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bella. 
Wednesday 2nd September - 5:18 PM â Jamie's House â Outfit
âģ Mood: Concerned - Quiet - Envious
âģ Listening To: Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
âģ With: Jamie
Wednesday 2nd September - 5:18 PM â Jamie's House â Outfit
âģ Mood: Concerned - Quiet - Envious
âģ Listening To: Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
âģ With: Jamie
She nodded quietly in agreement, she sat back in the chair again, leaning her head against it dopily like she always would have done before, looking up at the ceiling and her hair all spread out around her shoulders as messy as it always tended to be. "Yeah, that sounds about right," She agreed to his first comment. It was true as well, sometimes she could blink and the day was gone but other times, it felt like she was spending centuries after centuries just sat in her room listening to the same old vinyl records till the lyrics were scratched into her memory deeper than scars. She sat up a bit straighter and looked over at Jamie, just appreciating his company. She knew they were both kind of sad or worried in different ways but there was still an element of his presence like there always had been they she found comfort and reassurance in- like the presence of a priest, mother or officer, an element security. Jamie had basically been the only person she'd ever really trusted and thinking in her head about how much she'd fucked everything up, almost made her cry with the guilt of knowing this was all her fault.
If she hadn't let her feelings for Jamie get so complex, she wouldn't have felt the need to runaway from them and into Jace. She'd only known Jace a year and dated him for 9 months of that and not a moment of that she could recall had meant anything as much to her as just playing piano with Jamie and she knew that, she always had but the thought scared her- so she ran away from it, like she ran away from it. As a child and sometimes even known, Bella was always known to run off and hide- absolutely anywhere she could find, woods, cupboards, trees, hostels, youth groups- she'd disappear and see how long it took people to find her and she'd always watch to see if they even bothered to look. Most of the time they didn't but Bella could distinctly remember Celine and Jamie finding her once when she took flight during a trip to the woods and that was the first time anyone had ever bothered to find her. The memory made her smile a little and she looked over at Jamie.
"Hey, do you remember all those weekends we spent camping in the woods with Celine when we first met each other? I haven't been for ages," She mumbled thoughtfully, finally sitting up properly again and pulling her hair down one shoulder. "It was cool up there- I can remember we tried to scare Celine once, you know when we hid behind that massive Willow tree? God, I felt awful afterwards though, she shit herself," She recalled smiling a little. "We should go up there again sometime, you know the whole old time's sake thing?" She rambled away from a moment and then caught herself rambling and stopped, playing with her hair as she thought about it.
If she hadn't let her feelings for Jamie get so complex, she wouldn't have felt the need to runaway from them and into Jace. She'd only known Jace a year and dated him for 9 months of that and not a moment of that she could recall had meant anything as much to her as just playing piano with Jamie and she knew that, she always had but the thought scared her- so she ran away from it, like she ran away from it. As a child and sometimes even known, Bella was always known to run off and hide- absolutely anywhere she could find, woods, cupboards, trees, hostels, youth groups- she'd disappear and see how long it took people to find her and she'd always watch to see if they even bothered to look. Most of the time they didn't but Bella could distinctly remember Celine and Jamie finding her once when she took flight during a trip to the woods and that was the first time anyone had ever bothered to find her. The memory made her smile a little and she looked over at Jamie.
"Hey, do you remember all those weekends we spent camping in the woods with Celine when we first met each other? I haven't been for ages," She mumbled thoughtfully, finally sitting up properly again and pulling her hair down one shoulder. "It was cool up there- I can remember we tried to scare Celine once, you know when we hid behind that massive Willow tree? God, I felt awful afterwards though, she shit herself," She recalled smiling a little. "We should go up there again sometime, you know the whole old time's sake thing?" She rambled away from a moment and then caught herself rambling and stopped, playing with her hair as she thought about it.