|"This is a choice. It is a decision and a promise. That is why, I will be alone."|
Lovely words. These girls were truly strong. He admires that. It seemed they would still be able to live through the hold of the shadows. However in the end, they were only words that floated in the air. Unfortunately, those words did not reach him in a way that the prefect must have liked to. Because, he simply walked on fading into the darkness that was foreshadowed by the night. Never once looking back. Not even an ounce of emotion flashed across his face as Fujiwara showered him with such flowery statements. They all fell on deaf ears from the moment she mentioned the word alone. Being in solitude and isolation, it is a fate that he had decided upon since that day.
His answer to that whimsical yet meaningful query of Amalthea made his sister sigh in disappointment. Being alone, it does not frighten him nor is he uncomfortable with it. For him, this was his usual state. So, it was not something for him to feel sad. Rather, he was more worried of anyone entering this still world of his. Others recklessly involving themselves in his matter. Because, there was nothing waiting for them. There was no resolve or a smile given to them. Acceptance, he was not looking for it. He really does not have any need for it in his opinion. People waiting for him with open arms even if they do exist, he would simply turn his back to them and leave.
It was easy for him to deny everything and everyone. But, it was impossible for him to accept. Sound of locks and shackles echoed within his consciousness. They were once again in placed with such strength and an impenetrable lock. The admiration he felt to the girls had a simple explanation. He does not possess those strong qualities of theirs. It is natural to envy others who own certain qualities that he does not have. Then again, he has no inkling to change who he is as of now. His concern over the well-being of the human girl was normal for he did not like innocent ones dwelling in matters that should never be known. He would have done the same thing to another.
This was the same for his roommate. Tsukino was simply him without pretenses. That was enough for the Rosenkreuz pure-blood to admire. People often compared them to each other. Tsukino being the darkness while Zenith being the light. How wrong they were. For in the end, it was Zenith who lived in the darkness. Fujiwara said something about coexistence and opposite sides walking hand-in-hand. Was it not evident? They are the ones who walked the path of the light. As for him, the abyss was the path he had chosen without provocation. It was already done. Two things walking alongside but a wall will always be there. Like when the sun would never meet the moon and vice versa.
Light cannot illuminate all of the darkness. The darkness cannot swallow the whole of light. As such, their light cannot hope to reach his core made of the shadows. In which, it will be the same about him. He cannot pierce the source of their radiance. That is simply how he wanted it and supposed to be. He will greet them and even converse. But in the end, nothing will change about him. There was no deeper meaning to his actions. Nothing profound and enlightening. For being alone is a choice he had chosen, it was not something unconsciously resulted from his decision. And once he had decided on something, it is a vow that can only be broken by the cessation of his existence.
Zenith was not certain what Amalthea meant about that. However now, he seemed to understand it for a bit. The meaning wanted for his sister to bestow upon him. Stopping at a hallway, he was completely alone and he found it rather peaceful. The rain had now finally stopped as he could not hear the pitter and patter anymore. Looking out the window, the glow of the rain created a beautiful scenery. Just like that, he took out a book which was the only one literature he could be seen reading. Opening it, he began reading once more. He continued his walk to some unknown destination.
This time, his wish seemed had finally come true. His reason coming to this academy had finally brought the beginning of his dream. Hopefully, it will never end. This dream he had wanted for so long.
"What will you do when I leave you behind?"
His answer to that whimsical yet meaningful query of Amalthea made his sister sigh in disappointment. Being alone, it does not frighten him nor is he uncomfortable with it. For him, this was his usual state. So, it was not something for him to feel sad. Rather, he was more worried of anyone entering this still world of his. Others recklessly involving themselves in his matter. Because, there was nothing waiting for them. There was no resolve or a smile given to them. Acceptance, he was not looking for it. He really does not have any need for it in his opinion. People waiting for him with open arms even if they do exist, he would simply turn his back to them and leave.
It was easy for him to deny everything and everyone. But, it was impossible for him to accept. Sound of locks and shackles echoed within his consciousness. They were once again in placed with such strength and an impenetrable lock. The admiration he felt to the girls had a simple explanation. He does not possess those strong qualities of theirs. It is natural to envy others who own certain qualities that he does not have. Then again, he has no inkling to change who he is as of now. His concern over the well-being of the human girl was normal for he did not like innocent ones dwelling in matters that should never be known. He would have done the same thing to another.
This was the same for his roommate. Tsukino was simply him without pretenses. That was enough for the Rosenkreuz pure-blood to admire. People often compared them to each other. Tsukino being the darkness while Zenith being the light. How wrong they were. For in the end, it was Zenith who lived in the darkness. Fujiwara said something about coexistence and opposite sides walking hand-in-hand. Was it not evident? They are the ones who walked the path of the light. As for him, the abyss was the path he had chosen without provocation. It was already done. Two things walking alongside but a wall will always be there. Like when the sun would never meet the moon and vice versa.
Light cannot illuminate all of the darkness. The darkness cannot swallow the whole of light. As such, their light cannot hope to reach his core made of the shadows. In which, it will be the same about him. He cannot pierce the source of their radiance. That is simply how he wanted it and supposed to be. He will greet them and even converse. But in the end, nothing will change about him. There was no deeper meaning to his actions. Nothing profound and enlightening. For being alone is a choice he had chosen, it was not something unconsciously resulted from his decision. And once he had decided on something, it is a vow that can only be broken by the cessation of his existence.
"You're really an odd one, my little brother."
Zenith was not certain what Amalthea meant about that. However now, he seemed to understand it for a bit. The meaning wanted for his sister to bestow upon him. Stopping at a hallway, he was completely alone and he found it rather peaceful. The rain had now finally stopped as he could not hear the pitter and patter anymore. Looking out the window, the glow of the rain created a beautiful scenery. Just like that, he took out a book which was the only one literature he could be seen reading. Opening it, he began reading once more. He continued his walk to some unknown destination.
This time, his wish seemed had finally come true. His reason coming to this academy had finally brought the beginning of his dream. Hopefully, it will never end. This dream he had wanted for so long.