Snippet #1682581

"Yeah, yeah, go, go. I'll meet you downstairs in a few minutes" Koda waved Grant away, closing the door behind him. He leaned up against it, sighing heavily. It was gonna be a long fucking eternity. Midnight may not have officially chosen who the father of her child would be but Koda had a feeling she'd chose Gabe. Of all the arrogant bastards ... Midnight just had to have history with that one. Koda would have preferred she'd choose some random prince or something; someone who would impregnate her and leave. Not someone like Gabe ...... someone Midnight liked and would encourage to stick around. Koda wouldn't be able to stand that. Watching Gabe rule beside Midnight while he remained on the sidelines, just because he didn't have good genes or centuries of experience. This is exactly what he'd feared, some guy coming in and ruling next to Midnight. People would view them as a couple and Koda as her whore. And eventually, they'd regard him as nothing to her. Because he'd become nothing to her. Because Gabe with his charm and power, would steal her away.

"Shit" he hissed, lolling his head back against the door. He sighed again and forced himself to stand upright. He had to stop thinking like that. If he thought negatively he would develop one of those self-fulfilling prophecies. He knew himself well enough to know that if he thought someone was gonna steal Midnight from him he'd act like such a douche bag to her until she broke up with him before someone else could steal her. Which is why he had to stay positive. He had to act as if everything was fine.

"I need a fucking drink" he said, going over to his mini bar and pouring himself a shot of whiskey. He'd promised himself he wouldn't drink but he hadn't expected the vain of his existence Gabe to show up and try and steal Midnight from him. He needed a drink, just one. He wasn't planning on getting shitfaced and embarrassing himself like last night. That would be counterproductive. Midnight would get mad at him, Gabe would make fun of him. It would just make things ten times worse. That's why he was only having one. Just one. To take the edge off and make him just a smidge more pleasant to be around.

Now maybe it wasn't healthy to solve his problems with alcohol, but Koda had never considered himself mentally sound.