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B E A UX O A K M A N
☽ "Here we are, trapped in the amber of the moment. There is no why." ☾
Take Me To Church || Hozier /|\ Trees || TØP /|\ Bad Intentions|| Niykee Heaton
Fᴀᴄᴇ ᴄʟᴀɪᴍ ✦ Sam Claflin
Dɪᴀʟᴏɢᴜᴇ Cᴏʟᴏʀ ✧ #007755
Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ Cᴏʟᴏʀ ✦ #888888
☽ "Here we are, trapped in the amber of the moment. There is no why." ☾
Take Me To Church || Hozier /|\ Trees || TØP /|\ Bad Intentions|| Niykee Heaton
Fᴀᴄᴇ ᴄʟᴀɪᴍ ✦ Sam Claflin
Dɪᴀʟᴏɢᴜᴇ Cᴏʟᴏʀ ✧ #007755
Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ Cᴏʟᴏʀ ✦ #888888
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✦Fᴜʟʟ Nᴀᴍᴇ✦
Beauregard Lake Oakman
✧Nɪᴄᴋɴᴀᴍᴇ✧
Beau
✦Bɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ & Zᴏᴅɪᴀᴄ✦
December 12 - ♐ - Sagittarius
✧Aɢᴇ✧
27
✦Gᴇɴᴅᴇʀ✦
Male
✧Sᴇxᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ & Mᴀʀᴛɪᴀʟ Sᴛᴀᴛᴜs✧
Closeted Bisexual || Engaged
X
✦Fᴜʟʟ Nᴀᴍᴇ✦
Beauregard Lake Oakman
✧Nɪᴄᴋɴᴀᴍᴇ✧
Beau
✦Bɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ & Zᴏᴅɪᴀᴄ✦
December 12 - ♐ - Sagittarius
✧Aɢᴇ✧
27
✦Gᴇɴᴅᴇʀ✦
Male
✧Sᴇxᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ & Mᴀʀᴛɪᴀʟ Sᴛᴀᴛᴜs✧
Closeted Bisexual || Engaged
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✧Hᴀɪʀ✧
Beau’s hair is thick and rather curly. His light brown locks rarely make it long enough to fall over his eyes, but despite the length, it’s still rather unruly. Beau’s hair essentially has a mind of its own and as most curly hair is, it’s untamable. Unless, of course, it’s in the right hands. If Beau is readying himself for an important event, he’ll hire someone to tame those curls of his, but normally, Beau let’s his hair run freely atop of his head.
✦Eʏᴇs✦
Eyes as hypnotizing as the sea’s crashing waves. Beau has a dreamy set of greenish-blue eyes that are enough to make anyone melt if staring into them for too long. His eyes just add on to his overall dreaminess.
✧Sᴋɪɴ✧
Beau has the good fortune of having very clear skin. His skin is free of acne, blemishes, and other marks. He has a few scars from his childhood scattered across his body but nothing too distinguishing. His skin, as well as clear, is lightly sun kissed. He has a light golden touch to his skin, so he isn’t too pale or too tan.
✦Hᴇɪɢʜᴛ & Wᴇɪɢʜᴛ✦
Beau isn’t very tall, but he stands at a good height of 5’11. He keeps himself fit, with an athletic body weighing in at 182lbs. He works out often to maintain his healthy figure.
✧Eᴛʜɴɪᴄɪᴛʏ✧
Beau is 75% English, 20% German, and 5% Irish. He was born in England and spent most of his life there, moving to NYC when he was 20 with his family. He still speaks with an English accent but has changed his vocabulary to fit that of the American’s slang/lingo.
✦In Depth✦
Beau’s appearance is very important to him. He prefers to keep a scruff rather than a clean shave because he feels like it makes him look older than he actually is but he does occasionally go for the clean shave – he nicknames himself ‘baby face’ whenever he shaves. As part of his appearance, Beau rarely ever can be seen wearing sweatpants in public. He likes to keep his appearance clean, well dressed, and in tip top shape. He likes to dress mostly in chinos and slacks along with a button up shirt and possibly a nice blazer. He doesn’t like dressing down if he’s going out in public. His parents have become wealthy and known and he sees himself in the public eye and believes that he has a reputation to uphold. Beau is a strong believer that to feel good, you have to look good.
Beau’s hair is thick and rather curly. His light brown locks rarely make it long enough to fall over his eyes, but despite the length, it’s still rather unruly. Beau’s hair essentially has a mind of its own and as most curly hair is, it’s untamable. Unless, of course, it’s in the right hands. If Beau is readying himself for an important event, he’ll hire someone to tame those curls of his, but normally, Beau let’s his hair run freely atop of his head.
✦Eʏᴇs✦
Eyes as hypnotizing as the sea’s crashing waves. Beau has a dreamy set of greenish-blue eyes that are enough to make anyone melt if staring into them for too long. His eyes just add on to his overall dreaminess.
✧Sᴋɪɴ✧
Beau has the good fortune of having very clear skin. His skin is free of acne, blemishes, and other marks. He has a few scars from his childhood scattered across his body but nothing too distinguishing. His skin, as well as clear, is lightly sun kissed. He has a light golden touch to his skin, so he isn’t too pale or too tan.
✦Hᴇɪɢʜᴛ & Wᴇɪɢʜᴛ✦
Beau isn’t very tall, but he stands at a good height of 5’11. He keeps himself fit, with an athletic body weighing in at 182lbs. He works out often to maintain his healthy figure.
✧Eᴛʜɴɪᴄɪᴛʏ✧
Beau is 75% English, 20% German, and 5% Irish. He was born in England and spent most of his life there, moving to NYC when he was 20 with his family. He still speaks with an English accent but has changed his vocabulary to fit that of the American’s slang/lingo.
✦In Depth✦
Beau’s appearance is very important to him. He prefers to keep a scruff rather than a clean shave because he feels like it makes him look older than he actually is but he does occasionally go for the clean shave – he nicknames himself ‘baby face’ whenever he shaves. As part of his appearance, Beau rarely ever can be seen wearing sweatpants in public. He likes to keep his appearance clean, well dressed, and in tip top shape. He likes to dress mostly in chinos and slacks along with a button up shirt and possibly a nice blazer. He doesn’t like dressing down if he’s going out in public. His parents have become wealthy and known and he sees himself in the public eye and believes that he has a reputation to uphold. Beau is a strong believer that to feel good, you have to look good.
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XXXCharming ✦ Impulsive ✧ Confident ✦ Destructive ✧ Playful
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Beau is a charming fellow. He speaks with an English accent and his smile sparkles; he’s a dream, and the worst part is that he knows he’s attractive. Beau can be a pretty egotistical person; he knows people are attracted to him and he knows that he can get away with a lot because of his smooth talking and his welcoming pearly whites. Even with his impressive rhetoric, it’s undeniable that Beau is in fact charming. People are drawn to him and he uses that to his advantage. His looks and his charming personality allows for Beau to be confident, at times even overconfident. Beau doesn’t have an issue with self-love, unless the issue is that there’s too much of it.
He’s the type of guy you wouldn’t mind being friends with. He’s got a loving heart by nature, he just doesn’t always execute the loving portion as intended. He almost has a childish nature to him – he tries to do his best but sometimes comes up short; all with good intentions though, at least for the most part. He’s a playful person. He can be an asshole, especially to his close friends, but he means it in a joking manner. Although, when he gets intoxicated, it all comes off as abrasive. If you catch him in the right mood (and level of sobriety) you’ll get a playful and happy Beau. Catch him in a bad mood, and all you’ve got is a pure and utter asshole who is out to do nothing other than wreak havoc.
His drinking can often get really bad, and when it does, Beau turns into some kind of monster. He will get really aggressive, often getting angry and irrational. It gets worse when he pops a pill or does a line. Beau is a strong believer in cross-fading; and when he does, try not to cross him. Beau’s intoxication leads to his destructive personality. He doesn’t make good decisions as it is, but when he’s under the influence, it all gets worse. Beau is rapidly ruining his life and the lives of those around him and he doesn’t notice it all.
XXXCharming ✦ Impulsive ✧ Confident ✦ Destructive ✧ Playful
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Beau is a charming fellow. He speaks with an English accent and his smile sparkles; he’s a dream, and the worst part is that he knows he’s attractive. Beau can be a pretty egotistical person; he knows people are attracted to him and he knows that he can get away with a lot because of his smooth talking and his welcoming pearly whites. Even with his impressive rhetoric, it’s undeniable that Beau is in fact charming. People are drawn to him and he uses that to his advantage. His looks and his charming personality allows for Beau to be confident, at times even overconfident. Beau doesn’t have an issue with self-love, unless the issue is that there’s too much of it.
He’s the type of guy you wouldn’t mind being friends with. He’s got a loving heart by nature, he just doesn’t always execute the loving portion as intended. He almost has a childish nature to him – he tries to do his best but sometimes comes up short; all with good intentions though, at least for the most part. He’s a playful person. He can be an asshole, especially to his close friends, but he means it in a joking manner. Although, when he gets intoxicated, it all comes off as abrasive. If you catch him in the right mood (and level of sobriety) you’ll get a playful and happy Beau. Catch him in a bad mood, and all you’ve got is a pure and utter asshole who is out to do nothing other than wreak havoc.
His drinking can often get really bad, and when it does, Beau turns into some kind of monster. He will get really aggressive, often getting angry and irrational. It gets worse when he pops a pill or does a line. Beau is a strong believer in cross-fading; and when he does, try not to cross him. Beau’s intoxication leads to his destructive personality. He doesn’t make good decisions as it is, but when he’s under the influence, it all gets worse. Beau is rapidly ruining his life and the lives of those around him and he doesn’t notice it all.
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✦Lɪᴋᴇs✦
✧ Alcohol & Drugs✧ ↣ Ever since his rebellious phase, Beau has been on a rampage destroying his life with drugs and alcohol. Of course to him, he isn’t destroying anything except his boredom. There are some days that Beau can’t even get through the day without being at least semi-intoxicated. To him, he’s just enjoying his young age while he still can – to others, he’s throwing his life away, but either way he couldn’t seem to care less.
✧ Working out ✧ ↣ Regardless of his unhealthy habits, Beau enjoys going to the gym or running through Central Park on a warm day. He likes to stay fit whether it be through a boxing class or going for a jog. It refreshes and energizes him.
✧ Going out ✧ ↣ Along with the alcohol and the drugs, one of Beau’s favorite past times is hitting New York City’s night life, and hard. He doesn’t stop at one, but rather will go from bar to bar, night club to night club all in one night. Beau won’t stop until he’s piss drunk, being hauled home in a taxi by a sober stranger, or being picked up by the police for the night.
✧ Sex ✧ ↣ Ever since his experimental age, Beau has continued experiment. He identifies as bisexual, although it’s not truly known to many, and enjoys different experiences with different people. He’s open to try new things with new people but unfortunately for him, he’s in a ‘monogamous’ relationship.
✧ Shopping ✧ ↣ Beau likes stays stylish; he likes being well dressed wherever he goes. As a part of that, Beau is constantly buying new clothes to stay in season. He enjoys going shopping for himself; he normally doesn’t restrict himself to a limit either when it comes to shopping.
✧Dɪsʟɪᴋᴇs✧
✦ Bumming it ✦ ↣ Bumming it isn’t something Beau really enjoys doing. He likes living his life on the busy side, rarely ever having time to stop. Of course he enjoys his rest whenever he ends up taking it, but Beau lives non-stop and always seems to be doing something productive with his time.
✦ Rehab ✦ ↣ Not a place Beau is fond of. He understands the purpose of rehab and why he was placed there, but he doesn’t think he has an addiction. As a matter of fact, if you ask Beau, he’ll probably tell you that he can stop at any time. It’s not true, of course, but there’s really no stopping Beau when the liquor hits his lips.
✦ His father ✦ ↣ Ever since the death of Drew, there’s been a falling out between Abel and Beau. The two don’t get along. Abel blames Beau for the death of his youngest son, and while Beau is truly at fault, he refuses to believe that a parent can hold such a hatred for their child when a mistake was made. He knows what he did was wrong and he lives with the pain of it every day, isn’t that enough?
✦ Holidays ✦ ↣ Ever since the death of Drew, holidays, and even birthdays, don’t feel the same anymore. There’s an empty feeling every time they come around the dinner table or the Christmas tree, so Beau would rather disregard it all together.
✦ Greasy Foods ✦ ↣ A big part of Beau’s healthy appearance is him keeping away from the disgusting foods that most call comfort foods. He prefers to eat healthy and even though his other habits contradict his healthy living, he still prefers to stay away from any greasy foods – so pizza? Yeah, that’s a no go.
✧ Alcohol & Drugs✧ ↣ Ever since his rebellious phase, Beau has been on a rampage destroying his life with drugs and alcohol. Of course to him, he isn’t destroying anything except his boredom. There are some days that Beau can’t even get through the day without being at least semi-intoxicated. To him, he’s just enjoying his young age while he still can – to others, he’s throwing his life away, but either way he couldn’t seem to care less.
✧ Working out ✧ ↣ Regardless of his unhealthy habits, Beau enjoys going to the gym or running through Central Park on a warm day. He likes to stay fit whether it be through a boxing class or going for a jog. It refreshes and energizes him.
✧ Going out ✧ ↣ Along with the alcohol and the drugs, one of Beau’s favorite past times is hitting New York City’s night life, and hard. He doesn’t stop at one, but rather will go from bar to bar, night club to night club all in one night. Beau won’t stop until he’s piss drunk, being hauled home in a taxi by a sober stranger, or being picked up by the police for the night.
✧ Sex ✧ ↣ Ever since his experimental age, Beau has continued experiment. He identifies as bisexual, although it’s not truly known to many, and enjoys different experiences with different people. He’s open to try new things with new people but unfortunately for him, he’s in a ‘monogamous’ relationship.
✧ Shopping ✧ ↣ Beau likes stays stylish; he likes being well dressed wherever he goes. As a part of that, Beau is constantly buying new clothes to stay in season. He enjoys going shopping for himself; he normally doesn’t restrict himself to a limit either when it comes to shopping.
✧Dɪsʟɪᴋᴇs✧
✦ Bumming it ✦ ↣ Bumming it isn’t something Beau really enjoys doing. He likes living his life on the busy side, rarely ever having time to stop. Of course he enjoys his rest whenever he ends up taking it, but Beau lives non-stop and always seems to be doing something productive with his time.
✦ Rehab ✦ ↣ Not a place Beau is fond of. He understands the purpose of rehab and why he was placed there, but he doesn’t think he has an addiction. As a matter of fact, if you ask Beau, he’ll probably tell you that he can stop at any time. It’s not true, of course, but there’s really no stopping Beau when the liquor hits his lips.
✦ His father ✦ ↣ Ever since the death of Drew, there’s been a falling out between Abel and Beau. The two don’t get along. Abel blames Beau for the death of his youngest son, and while Beau is truly at fault, he refuses to believe that a parent can hold such a hatred for their child when a mistake was made. He knows what he did was wrong and he lives with the pain of it every day, isn’t that enough?
✦ Holidays ✦ ↣ Ever since the death of Drew, holidays, and even birthdays, don’t feel the same anymore. There’s an empty feeling every time they come around the dinner table or the Christmas tree, so Beau would rather disregard it all together.
✦ Greasy Foods ✦ ↣ A big part of Beau’s healthy appearance is him keeping away from the disgusting foods that most call comfort foods. He prefers to eat healthy and even though his other habits contradict his healthy living, he still prefers to stay away from any greasy foods – so pizza? Yeah, that’s a no go.
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✧Tᴀʟᴇɴᴛs✧
✦ Singing ✦ ↣ Believe it or not, but one of Beau’s favorite things to do is to sing. He doesn’t like to do it in front of people because he’s self-conscious about it but, he’s quite good.
✦Cooking ✦ ↣ As it comes with the ‘healthy living’ Beau likes to cook his own meals at home to both save money from eating out and regulate what he’s eating.
✦ Fashion ✦ ↣ Obviously. No, it’s not because he’s secretly gay, but rather because he’s enjoys having a sense of fashion and looking good. He keeps up with current styles and doesn’t like being seen as ‘last seasons’ model.
✦ Lying ✦ ↣ It’s usually not something to be proud of, but Beau has a talent. Not so much pure lies as it is having a ‘creative imagination’ as he calls it. He has a persuasive tongue and he knows how to get himself out of trouble, for the most part.
✦Fʟᴀᴡs✦
✧ Impulsive ✧ ↣ Beau doesn’t think about what he does often. Whenever he makes a decision, it barely comes with second thought. Maybe it’s the excessive drinking and partying, but Beau is still stuck in his early twenties where he rarely saw the consequences of his actions.
✧ Destructive ✧ ↣ Part of his impulsive attitude, comes a destructive undertone. Most of Beau’s impulsive decisions come with destructive consequences. He is slowly destroying his life without really realizing it. Beau hasn’t come to realize just yet that if he doesn’t get it together, he’s going to end up single, broke, and alone.
✧ Untrustworthy ✧ ↣ It’s needless to say that time and time again, Beau has proved to be untrustworthy. Whether it be with his lies, his affairs, or with his irresponsibility. He’s not one to trust yet some still do.
✧ Secretive ✧ ↣ Beau doesn’t trust other people to know the real him. He’s afraid of what others might think if they only know the person he really was. He’s afraid to let people in and it’s amazing to him that his fiancé stuck around as long as she did with the way he is. His political career has benefitted by his sneaking ways but who knows how much longer that will last?
✧Secrets✧
✦ His Sexuality ✦ ↣ Even though Beau has experimented with men sexually and romantically before, no one really knows that he’s claimed his sexuality as bisexual. Beau doesn’t really talk about it or mention his past, and he certainly doesn’t talk about his sexuality and sexual experiences.
✦Drew's Death ✦ ↣ This is perhaps the biggest part of his life that Beau refuses to think about, let alone talk about. It’s something that hits him right in the heart. Beau will freeze up immediately if someone so much as mentions his brother’s name.
✦ His affairs ✦ ↣ Along with his sexuality, his affairs are a secret. Not that it’s hard to tell that he’s a lady’s man, but his affairs with men, well, that’s a different story.
✦ Drug addict ✦ ↣ He does drugs, and he drinks alcohol, freely. But the extent of his addiction is a secret to most. A lot of people don’t know that Beau nearly died a few times from overdoses.
✦ Singing ✦ ↣ Believe it or not, but one of Beau’s favorite things to do is to sing. He doesn’t like to do it in front of people because he’s self-conscious about it but, he’s quite good.
✦Cooking ✦ ↣ As it comes with the ‘healthy living’ Beau likes to cook his own meals at home to both save money from eating out and regulate what he’s eating.
✦ Fashion ✦ ↣ Obviously. No, it’s not because he’s secretly gay, but rather because he’s enjoys having a sense of fashion and looking good. He keeps up with current styles and doesn’t like being seen as ‘last seasons’ model.
✦ Lying ✦ ↣ It’s usually not something to be proud of, but Beau has a talent. Not so much pure lies as it is having a ‘creative imagination’ as he calls it. He has a persuasive tongue and he knows how to get himself out of trouble, for the most part.
✦Fʟᴀᴡs✦
✧ Impulsive ✧ ↣ Beau doesn’t think about what he does often. Whenever he makes a decision, it barely comes with second thought. Maybe it’s the excessive drinking and partying, but Beau is still stuck in his early twenties where he rarely saw the consequences of his actions.
✧ Destructive ✧ ↣ Part of his impulsive attitude, comes a destructive undertone. Most of Beau’s impulsive decisions come with destructive consequences. He is slowly destroying his life without really realizing it. Beau hasn’t come to realize just yet that if he doesn’t get it together, he’s going to end up single, broke, and alone.
✧ Untrustworthy ✧ ↣ It’s needless to say that time and time again, Beau has proved to be untrustworthy. Whether it be with his lies, his affairs, or with his irresponsibility. He’s not one to trust yet some still do.
✧ Secretive ✧ ↣ Beau doesn’t trust other people to know the real him. He’s afraid of what others might think if they only know the person he really was. He’s afraid to let people in and it’s amazing to him that his fiancé stuck around as long as she did with the way he is. His political career has benefitted by his sneaking ways but who knows how much longer that will last?
✧Secrets✧
✦ His Sexuality ✦ ↣ Even though Beau has experimented with men sexually and romantically before, no one really knows that he’s claimed his sexuality as bisexual. Beau doesn’t really talk about it or mention his past, and he certainly doesn’t talk about his sexuality and sexual experiences.
✦Drew's Death ✦ ↣ This is perhaps the biggest part of his life that Beau refuses to think about, let alone talk about. It’s something that hits him right in the heart. Beau will freeze up immediately if someone so much as mentions his brother’s name.
✦ His affairs ✦ ↣ Along with his sexuality, his affairs are a secret. Not that it’s hard to tell that he’s a lady’s man, but his affairs with men, well, that’s a different story.
✦ Drug addict ✦ ↣ He does drugs, and he drinks alcohol, freely. But the extent of his addiction is a secret to most. A lot of people don’t know that Beau nearly died a few times from overdoses.
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✧Dʀᴇᴀᴍs✧
✦ Restoring his relationship with his father ✦ ↣ It’s no secret that Abel and Beau no longer get along – but what kind of relationship is that between a boy and his father? One of Beau’s dreams is to restore that relationship with his family, his father in particular.
✦Sober living ✦ ↣ No one wants to live as an addict, but some feel as though there is no other way. For Beau, it’s the only way he doesn’t feel the pain of what he’s done in his past. He dreams of living a life completely sobered up. He hates what he’s turned into, but he doesn’t know how to fix it.
✦ Moving home ✦ ↣ He was clean for a while back in England. Beau had a life back in England that he just up and left behind, for many reasons. But he dreams of heading back and finishing out the rest of his life in his home country.
✦ Mayor ✦ ↣ His high status in the city has certainly gained some recognition for Beau, which he is using to run for Mayor of New York. He has visions and Beau is rather intelligent, when he’s sober. Now it’s just a matter of keeping a clean image and being elected.
✦Fᴇᴀʀs✦
✧ His past ✧ ↣ Most people are afraid of their past because it was either silly or immature, or whatever the case, but for Beau, it scares him because of all he’s left there. His closet is filled to the brim with secrets and lies. His ghosts haunt him every day, and every day he’s afraid it’s going to come to bite him in the ass.
✧ His intoxicated persona ✧ ↣ One of Beau’s biggest fears is who he is when he’s on something. At first, it’s all fun and games, but if he lets it get too far (which he always does) it gets out of control. Beau become violent, angry, aggressive. He ruins relationships and he ruins lives.
✧ Death ✧ ↣ It’s a valid fear for anyone. But for Beau, it’s a more rational fear. It creeps up on him every time he drinks or takes something. Beau subconsciously awaits the day where he takes too much of anything and doesn’t wake up.
✧ His secrets ✧ ↣ Every closet door opens and Beau is afraid that one day his closet door is going to open and all of things he’s been hiding is going to come flowing out and it’s going to reveal who he truly is – which is everything he’s attempted to hide from the public eye.
✦ Restoring his relationship with his father ✦ ↣ It’s no secret that Abel and Beau no longer get along – but what kind of relationship is that between a boy and his father? One of Beau’s dreams is to restore that relationship with his family, his father in particular.
✦Sober living ✦ ↣ No one wants to live as an addict, but some feel as though there is no other way. For Beau, it’s the only way he doesn’t feel the pain of what he’s done in his past. He dreams of living a life completely sobered up. He hates what he’s turned into, but he doesn’t know how to fix it.
✦ Moving home ✦ ↣ He was clean for a while back in England. Beau had a life back in England that he just up and left behind, for many reasons. But he dreams of heading back and finishing out the rest of his life in his home country.
✦ Mayor ✦ ↣ His high status in the city has certainly gained some recognition for Beau, which he is using to run for Mayor of New York. He has visions and Beau is rather intelligent, when he’s sober. Now it’s just a matter of keeping a clean image and being elected.
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✧ His past ✧ ↣ Most people are afraid of their past because it was either silly or immature, or whatever the case, but for Beau, it scares him because of all he’s left there. His closet is filled to the brim with secrets and lies. His ghosts haunt him every day, and every day he’s afraid it’s going to come to bite him in the ass.
✧ His intoxicated persona ✧ ↣ One of Beau’s biggest fears is who he is when he’s on something. At first, it’s all fun and games, but if he lets it get too far (which he always does) it gets out of control. Beau become violent, angry, aggressive. He ruins relationships and he ruins lives.
✧ Death ✧ ↣ It’s a valid fear for anyone. But for Beau, it’s a more rational fear. It creeps up on him every time he drinks or takes something. Beau subconsciously awaits the day where he takes too much of anything and doesn’t wake up.
✧ His secrets ✧ ↣ Every closet door opens and Beau is afraid that one day his closet door is going to open and all of things he’s been hiding is going to come flowing out and it’s going to reveal who he truly is – which is everything he’s attempted to hide from the public eye.
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✧ Abel Oakman ✧ ↣ Father ↣ Living
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✦ Lydia Oakman ✦ ↣ Mother ↣ Living
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✧ Andrew Oakman ✧ ↣ Brother ↣ Deceased
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Beau was born and raised England, in a poor neighborhood to a poor family. They moved from shelter to shelter, never able to properly provide for themselves. When Drew came along, Abel Oakman picked himself up, cleaned himself off, and got himself a job.
When Beau turned 14, the family had finally created a stable ground for themselves and were able to rent an apartment for themselves. His father was able to grow in a company that eventually lead to Abel starting his own business. His mother went back to school and eventually became a published author of Best Selling self-help books. Beau and Drew were put in school and were finally given an opportunity to be normal kids.
Growing up, Beau was given many lessons in valuing life and valuing money. He was taught to never take anything for granted and it was a lesson that stuck around with Beau for the most part of his life. As he grew older, with a family that now was well established in finances, his value for money began dissipating and he quickly lost the idea that he shouldn’t take things for granted. He grew up fairly rebellious and was sent away to a boys’ school in hopes that it would help his attitude. Unfortunately, it only sent Beau spiraling further into a world of uncertainty. He was introduced to a very liberal lifestyle, including alcohol, drugs, and wild sexual activity.
During one of his breaks from school, Beau and his younger brother Drew, went to a party at a friend’s. Upon leaving the party, Beau had by then had several drinks and was severely intoxicated. Drew attempted to pull the keys from his brother but Beau insisted he was fine. On the drive home, Beau lost control, flipping the car end overhead several times. Drew was dead before medics arrived at the scene. Beau was pulled from school and put in rehab. When Beau turned 18, he was released from rehab and went to school for a two-year program in business. When he turned 20, the Oakman family moved to Manhattan, where Abel was offered a better position at his current job, where they have now been living for 7 years.
It was during his school days that Beau experimented with sex. He found himself attracted to men as much as women but was always afraid of confronting the issue of his sexuality because he knew his father would never accept it, especially not after that Beau had done to Drew. He’s been clean since then, but the move to the city has unfortunately reintroduced drugs, alcohol, and sex to Beau. Since the move, Beau has slowly been inching back into the violent spiral that claimed the life of his brother by his hand. He has tried rehab again and again since moving to the city but has released himself as quickly as he admitted himself. He knows he’s making the wrong decisions when it comes to the partying and the drugs, but Beau is unable to resist.
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✧Tʜᴇᴍᴇ Sᴏɴɢ✧
You gotta go and get angry at all of my honesty
You know I try but I don't do too well with apologies
I hope I don't run out of time, could someone call the referee?
'Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness
I know you know that I made those mistakes maybe once or twice
And by once or twice I mean maybe a couple a hundred times
So let me, oh let me redeem, oh redeem, oh myself tonight
'Cause I just need one more shot, second chances
Is it too late now to say sorry?
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body, oh
Is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry, yeah
Sorry
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'll take every single piece of the blame if you want me to
But you know that there is no innocent one in this game for two
I'll go, I'll go and then you go, you go out and spill the truth
Can we both say the words and forget this?
Yeah, is it too late now to say sorry?
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body, oh
Is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'm not just trying to get you back on me, oh no
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body, oh
Is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry, oh
Sorry
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry
Sorry
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
