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Wednesday 2nd September - 5:18 PM â Jamie's House â Outfit
âģ Mood: Concerned - Quiet - Envious
âģ Listening To: Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
âģ With: Jamie
She watched him at the keyboard and how his expression changed, the tension left his face and there was calamity in his eyes and it dawned on Bella that she was practically jealous of how that aging keyboard could temporarily cure his pain and cheer him up in a way which she was convinced she couldn't. She internally scoffed at herself, shaking her head- why was she thinking so much? She really had to be losing her mind if she was going to sit around feeling jealous of a musical instrument. It was just so hard to see him in pain or upset all the time when she wasn't capable of taking that pain away from him, it was starting to dawn on her that she only ever added to it and made things worse for him but selfishly, she couldn't leave him away- she was too attached to not have him by her side and see him everyday.
"I ponder of something great,
My lungs will fill and then deflate.
They fill with fire,
Exhale desire,
I know it's dire my time today,"