Graham laughed nervously, admittedly afraid to start pouring his feelings out for the fear of not being able to stop. It was selfish of him to put this burden on Madoka, but if he had to hold it in anymore he was afraid he'd explode--and again, he'd offered. If anything, he'd brought it on himself.
"Do you think there's something weird going on between Mercy and Faqir?" He blurted out. The abruptness of his question took even him off-guard. Was it really bothering him this much? "I mean, it's probably none of my business, right? It's completely none of my business! And it shouldn't even bother me as much as it's bothering me, but it is, and now I feel weird around them and I feel like I'm kind of losing my best friends, which I'm not! It's probably just all in my head and there's not even anything going on between them, even though Mercy totally came back with her hair mysteriously down and they were spending a lot of time together a-and you know what? Since when has Mercy been cuddly?!"
He groaned, hating how stupid he felt. "Please tell me it's all in my head. Just tell me I'm being stupid so I can get over this nonexistent thing and not feel weird trying to hug Faqir. Jeez, you were probably expecting something heavier, but this is such a stupid thing to be upset about. I'm really stupid. It's just that after fainting and nearly leaving Fauss and Levi to die, not being able to keep it together, nearly triggering Fauss again after he was trying so hard and being so nice, being a general failure, feeling like I'm a third wheel all of the sudden, and then seeing everyone in there with someone to hug e-except me, I-I...I-I...I couldn't keep it together, I just felt like I was gonna explode! With tears! A-and sadness! A-and now I'm doing this to you, and I wanted to be here alone so that I could cry and I didn't have to make everyone feel worse, b-but I..."
"No!" He cried suddenly, mind going back to Mercy and Faqir. "Faqir totally said he loved Mercy! It's not in my head because I actually heard it while I was next to them! But darn it, if they really like each other and want to do--to do whatever, that makes it even more stupid that I'm upset about it! Augh, Madoka, why are feelings so stupid?! It's not even that kind of jealous, it's just like...l-like I'm losing my friends! Does that even make sense?! I bet it doesn't because I'm stupid!"
At least during his ranting, his crying had lessened some. He was too focused on getting all of his frustration out that he was forgetting about all of the reasons he had to cry.