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OOC: DWI, said just to continue and we can assume that Fang either will have joined or joined during the meeting.

As all the grey knights had gathered in the main room of the temple. Ashara stood up in front of them.

"I have called you in for a reason. This is a precautionary measure. As some of you might know, Adegan crystals are bound to the force and may change the color of a lightsaber depending on the alignment of it's user. The colors red and orange represent the dark side, while green, yellow and blue represent the light side. What is in between is usually violet. Mine was near ultraviolet, while it is closer to blue it is actually rather a neutral color. However..." She pulled out her lightsaber and turned it on. The color was a pink. "Pink is a shade of red. I fear that I might be losing my inner balance and am in danger of falling back to the dark side."

"I have called you here so that you know that I might not be able to trust depending how far I fall. If I try to manipulate you to embrace the dark side, resist. If I can't regain my balance, I must leave you and exile myself. I would rather not leave you. But if I stay and fall to the dark side, I may become the reason for the demise of the grey knights. But if I leave, I fear that the grey knights would eventually fall apart." Ashara said.

"A few of you know that I was once a Sith. But the fewest know the circumstances. I was infamous. I was even hated by some Sith and they feared me as much as they hated me. I was known as Darth Sanguineis. I was known for my orange lightsaber and my ruthlessness on one side but as a leader I was considered benevolent. I preferred to pursuade the simple citizen with character and not with violence. I would give them relative freedom for their loyalty and I would destroy traitors and personal enemies brutally. I personally killed many who didn't deserve it. And the emotional anguish that I can never atone for my crimes is one of the sources of my inbalance. The only person I don't regret killing is my former Sith master who was at the time leader of our group of Sith. He was brutal and order the deaths of millions innocents. I do not desire to go back to a life where I try to dominate. So I wish you to be cautious and try to avert my turning."