From the local bars and clubs having a good time, or even sitting in the local coffee shop with a book in her hand. Whatever the case, Erin is a very active and outgoing person and simply wants to be someone's friend. Whether that's the older sister part in her or not is uncertain, but Erin will easily become protective and overbearingly so at times when it comes to someone she has known enough and care for.
But at the same time, Erin is very reserved in most aspects. Never prying into anyone else's business or asking questions they probably shouldn't. She's always an open ear to someone and a shoulder to cry on for whoever may need it. Erin is often a very touchy-feely person, usually having to either be touching someone or being close to them in any way. From sitting next to someone, or barely having an arm or leg touching very much unlike her brother Kyle. But if someone tells her to stop or that she's making them uncomfortable, she will and give them all the space they could want. When it comes to romance or relationships, Erin is a hopeless romantic, finding simple gestures and actions to be worth more than the larger gestures. Like someone holding a door open for her or giving a genuine compliment means more to Erin than receiving a gift. As surprising as it may seem, Erin is also the type to make a gift for someone out of something simple, like making a necklace or bracelet from simple twine and simple pebbles or gemstone, and make it something beautiful, or simply drawing an exact replica picture of someone or something and giving it as a gift. Whatever the cause, small gifts and presents aren't an uncommon thing to receive from her.
Aside from the kind and caring nature of Erin, she holds a much darker side. Which, when one knows of her and her brother's past it's not much of a shocker why she can be so abrasive and cold at times. While she can be an absolute sweetheart and want the best for people, there is a part of her that would want nothing more than the filth of the earth to be done away with. One thing people know about her is that she doesn't play around with idiots or trouble starters. If someone starts something in her bar, it results in immediate kick out and even a ban from ever stepping foot back in her bar again. She can easily be your best friend, or easily be your least liked person, depending on how you treat her, she will treat you. If you treat her with respect and kindness and don't cause any trouble at the bar, she will easily let small things slide and even give a few free drinks and food if she knows if you're having an off day or struggling with money. But the last thing you want to do is bite the hands that feed you, and wouldn't recommend crossing her or doing her any wrong, as she could easily make your life hell. People have also noticed she has a short fuse, which can be started from anything, rude comments or harassment towards her which she handles more, but the last thing you do is disrespect others in her bar and you'll soon see yourself being dragged out. In short, she can be your fiercest and most loyal and caring friend who would die for you, or could easily be something terrifying that you wouldn't dare double-crossing or lying to.
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H I S T O R I A
It all started when a young and dumb couple decided to get married at an all too young age. They were irresponsible and immature, having a family at such a young age, nonetheless in New York City was a mistake, and that was putting it lightly. They were undeniably infatuated with each other and they considered in love over lust or being dumb and young. It was about three months from the delivery date for their first child that the news hit them, they weren't having just one child, but two, twins to be specific. And that fact didn't change anything, they were more excited now to welcome their two kids into the world. For the most part, from an early age their life was as good as one would expect. Their parents raised them as well as they could as their father Dante was an at the time well-known musician and their mother Abigail was a simple waitress at one of the local bars. Their life and education was a good one, not the best, but it was what their parents could afford, and they were content with it. They got what they wanted, and that was all that mattered. And what they wanted were two parents that cared about them and gave them a good home and a place that they knew they could feel safe and secure in.
Everything seemed perfect from the time when they were babies, to when they were eight-years-old. Then that's when everything was turned on their heads. Both Erin and Kyle were at school when their principal received a call, and they were pulled out of school and immediately sent over to their aunt and uncle's home. They didn't know what was going on, and with not being told it caused them to form anxiety from an early age. It was three weeks later when they were told that their parents had been in a terrible accident, and that the "bad man" had taken them away. They didn't understand what they meant, especially Kyle as he wasn't exactly like all the other kids, even from an early age Erin and their aunt and uncle knew something was just different about him. He never showed signs in trying to make friends with the other kids, he didn't interact with anyone unless he was made to, and his only real friend that he had was his sister. It only took for them to know what was wrong with him when he was twelve, they finally took him to a doctor's office and had him tested where it was revealed that he was actually born with Asperger's Syndrome, or simply known as Autism. It was a mild case with him, in where he struggled with anxiety, and social interactions, but shone through with his intelligence and overall power for learning and reading.
Erin always knew that what others referred to as wrong or different, she always called it special or it simply just made Kyle himself. Having only ever been the one he had to turn to, they always had a close bond while growing up. And as Kyle was usually the target of bullying and harassment from fellow students and teenagers, she always felt overprotective of him. And that it was her job to watch over her younger brother. As time went on, Kyle had proven to be the academically skilled one, while Erin seemed more of the cliche troubled youth of the two. While he worked diligently in school, she'd go out with her friends and cause trouble, often leading Kyle to be the one to take care of her side of homework. Kyle never declined to have to do double the work, as he'd do anything for her, as well as he didn't want her to get in trouble with their aunt and uncle if they knew the truth. While their nephew was busy with work, their niece had been out with friends secretly at parties drinking and getting high.
Things only seemed to get worse when Erin and Kyle both turned sixteen years old. By that time it was common knowledge that Erin was really failing her grades and that Kyle was simply covering up for her. She was on the brink of being a high school drop out, as well as being kicked out of their aunt and uncle's home as they wouldn't enable her unruly behavior. It was then that things finally looked up for Erin, she had met a group of friends that were like her, wonder seekers, adventurers, dreamers, etc. People like her, they easily welcomed her into their group and the rest was history until things with Kyle took a toll. Erin had to look after Kyle more, and that meant having to get him involved with her friends. They were welcoming enough, and easily let him in, and tried to put up with his way of doing things. But just as all good things, it all came to an end. After constant partying, drugs, alcohol, hookups and one night stands, graduation came to a close. The group drifted apart after their final party, people hooked up and dated, while others left and got out of town the moment they could. And one of the first ones to go was Kyle himself, who left for Law School at an early age, and was soon followed by Soren after his involvement with Lauren had gone bad.
Erin and the others tried to make things work, but as time went on, they only fell apart, others left and stopped talking with each other. Erin tried to stay in contact with everyone, but after months went by, and then finally years, she gave up. Without her friends and even her brother, she gave up on most things, she became more distant from family, as she was finally kicked out of her aunt and uncle's home, she dropped out of school and even lived on the street for some time. Managing to make it by for a while by playing on the city's streets with her guitar and vocals. She found a group of people that were part of a small homeless community in the backside of New York, and lived there for some time as she raised some money from small giggs to doing favors. What really helped her, was when she got into some not so legal work with selling some "spices" as they called it. From selling to making sure it was delivered, to even the production of said supply. Sure, it was highly illegal and dangerous, but it was helped her get by and that was all she could ask for. The money was good, and it seemed like a stable job. That was until one of their deliveries went south and she was left for the cops to find. She was arrested and questioned, and after given the ultimatum of snitching out her friends for her freedom, versus time in jail, she decided on being the nark as her way of getting revenge on being left for dead and blame. Their next delivery was busted thanks to the news from Erin, and they were detained as well as that farm being taken over and inspected for illegal work. Erin had received multiple warnings to stay out of that line of work, and she'd be safe, or if she was caught again she was serving time in prison and be put on a list of known drug involvements.
Obviously she chose to plead the fith and took the offer from the police. She stuck to her roots of music, taking the money from the offer and was never contacted by her friends or even the police. To say that she was shocked when her friends were arrested and sent to jail was an understatement, and if anything she was relieved. For the next three years, she kept her record clean and kept away from any and all illegal jobs that were offered to her. She had saved the money up to start her own business with the help of her aunt and uncle. The bar that was originally the place her mother worked at all those years ago was being closed down as no one had wanted it as well as other businesses were opening up. Erin took the place over as her own and has since turned it into her own place, where anyone of any background could come for a good time. It's the one thing that in recent years that has helped her feel normal and in control for once, and she won't let anything get in the way of that. But in the past few days she's seen some familiar names pop up, and the news of a party had gotten her interest. She originally decided against going, but after hearing that Soren and his band would be going, she decided why not? What's the worst that could happen anyway, right?
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S E C R E T S
|| Has occasional blackouts if she doesn't take her medication, oftening not remembering certain things or if she did or didn't do anything. People often blame or accuse her of lying, even if she doesn't remember ever doing it, as she honestly doesn't remember or even know if she did or didn't do it. Something that often makes her feel slightly crazy and hates having to take something to seem sane or normal. Only very select few people know of her medical history and she'd prefer to keep it that way ||
|| She had a crush on someone in the group back in high school, but once everyone grew up and left she never said anything to them, and has had some regret as she never knew if she'd see them again or not. But now with the group being back together for one more party, she honestly doesn't know if she should say anything or not ||
|| Erin has a slight history with the cops as she had to do some illegal things in the past just to make it by, but has since cleaned her name and proven to be an upstanding citizen. It was nothing super illegal, just having dealt with some illegal trades and business dealings that went south and ended with her being in trouble with the law. Not even Kyle knows about it and she'd prefer to keep her history with the law hidden ||
|| Her last secret is one she is ashamed of and hopes no one ever discovers it. She had tried committing suicide years ago and had obviously failed and had been to rehab for three years, thankfully it was after the group dispersed, letting her keep the secret to herself, but something like that can only stay hidden for so long ||
R E L A T I O N S H I PXS T A T U S
Has hooked up with a few of the others in the past, but has since been single | Open to a relationship or such if given the opportunity.
T A L E N T S
| Guitar (both acoustic and electric), drums, and singing, back in high school all she ever did was play her guitar and sing, but as the years have gone on she's left it to being a hobby that she does in her off time | Multilingual, living in one of the biggest cities in America, she grew up meeting thousands of people from all over the world and it isn't a surprise that she has learned several languages over the years, English, Spanish, Dutch, German, Japanese (rather rusty), Danish, Russian, and Mandarin (Chinese) and a few others | ASL, or American Sign Language, this was something she picked up in the past few years and has proven to be rather skilled, it's helped her know how to communicate with those that are verbally or audibly impaired | Unsurprisingly, she knows how to make some of the most complicated drinks to the satisfaction of countless people per day that come to the bar that she works at, and as such, she knows what alcohol has what affects on people | Being able to smooth talk her way through anything, and get whatever information she needs from someone, alcohol is one powerful drug |
S T R E N G T H S
| Verbal and physical persuasion, whatever the means, Erin is usually able to pull it off, but sometimes things don't always go her way | Languages, from an early age she was able to speak different languages, and as such she is able to understand what others are saying without the other person being aware of that fact, allowing her to know more than she is leading on | The fact that she can put on a false sense of security and confidence, making her seem surer of herself than she may really be |
W E A K N E S S E S
| Her short temper with certain things, some things just make Erin tick and it's usually obvious when those buttons have been pressed || Her friends being messed with or brought harm, she hates seeing them in distress and would easily stand up for them if it meant her getting hurt instead || Prone to nightmares, night terrors, and sleep talking if she doesn't take her medication || Erin doesn't care much for her personal health, and as such she often looks like she hasn't slept properly in weeks or occasionally forgets to eat as much or as often as she should, which often leads to being light-headed and fainting || Erin's relationship with Kyle, they've been estranged for years, but it hasn't stopped her from caring about him, if anything were to happen to her baby brother she would lose her mind and herself ||
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