“We survive by remembering, but sometimes we survive by forgetting.”
Jessa Wiley Hobbs
"It’s Jessa. Call me Jessica one more fucking time, see what happens."
Nicknames
Jessa actually really likes her name, what she hates is when people call her Jessica. She prefers you call her by her name, but she doesn’t mind Jess, sometimes she gets Jay. Her sibling tend to call her Wiley which she actually likes, but that’s reserved for family only.
"Jess or Jay, that’s it sweetheart."
Age
Seventeen
"More like seventeen going on twenty-five."
Sexual Orientation
Heterosexual
"Girls are fun to kiss, but I love me a bad boy."
Role
Hobbs Sibling||Twin
"Who's asking?"
Likes
♥ Smoking
♥ Parties
♥ Weed
♥ Night Time
♥ Drinking
♥ Bad Boys
♥ Coffee
♥ Sex
♥ Being alone
♥ Stargazing
♥ Texting
♥ School (The social part, anyways)
♥ Getting her Way
♥ Being Queen Bee
♥ Jogging (Staying in shape)
♥ Being the center of attention
♥ Her siblings
"You have to enjoy what life gives you."
Dislikes
☂ Her Grandmother
☂ Stupid Questions
☂ Swimming (She doesn’t know how)
☂ When people bring up her parents
☂ Judgmental People
☂ Being Ignored
☂ Crying in front of others
☂ Her Scar
☂ The idea of love
☂ Commitment
☂ Seeing people she loves hurt
☂ Lying to her siblings
"I don't like the word hate, so will say strongly dislike."
Distinct Markings
She has scars on her wrists from cutting, she suffers from depression, but she refuses to tell anyone that she’s still cutting. Her siblings know she’s on medication for depression but that’s all they know. She’s been cutting herself since she was fourteen and she’s gotten extremely good at hiding the scars.
She has her belly button pierced (did it herself) and the normal ear piercings.
She has one tattoo on her wrist that she got without her parents’ permission on her sixteenth birthday. Her brother took her to get it. The words Live out Loud on her left wrist
"I've got a few and I plan to get more."
Fears
|| ☠|| Losing her Siblings: Although she doesn’t show it all the time she loves her brother and sister to death and if anything happened to them it would completely destroy her. Losing her parents was hard enough, losing her sibling would push her over the edge.
|| ☠|| Dying: She’s not scared of death per say, she’s more scared that her depression will get out of hand to the point that she’ll end up killing herself one day. For the most part she’s on medication and it’s controlled, but she tends to get pretty bad when she’s not on medication.
"There are very few things that scare me in this wicked world."
To the world Jessa is confident, maybe even a little too confident at times. She’s beautiful and talented and she’s always got it together. She’s full of sass and she’s always getting the last word in. She was born to be the Queen Bee, captain of the cheer team. It’s rare to see her down or not on top of her game. Her bite is definitely worse than her bite and you don’t want to get on her bad side.
She’s a party girl, not as much as her sister, but she likes to have a good time. She drinks a little too much and smokes her occasional joint, she’s no saint that’s for sure. She’s always the center of attention at a party whether it’s good or bad attention doesn’t really matter. Being popular she’s always surrounded by people, dying to get a little closer to her just to know what it feels like to be her for a day. Jess can be a huge sarcastic bitch most of the time, she’s always rolling her eyes or scoffing when she thinks you’ve said something stupid.
However this is just a front she puts up. Deep down, Jessa is actually really broken. She’s been suffering from depression for a little over three years. No one is really sure what triggered it, but it took her over dosing on pain pills before her parents realized there was something wrong. She was put on pretty heavy medication that she takes daily now and when she doesn’t she starts to have violent outbursts or sinks low into depression, so low sometimes it’s hard to get her out of that dark place.
When Jessa is alone with her siblings she’s a completely different person, she lets down the bitchy exterior and she forgets about all the bad sit in her life. Her siblings mean the world to her although most the time she treats them more like servants then siblings. She loves them to death and would do anything for them.
"Be your own hero, don't expect others to save the day. Because that shits all a lie"
Evanescence||Field Of Innocence
I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now
Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now
Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything
[Latin hymn:]
Iesu, Rex admirabilis
Et triumphator nobilis,
Dulcedo ineffabilis,
Totus desiderabilis.
Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Oh, Where
Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything
I still remember.
Kelly Clarkson||Addicted
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
