It was weird, sitting on this side of Casey's office. The Chief's office, she should say, but still Casey's in her head. It would be Casey's until she came back. If, she came back. Sonya was leaning on the desk, knuckles digging into her brow as she rested her head upon the backs of her hands and stared at the wooden surface. Her hair hung down around her face, but she could just about see the pacing figure of Alison through it if she tilted her head slightly.
"If I had just persuaded her to hand the boy over," the older blonde woman was saying, a cigarette clasped between her fingers and her posture stiff, stressed. Her expression was set in a grimace - she was obviously angry, but Sonya couldn't say who. The Taiyou? Certainly. Casey? Maybe. The angel guy she was talking about? Sonya barely had any idea what had been going on there. "I could have prevented this. I should have made her see sense, see that it wasn't worth bringing this down on herself for the protection of a trigger happy vigilante."
Sonya lifted her head from her hands and looked up at Alison. "So you'd have had her just roll over for the Taiyou, like we have been doing for the Aschen? Trade being one Empire's bitch for another?"
Alison paused in her pacing and met Sonya's stare with hard eyes. "Don't pull the idealistic philosophy on me, Ballifrey. That's how the world works, the both of us know it. The people with the biggest guns make the rules. I don't like it any more than you do - and even besides that, the man committed a crime. Killing in self defense is one thing, but an entire platoon?"
"You know the Taiyou, Alison!" Sonya snapped back, "They throw themselves onto the sword for their fucking empire, I doubt the guy had much choice, y'know?"
Raising an eyebrow, Alison shook her head, "You think that with all the powers he displayed he couldn't have subdued them none-fatally?"
Sonya opened her mouth to speak again, but found no retort. She settled for sighing with frustration, shaking her head. "Maybe you're right, maybe he didn't have to kill them, but for fuck's sake, Alison. They're fighting a war in our city."
"I know," Alison said, sighing sadly, her expression softening. "I know, Sonya. I hate them as much as you do, but I'm looking at things realistically. Until Terra pulls together - which may be soon if this Fatin woman succeeds - we can't afford to so flagrantly deny them in the way Casey did. And what happened yesterday proves that. If I'd just... I was going to talk to her, but I didn't find the time before the ISSP agent was here, and then... then it was too late. She'd made her decision."
"It isn't your fault, Alison," Sonya said, realising the source of the woman's stress. She was blaming herself for not bringing Casey around. "Casey stood up for what she thought was right, and she wouldn't have wanted it another way. You know how sick she was of backing down and letting them have their way. I doubt you could've changed her mind."
"I heard the phonecall she had, Sonya," Alison's voice was low, defeated. "I heard her talking to that boy, the one she'd been talking about adopting, Casper. I failed her and her family by not stopping her from making this mistake. I could have seen this coming-"
"Alison!" Sonya interrupted the older woman loudly, "Pull yourself together! Since when did you act like this? Pick yourself up off the ground and let's fucking do something about it. We can't help Casey now, we can't offer anything to her family but empty promises, but what we can do is make fucking sure that this doesn't happen again. We're going to go to this gathering and make a united Terra happen. And I sure as hell can't do that without you. You're the diplomat, here, the quick talker. You speak their language. Pull yourself together and focus on what we can do now, not what we could have done last week. You're not helping Casey by blaming yourself."
Alison seemed on the verge of yelling back at Sonya, but with a deep breath and a drag of her cigarette, the older woman's expression leveled out. Sonya was right. This was just like any other crisis, and she did not lose her head, not ever. "I'm sorry. You're right, of course. I'm letting my emotions stop me thinking clearly."
"Don't apologise," Sonya shook her head, "We're all feeling the same way today. You're only human like the rest of us, even if you do a good job of hiding it." The agent laughed dryly, "Alright. I need to make a phonecall."
"I'll leave you to it, Sonya," Alison said, turning towards the door before pausing. "Casey chose well in you," she said over her shoulder, "Just remember that I'm around for anything you need. Being acting chief carries a lot of administrative baggage that I can deal with for you if you forward it to me. And I'm here for advice if you need a clear head - I'll keep mine that way from now on."
Sonya nodded. "Thanks, Alison." she said. The older woman left the office, and Sonya reached for the phone.