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{"What i like about photographs is that they capture a moment that’s gone forever, impossible to reproduce."}
-Karl Lagerfeld
Memphis Lance Penham
{N I C K N A M E}
Remy
Lights Guy, New Kid, Teddy Bear, REM, Memph, Lance
{A G E}
Nineteen [19]
{G E N D E R}
Male
{C O U N T R Y OF O R I G I N
Canada
{S E X U A L I T Y}
Questioning
{"You are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed. And you are beautiful."}
-Amy Bloom
5'8"
{W E I G H T}
165 lbs
{E Y E C O L O R}
dark brown
{H A I R C O L O R}
mousy brown
{A P P E A R A N C E}
Remy tends to dress for comfort, usually donning dark clothes, jeans and a denim or leather jacket. On the rare occasion that he's slightly more awake when he dresses, he'll don a collared shirt and sweater.
{O D D I T I E S}
Many scars from undisclosed sources. He also has a few small tattoos, one of them being a rose.
{"I am a rare species, not a stereotype."}
-Ivan E. Coyote
✦ loyal ✧ stubborn ✦ sweet ✧ desperate ✦ cowardly ✧
Above all else, Remy is a people-pleaser. He practically lives to do things for others, and has surprisingly low standards from all the various things he's done. Even a casual invitation is an undeniable request for Remy, as he feels obligated to help even if he's not really wanted. Shunned for his tendency to butt into conversations and his regard for personal space- none- he spent most of high school with only his over-the-phone girlfriend who was studying abroad and the 'wrong crowd'. Trying desperately to fit in, he developed a recklessness and secretive nature that he used to fulfill dares and promises 'to be popular, or at least liked for once', Remy did lots of things he regrets to this day- one of them being an addiction to smoking he can't seem to drop.
He becomes very attached and loyal to his friends and family, and spends a lot of time caring for them. He only loses an argument if he knows he's wrong, in which case he'll keep going until all of his leads are exhausted. His sweet side is like a dog; with no care for anything you've done wrong or what others think of you. As long as you give him attention and kindness, he'll stick around to the bitter end and then some. Today, he's much more mature and cares little for his reputation. He's still desperate for love and affection, and with his girlfriend in a different country, he's ready to move on to find something better- or more local.
{"People tend to complicate their own lives, as if living weren't already complicated enough."}
-Carlos Ruiz Zafón
✦mechanics - Anything from cars, to soundboards, to spotlights, to repairs, Remy is the ultimate handyman. He adores fixing things and tinkering in his free time.
✧patient - With a knack for timing and placement, Remy knows the value of waiting. He's willing to stay in one place for hours to get the perfect cue or shot.
✦photography - Entirely in black-and-white, Remy adores photography. It was a hobby he never let go of, used to convince himself that there was still beauty in the world on his worst days.
✧polite - Always insufferably polite, especially to authority, Remy is also skilled in sucking up to people and has a knack for getting his elders to adore him.
{W E A K N E S S E S}
✧jealous - Remy gets jealous easily, and if he sees something he wants that someone else has, he'll feel instant dislike even if he's never seen or met them before.
✦sensitive - All insults are taken personally, and criticism is an easy way for people to get into his head. Remy is very emotional and everything has some impact on his mood.
✧cowardly - Even after going through his school stupidity, Remy is still hopelessly gullible to plots and schemes. He's also very nervous in social situations and doesn't like change.
✦tech un-savvy - With very little access to the internet, Remy has no experience with video games or social media. He's also completely uncultured in terms of good music.
{"We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be."}
-Kurt Vonnegut
✦photography - "There's always something beautiful, and I use the lens of the camera to find it."
✧tinkering - "So many possibilities! It's so soothing, too, just messing around with the tiny parts."
✦gardening - "Everything in my life seems to revolve around how fragile life is, and its beauty. But the truth is I just really like flowers."
{H A B I T S}
✧smoking - "I wish I could break it, but at least it helps my nerves."
✦mimicry - "I don't really get most of the references or terms, so I tend to repeat them and act like I know what they mean..."
✧hiding his face - "My hair is the go-to resource to keep my face hidden. It helps to keep my emotions private."
{L I K E S}
✦dogs - "They're so cute, and loving, and soft, and cute, and loyal. I much prefer their companionship over most people I know."
✧the band - "Everyone is so close, and together they make amazing music! I can't wait to watch them perform- as a part of the show."
✦aesthetics - "So oddly reassuring and well, gorgeous. A maker and lover of aesthetics myself, I'm a bit obsessed."
✧chocolate - "It's amazing. Enough said."
✦draco - "He's just so confident and charismatic! Everything I could hope to be in an adorable package- wait, did I just say that?"
{D I S L I K E S}
✦tall people - "Over six feet, that is. Tall people are just so intimidating, even if I don't know them. Bad memories, I guess."
✧coffee - "It's always been far too bitter, and plus, I'm a morning person. I don't need it, thankfully."
✦pain - "Obviously nobody likes it, but after quite a long time of enduring it, I'm more sensitive to it than most."
✧being touched - "Bad memories again. I'm just not comfortable with physical contact, although I am very physically affectionate- hugs and such. It's weird."
✦fire - "Long story, I'd rather not. Can we just move on...?"
{G O A L S}
✦befriending the band - "They're all just so cool, and I want to be a liked part of their close community."
✧figuring himself out - "I'd rather just solidify what I am and enjoy life."
✦break his smoking habit - "I know it's bad, and I've kept it secret, but I really just want to get rid of it."
{F E A R S}
✧disappointing his family - "They've given me everything in life, and I just let them down. I guess I'm really afraid of them just giving up on me."
✦abuse - "I'm not one for pain, and after incessant mental and emotional abuse, the physical abuse was really a way to make it stick."
✧loneliness - "I've endured it for so long that I begin to fear it being all that I know."
{"Any fool can know. The point is to understand."}
-Albert Einstein
Remy was born into a tumultuous home- if one could call it that. He was sent to an orphanage a few years after he was born, when his single mother tried to get rid of him. He was always shy and quiet, too timid to answer questions and almost mute until he was eight. He was fostered by a large family with four other kids, and stuck out like a sore thumb. He was pale, with mousy brown hair, and the others were tall, athletic, and easy on the eyes. Living in the shadow of his siblings, Remy remained quiet, but was determined to set himself apart in school. In sixth grade, he met a girl- Liza Thomas. She was beautiful, with dark skin that contrasted his and a constant, sunny smile. Determined to befriend the quiet boy, she stuck by his side constantly. Liza followed him everywhere, and helped him through the days when nothing went right and the bullies were particularly harsh. She moved in eighth grade, and shortly after Remy was sent back into the system. His 'parents' didn't want to deal with such a quiet, moody, worthless child.
He was conveniently placed into a new home a few blocks away from Liza's family, and they spent the summer between middle and high school together, first as friends, and then a couple. His new mother was very supportive, and his father was often away on business trips. He was considerably better off, with nicer clothes, a better school, and new hobbies. However, he was still quiet, and desperate to be accepted by his peers. Freshman year introduced him to smoking, the darker side of dares, and Louis Vermont.
Louis was the classic bad boy, with a new girl on his arm every week. Remy was dazzled by his popularity, and started to get involved with the group. He got into many illegal things, but Liza still followed him. She drifted away, and they fought more, but never separated. Remy was eventually kicked out of the group due to his loyalty to Liza, and spent the last three years of high school being incessantly bullied and harassed. With many cases verging dangerously towards hospitalization, he became very depressed and lonely. Liza had left to study abroad, and the final two years of high school dragged on painfully. When Liza informed him she would be staying in Sweden, Remy was lost and barely managed to graduate. His parents were distant, and his mother was dying. Remy left home a few months after he graduated, attending a few classes at his local college but skipping the ones he wasn't interested in. Building skill in photography, he began selling some of his pictures to sustain himself and stay in his tiny apartment. His freedom allowed him to roam the internet, and he was instantly enthralled with a unique cover band. He raised money and a reputation in tech so that he could roam the world with this quickly growing band.
{"Being different is a revolving door in your life where secure people enter and insecure exit."}
-Shannon L. Alder
Alex Arnold
{C O L O R}
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{P O R T R A Y E D B Y}
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