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I turn to look where Knight indicates he went, and my eyes graze over the jagged rocks that block our horizon. It looks like he had a hell of a journey to find me - and was it really worth it? I could Break today, so could he - you just don't know what's around the corner anymore.

I wonder if we ever really did.

If I don't Break, I could just as easily be killed, and again, Knight's journey would have been for nothing. 2 years is a long time traveling somewhere that could have taken 2 weeks. I don't like to think that I have, or ever will waste that time he took to find me. I don't know why though, as time is not so much of the essence as it used to be. It is, however, still the reaper, and all good things must come to an end. Our world will die out some day, though if you think our current world is good then more fool you. Yet, I find myself contradicting this as I look around me. The world is still beautiful in its natural innocence, and it was man who brought our fate upon us. Considering that, can the world be a good thing?

If it is not, then Knight and I are going to change that. That is why I must stay alive, and I must not let myself fall prey to anything. Including any negative thinking of mine.

I nod at Knight's words and continue to walk, trying to take my mind off my aching muscles. The trees are a welcome shelter, a part of this world that houses many bad things, yet keeps me safe. Well, safe from the tearing winds. I hope that there are no creatures lurking among this dense thicket with their eyes on us. I want to stay alive.

I am starting to realise that I am not just doing this for myself, or the world. Part of my past self still remains, somewhere, and she wants to keep fighting for her deceased sister, a girl with no name to match her face, a girl long forgotten in this world. There is a fragment of my soul that wants to keep fighting for her sake. There is little to fuel her fire; I know nothing of her personality, nothing of what she did. Was she admirable? Or do I feel like this just because she was my sister?

There is also someone else that I am trekking across this vast, unpredictable world for. Knight. I am indebted to him for the time he took to find me, and for taking me with him even though I may not have been what he wanted. He saved me from a bleak future, and put me on the path to a different one. I can't die, I can't Break, I can't cut this journey off short. I have to stick around and help him. God knows that he helped me.

My own stubbornness will help me out here though. As well as all these things, I just refuse to cease to exist. I have just been let out of my cage, and I want to see the world. I am like a child on Christmas day - I just can't get enough of it. Even now, my eyes frantically flicker about and take everything in as we walk, though I am careful to keep my head still and observe only what is in my line of eyesight. I need to stay alert.