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Lucas Roark

Lucas smiled at the mentioning of Brian's "girlish" figure and of the party. The party was always fun, even last ye-

Last year... The girl... His parents... He winced when Brian reminded him of it. The girl had been nice and everything, he liked her, but he hadn't wanted to dance with her. He hadn't wanted to ask her. He hadn't wanted to be with her. He didn't want to introduce his parents to her. He had wanted to do all of that with Brian instead, but his fear got the best of him.

And he knew that Brian had been hurt, probably betrayed. Sure, he said it was okay but Lucas could tell that it wasn't. And it shouldn't be. Lucas should be able to show Brian off without being scared. He wanted to, gods he wanted to... But he could compare the way he felt to jumping off a cliff or out of an airplane. He knew that he would make it through, knew he had the parachute there for support, but there was always that what if.

What if the parachute malfunctioned? What if he forgot how to work the parachute? What if he opened it too early? What if he opened it too late? He knew that it would be okay if he just followed his heart but what if? It was that damn question!

He was pretty sure that he could do it, he could tell him parents and the world, but he couldn't get over the fear of hitting the ground.

There was one thing he was sure of though. "I'm not taking another girl to the party," he said surely, lifting Brian's chin up to look at him. "I didn't like it last year, and more importantly neither did you. I couldn't put us through that again." He sighed and looked down, ashamed. "Even though I hate myself for this, I'm not ready to introduce you as my boyfriend to my parents... But..." he grinned a little bit. "I would be the happiest guy at the party if you went with me. If we went together." It wouldn't be an 'official' date but they could ride there together and show up together. They could stay relatively close together... So it would be like a date to them but everyone else would just assume they're friends. And really, if they thought something different...

Well he was relatively okay with that.