Name:
Jackson Arthur Harris
Nicknames:
Jay, Jackie, Jack
Age:
19
Gender:
Male
Sexuality:
Bisexual
Ethnicity:
American
Jackson Arthur Harris
Nicknames:
Jay, Jackie, Jack
Age:
19
Gender:
Male
Sexuality:
Bisexual
Ethnicity:
American
"Sing it for the ones that will hate your guts."
Appearance:
Jay stands at a reasonable 5'11". His hair is naturally almost platinum blonde, but he bleaches it until it's practically white. Sometimes he then dyes it silver, other times he leaves it white. His dark brows are natural, if unusual, as are his lashes. The lines of his face are sharp, but yet his looks cannot be described as harsh. There's something about his features that soften them- whether it's his naturally slightly mischievous smile or his friendly demeanour. Jay was never exactly bulky to begin with- but his eating disorder stripped his body of its fat and left him scrawny. Even a short while into his recovery, he's still quite thin.
Secret:
Jay is currently recovering from an eating disorder. When he was in his early teens, he became fixated on his appearance, wanting to always look perfect. At first, this paid off- however, this later contributed to his eating disorder and anxiety disorders. He feels ashamed of them, and doesn't want to talk about them, feeling like he'll be judged and estranged for them. He's determined to get through this himself- whether that's a good thing or not remains yet to be seen.
Jay stands at a reasonable 5'11". His hair is naturally almost platinum blonde, but he bleaches it until it's practically white. Sometimes he then dyes it silver, other times he leaves it white. His dark brows are natural, if unusual, as are his lashes. The lines of his face are sharp, but yet his looks cannot be described as harsh. There's something about his features that soften them- whether it's his naturally slightly mischievous smile or his friendly demeanour. Jay was never exactly bulky to begin with- but his eating disorder stripped his body of its fat and left him scrawny. Even a short while into his recovery, he's still quite thin.
Secret:
Jay is currently recovering from an eating disorder. When he was in his early teens, he became fixated on his appearance, wanting to always look perfect. At first, this paid off- however, this later contributed to his eating disorder and anxiety disorders. He feels ashamed of them, and doesn't want to talk about them, feeling like he'll be judged and estranged for them. He's determined to get through this himself- whether that's a good thing or not remains yet to be seen.
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Personality:
On the surface, Jay is perhaps the least likely person you'd expect to have an anxiety disorder. He's laid-back and friendly, and never seems to get overly worked up over anything. He's got a great sense of humour, and while he's not the type to play a prank, he's the type to laugh so hard that his teachers suspect him even just a little. He's a master at steering the conversation away from himself without seeming rude or making what he's doing obvious. He's incredibly loyal, and is protective of all his friends. He's the type of guy who'll listen to your problems and offer what wisdom he can. He's also the type you can text at four a.m to go for a drive because your boyfriend broke up with you and you can't sleep, and he'll always oblige. He understands that sometimes you don't need to talk, sometimes you just need to be distracted.
But below this outer shell lies a tempest. Jay's usually an anxious mess, even if he's managed to figure out how to hide it from those around him. He's protective of his friends because he's constantly afraid that something will happen to them. While he's recently got it under control, some remnants of it have still stuck in his brain, determined to ruin him. He has serious issues with his self esteem, ones that he would never admit to anyone. He feels it makes him weak, that nobody would take him seriously if they knew. He's pushed people away before because they got too close to finding out the truth. He's secretive, and inclined to lash out at the slightest provocation.
His mental state aside, Jay has always had a temper behind him, and a tendency to turn violent. While he would never touch a friend or anyone he cares about, he's been known to get into fights over something seemingly trivial. His determination to hide his secrets has only ever worsened this. He refuses to talk about his problems, no matter how big or small, and prefers to try and deal with them himself. He frequently pushes himself too hard, believing that his limits are just imaginary, imposed there by his screwed up brain. As a result, he has a tendency to worsen his own problems.
Talents:
He's a rather talented drummer, and usually uses it to release any stress or tension.
He's naturally bright, and doesn't have to put too much effort into getting decent grades.
He's light on his feet and agile.
Weaknesses:
His disorder stripped a lot of his strength and fitness from him.
He can't talk about his problems and will refuse to do so.
He's stubborn as a bull and won't budge on certain things.
Fears:
Being alienated as a result of his illnesses
Something happening to the people he loves as result of him failing to do something
Heights
Personality:
On the surface, Jay is perhaps the least likely person you'd expect to have an anxiety disorder. He's laid-back and friendly, and never seems to get overly worked up over anything. He's got a great sense of humour, and while he's not the type to play a prank, he's the type to laugh so hard that his teachers suspect him even just a little. He's a master at steering the conversation away from himself without seeming rude or making what he's doing obvious. He's incredibly loyal, and is protective of all his friends. He's the type of guy who'll listen to your problems and offer what wisdom he can. He's also the type you can text at four a.m to go for a drive because your boyfriend broke up with you and you can't sleep, and he'll always oblige. He understands that sometimes you don't need to talk, sometimes you just need to be distracted.
But below this outer shell lies a tempest. Jay's usually an anxious mess, even if he's managed to figure out how to hide it from those around him. He's protective of his friends because he's constantly afraid that something will happen to them. While he's recently got it under control, some remnants of it have still stuck in his brain, determined to ruin him. He has serious issues with his self esteem, ones that he would never admit to anyone. He feels it makes him weak, that nobody would take him seriously if they knew. He's pushed people away before because they got too close to finding out the truth. He's secretive, and inclined to lash out at the slightest provocation.
His mental state aside, Jay has always had a temper behind him, and a tendency to turn violent. While he would never touch a friend or anyone he cares about, he's been known to get into fights over something seemingly trivial. His determination to hide his secrets has only ever worsened this. He refuses to talk about his problems, no matter how big or small, and prefers to try and deal with them himself. He frequently pushes himself too hard, believing that his limits are just imaginary, imposed there by his screwed up brain. As a result, he has a tendency to worsen his own problems.
Talents:
He's a rather talented drummer, and usually uses it to release any stress or tension.
He's naturally bright, and doesn't have to put too much effort into getting decent grades.
He's light on his feet and agile.
Weaknesses:
His disorder stripped a lot of his strength and fitness from him.
He can't talk about his problems and will refuse to do so.
He's stubborn as a bull and won't budge on certain things.
Fears:
Being alienated as a result of his illnesses
Something happening to the people he loves as result of him failing to do something
Heights
"It's gonna be a long year 'till the hospital can find hope in me."
History:
Jay's childhood was rather unremarkable. He was an only child, loved but not spoiled. His parents were too busy to spoil him. His mother was the editor of a prestigious fashion magazine, while his father was a lawyer. Fortunately for them, Jay was an easy-to-manage child. He was in almost every extracurricular going, and on the few occasions that he had to be brought to work with his parents, he was perfectly happy to sit in their office or in a corner somewhere and read or listen to music. He never minded this, as he always liked people-watching.
When he was fourteen, he was in his mother's office, and had been asked to help with a photo shoot. He was never supposed to do more than put the clothes away, help out the photographer from time to time, and run errands for some of the models. However, instead he was roped in as a model. This began his career. He was never told that he needed to lose weight or watch his looks or anything- but with spending time around older teenage models, both male and female, he felt like he didn't stand up to them. At first, it was just careful monitoring of his diet and increasing exercise, which simply made him fitter and more toned. And for a while, that was enough. But then, on one shoot, he was working with a bunch of guys who were all thinner than him, and he became convinced that if he wanted to stay doing this, then he needed to lose weight. It wasn't like he could improve his diet any more, so he started cutting down on food and being much more rigid about what he ate. The industry did nothing to combat this, and some of his employers even praised him for that.
Somewhere along the way, he'd developed general anxiety and panic disorders as well. At first, these were connected to his eating disorder, but it didn't take long for that to change and become much more general. He learned how to hide these for years, much like his eating disorder. Some people expressed a concern about his habits, but others praised him and gave him tips. The fact that he was only getting more work only worsened that.
It was only when he passed out on a shoot that people started to realise how serious it was. But to him, it still wasn't enough. It took him being hospitalized against his will for his habits to be broken.
A few months later, he got out with new anxiety meds and a rigid eating plan. He had to stop taking the meds after a while, because they simply weren't working for him, and the side-effects he was experiencing outweighed the benefit he was getting. He's on a different kind now, which don't work as well, but don't give him any side effects. He was given an eating plan to help him put weight back on, and it's mostly working- although he does still have his bad days. He's back doing some modelling, but only for companies that won't encourage him or anyone else to lose weight or develop unhealthy eating habits.
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Other:
N/A
Face Claim:
Lucky Blue Smith
Hexcode:
#858585
Other:
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Face Claim:
Lucky Blue Smith
Hexcode:
#858585
