āMaybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets."
-Aurthur Miller
| Full Name |
Reed Austin Michael Luxington
āDonāt bother remembering my name, cause I couldnāt give a shit about yours.ā
| Nickname |
Reed kind of hates his name, because heās named after his father who he canāt fucking stand. He prefers Lux, a shorting of his last name and when he first started calling himself that, he was surprised at how quickly it stuck. Other than Lux, his mom calls him Reedy and he canāt stand that.
āIf you want to call me anything, just call me Lux and we wonāt have any problems.ā
| Age |
Eighteen
āFinally legal to move the fuck out.ā
| Gender |
Male
āObviously your blind .ā
| Role |
Boy One
āFuck off.ā
Scars:
Reed has several scars, most of which are self-inflicted. When he was younger, he used to use a lighter and burn himself to take away the pain, so he has several faded burn scars that run up and down both arms. He carved the word āFuckā into his left forearm two years ago and it healed leaving the word perfectly visible. He has a scar that runs across the right side of his collar bone, from where his mother broken his collar bone when she beat him until he passed out with a candle stick holder. His collar bone injury never quite healed right and still irritates him every now and then.
Piercings:
He has both ears gagged, but their on the smaller side. He also has snake bit piercings, but he rarely wears them.
Tattoos:
He has a few and plans to get more. He has a wolf on his left shoulder. He has the words āFlaws make Perfectionā across his chest. He has Lost Soul written across his knuckles. His most resent is his quarter sleeve on his right arm.
āI like pain, tattoos are the perfect addiction.ā
āNight Time
āParties
āSex
āCandace
āSmoking
āDrugs
āClubs
āStarting Fights
āKnives
āTansy
āDogs
āHis Sister
āFeeling Numb
āGetting Drunk
āLate Nights with his friends
āI like a lot of shit.ā
| Dislikes |
āStupid Girls
āHis Father
āThinking about his past
āWhen people judge him
āHis Temper
āWhen someone threatens his friends
āNot being in control
āCollin
āTeachers
āCops
āNot having cigarettes
āChick Flicks
āGood Girls
āBeing told "No"
āTell me no and I'll make you say yes.ā
| Fears |
|ā |Losing his little sister:
Despite the obvious favoritism towards his little sister, heās never once hated her. In fact sheās the only one who can ground him and the only one heāll actually hear out. He loves her to death and if anything happened to her, heād blame himself.
|ā |Hurting Tansy:
For a long time he thought he loved Tansy, but when he finally got her, he realized he didnāt love her. He just cared about her and hated the way Collin was treating her. When he started sleeping with Candace, he felt like shit, not for sleeping with her, but for being no better than Collin. He doesnāt want to hurt her and fuck her up more than she already is, not to mention heās playing with fire considering him and Kaleb are best friends and if Kaleb found out, heād be dead.
|ā |Falling for Candie:
He knows exactly how Candie is, heās seen her seduce guys and play with them. Heās not stupid, heās known her for a long time and he knows what sheās capable of. Heād never really liked her like that, simple because he hated the way she played her game, because she knew she was beautiful. He made the mistake of sleeping with her and then going back for more and no heās scared heās falling for her games.
āFuck fears.ā
If you were to ask anyone what they thought about Lux, the first thing out of their mouth would be āOh, himā¦heās a lost cause donāt bother.ā Guaranteed thatās the response youād get every time. Most people donāt bother to get to know him, they judge him solely off his looks and if you were to do the same, your judgment would more than likely be, that he looks like the kid whoās going to crack any day and bring a gun to school and shoot up the school.
Itās an unfair judgment, but Reed has learned to deal with it. Heās the type of guy that keeps to himself. Wears black nail polish and black eyeliner just to scare people away so he doesnāt have to talk to him. He almost always has his headphones around his neck and honestly just looks really intimidating, which is why most people tend to walk on the other side of the side walk when they walk by him. He hates the way people look at him, like heās some anarchist with a plot to blow up the Queenās limo. However, heās gotten s used to it, he doesnāt even notice anymore.
Lux is a sarcastic smart ass. Heās mean, cruel, and cold to mostly everyone including his close friends. The way he sees it though, if youāre willing to put up with his shit, then your worth his time. He tends to have a lot of anxiety due to his mother beating him when he was a kid, which is the reason heās rarely ever sober, because when heās sober he feels everything and heās rather be numb. Reedās broken that much is obvious and so he fills his time with sex and drugs to get his mind off his shitty life.
Reed was told his entire life how big of a mistake he was and how unwanted he was. He tried his best to ignore it, but after being told such awful things for so long, he started believing it. He hates himself and feels like shit ninety percent of the time when something bad goes wrong in his life, whether itās his fault or not, he takes the blame and honestly believes itās his fault, which is where a lot of his anxiety steams from as well.
He doesnāt know how to censor himself and that tends to get him in a lot of trouble. If he doesnāt like something heās going to tell you and heās not going to be particularly nice about it. He tends to hurt people feelings without even realizing it, but he canāt seem to bring himself to feeling guilty about it. Guilt isnāt something heās good at and neither is patience. He has little to no patience and if you piss him of heās a nightmare to deal with. Heās been known to put several guys in the hospital, because heās beat them up so badly.
When it comes to his friends, heās a little different. Heās a little more open and a little less of an ass hole. If he really cares about you, youāll know. Heāll protect you with his life and fight for you. He doesnāt like hurting girls, but he always seems to and he wonāt lay a hand on a girl unless she gives him a reason to. Heās honestly a really good guy when he wants to be, but it takes the right people to bring that out in him.
| History |
Family Tree
Harevy Luxington||Father||Alive
D'Ana Luxington||Mother||Alive
Rachel Luxington||Young Sister||Alive
Reedās parents werenāt exactly in love when they got married. Reed was the cause of their miserable marriage or at least thatās what they told him. They were just kids, not even when they had sex and his mother got pregnant. The two both came from strict households and when she told her parents, they went straight to his parents. Their parents forced them to get married not exactly giving them a choice. Reed was born when his mother was seventeen and a year later when his mother turned eighteen, his mother and father were married.
His father against his will was enlisted in the Military. It was a good income for the family and allowed his mother to stay home and take care of him. His father was rarely around and his mother was always drinking, not to mention when she didnāt want to deal with Reed, sheād beat the shit out of him to get him to stop crying. His life was literally a living hell. When he was five his little sister Rachel was born. By this time his parents learned to love each other, to the best of their ability, so his sister Rachel was actually wanted.
It was made very clear to Reed that he was never meant to live and if his parents had the chance they taken it all back. They told him that on the daily and made sure he knew that Rachel was the favorite. Rachel got whatever she wanted, while Reed, rarely go anything. As he got older their house turned into world war three. His father was insanely strict, seeing as heād moved up the ranks and was practically working for the Queen of England herself. They had to dress and look a certain way, but Reed refused. He started wearing black clothes with chains handing from his pants, black eyeliner and black nail polish.
At fifteen, Reed was an alcoholic and deep in heavy drugs. Heād go to parties and get into fights, heād disappear for days at a time, and when he came home it was only to see his little sister, but his father would kick him out. There was a good few months where Lux was living on the streets, eating once a week if he was lucky. That was when he started hanging out with Kaleb Everett, whom not long after he started living with.
His father told him he had to come home because it was bad publicity for their family. So eventually him and his father came to an agreement, heād show up to events that his father need him to be at, and come home once a week, but aside from the he was living with the Everettās. Kaleb introduced him to his group of friends and somehow he fit right in and go along with almost everyone. Him and Collin constantly butted heads, but that was because Lux had started having feelings for Kalebās sister Tansy. When Collin and Tansyās shit hit the fan, Reed was right by her side to help pick up the pieces. It wasnāt too long after that they started dating.
Three months into their relationship though, he realized that she was completely out of her mind, Collin had fucked her up so bad, there was no fixing her. But heād gotten himself in to deep, Kaleb had given him permission to date Tans, as long as he didnāt break her heart, he was stuck and it was his own damn fault. Then he really fucked up, after Tansy had passed out at a party, heād went to find her best friend, Candie, to tell her it was time to go. Only one thing lead to another and theyād spent the rest of the night fucking. That was two months ago now and theyāve been hooking up behind everyoneās back ever since then. Only, heās starting to think there is more between him and Candace then just really good fuck buddies.
- By Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
The moon is shining bright
The mood is feeling right
I'll kiss you on your neck
People will stare but we won't care
We're high above the ground
We're nowhere to be found
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel like I'm born again
Again I am repeating myself
And I know it is time for you to sit and pretend
Damn regret
I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause i'll be fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?
I'm wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason left for me to care
Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel like I'm born again
Again I am repeating myself
And I know it is time for you to sit and pretend
Damn regret
I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause i'll be fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?
You're the only one I turn to
When I feel like no one's there
And when I'm lonely in my darkest hour
You give me the power to sit and pretend
Damn regret
I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause i'll be fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?
Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Whoa oh oh
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- By Blink 182
I can't get my feet up off the edge
I kind of like the little rush you get
When you're standing close to death
Like when you're driving me crazy
Hold on as we crash into the earth
A bit of pain will help you suffer when you're hurt, for real
'Cause you were driving me crazy
Bite your lips, your words a robbery
Do you grin inside? You're killing me
All along we talked of forever
I kind of think that we won't get better
It's the longest start, but the end's not too far away
Did you know I'm here to stay?
We'll stagger home after midnight
Sleep arm-in-arm in the stairwell
We'll fall apart on the weekend
These nights go on and on and on
I can't keep your voice out of my head
All I hear are the many echoes of
The darkest words you said
And it's driving me crazy
I can't find the best in all of this
But I'm always looking out for you
'Cause you're the one I miss
And it's driving me crazy
Bite your lips, your words a robbery
Do you grin inside? You're killing me
All along we talked of forever
I kind of think that we won't get better
It's the longest start, but the end's not too far away
Did you know I'm here to stay?
We'll stagger home after midnight
Sleep arm-in-arm in the stairwell
We'll fall apart on the weekend
These nights go on and on and on
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