ββWithout music, life would be a mistake.β ~ Friedrich Nietzscheβ
β¦Themes
Blackbear || idfc (Acoustic)
Alex Groot & Sam Tsui || Here
ββThere are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.β ~ Laurell K. Hamiltonβ
βNicknameβ
cassie - flower child jr. - the genie
βAgeβ
20
βGenderβ
male
βSexualityβ
demisexual * homoromantic
βRelationship Statusβ
single pringle ;)
βOccupationβ
vocal coach * professional musician
βApartment Numberβ
1A
βFace Claimβ
justin bieber
β"Judgements prevent us from seeing the good that lies beyond appearances." ~ Wayne Dyerβ
βHair Colorβ
blond * brunet
βEye Colorβ
variable between sapphire and emerald
βSkin Toneβ
pale tan
βHeightβ
5'5
βWeightβ
156lbs.
βPhysical Descriptionβ
Cas has often been told, that's he's an extremely beautiful person, but given his past. He can't believe it. He knows he's moderately attractive, but he just simply chooses not to believe it. His hair is a dark blond coloring, that often seems to take dark brown and ash gray undertones, making his hair seem darker in lowly lit areas. His eyes are a darker blue but mixed with an equally dark green. This causes his eyes to have different color combinations based on his appeared emotion, and his hidden emotions. They seem to be very reactive based on his whole being in general. His style of clothing is often described as very feminine. He normally wears skinny jeans, flower crowns, and over-sized sweaters that normally droop over his shoulder. This is in a sense, why his family called him Cassie, as a joke on a feminine name that matched his appearance.
β"Self-interest is the enemy of all true affection." ~ Franklin D. Rooseveltβ
βHabitsβ
- β Nail Biting
β Stuttering
β Singing randomly.
βLikesβ
- β₯ Chocolate Cake
β₯ Singing
β₯ Playing Guitar
β₯ Making Tea
β₯ Taller Guys
βDislikesβ
- β Alcohol
β Bullies
β Family
β Ignorance
β Black Coffee
βHobbiesβ
- βͺ Songwriting
βͺ Smoking
βͺ Reading
βFearsβ
- β Physical Abuse
β Bugs
β Being Alone
β"People think depression is sadness, crying or dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again." ~ Unknownβ
βPersonalityβ
kind | peaceful | emotional | insecure | fearful
Castiel is a rather peaceful soul, staying true to his nickname "Flower Child Jr." because he is very much like his mother. In both appearance and occupation. He is rather kind, always giving his hand out to help those he needs. He starts out to trust everyone unless he's given a reason not to. He doesn't like to be rude to everyone, so this leads him to be very awkward and shy in social situations involving conflict. He has a habit of losing control of his emotions during a stressful day. He can be happy one minute, and become increasingly sad about nothing. He hates crying in front of people, as he makes him feel rather.....uncomfortable. Like he has become vulnerable for the most part.
For the main thing, Cas is an extremely peaceful person. He tends to stay away from problematic occasions, and because of this he normally never says no. Leading people to believe he is a doormat and is a likely thing everyone wishes he would change. One big part of Castiel is his insecurity. He is extremely insecure about his short stature, and when people converse about it, he becomes silent and starts to sob. He's really insecure about basically everything, due to his elder brother being a model and overly praised for it. He feels as if he's not going to live up to Alciel's standards. This causes him to strongly dislike physical contact, to a point he will go into a panic attack. He also dislikes people who drink, and considers it a major turnoff. All in all, Castiel is an overly emotional, insecure flower child who strongly dislikes physical contact.
ββEvery man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.β ~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellowβ
βHistoryβ
Castiel James Michael Lucas was born to Carlisle and Alliah Lucas, or the formerly known singing duo, Girl and the Dragon. They were a rather famous duo, who started out as two kid with a dream and ended up together. Carlisle and Alliah had already had one child before Castiel, Alciel, who by nature was a beautiful child. he started as an early model, which made him the favored child to his father. So, this caused Cas's insecurity to start earlier than most would think is possible. But, his mother loved both her children equally and spent time with both of them. Thanks to her, Castiel was capable of discovering his love for music at the age of seven and was put in multiple classes to learn how to play music. It was discovered that he was a musical prodigy, once his father became aware of this he pushed his son to become a musician at his young age.
When Castiel turned ten years old, his mother had passed away. This barely affected both his father and brother, but it affected rather harshly. Later on in the year, he was diagnosed with depression and bipolar, but a mild case of bipolar. He felt as if nothing was right, he continued to make other people happy, but what was the point if he wasn't? This is when his father's physical abuse had started. His father took his anger out on Castiel because he didn't want to make music. Which meant no money for Carlisle. He continuously beat Castiel, until his elder brother became aware of the abuse.
After his brother found out, he took his brother and moved to Ann Arbor Michigan, and kept watch over his brother. He was so upset that he let his brother be abused, he started to apologize, and basically spoil his brother. Castiel really didn't like being the center of attention for his brother, so he would refuse to take anything unless he needed it. His elder brother strongly disapproved of it, but he did respect it. They lived together for another three years, before his brother had passed from an airplane accident. Not only did this further Castiel's impression, it made him deadly afraid of heights.
After his brother's death, Castiel decided to take a chance. He would go to New York and attempt to continue as a musician, but he slowly struggled. But such is life, he's content. He makes enough to live in his apartment, he's just really waiting for his next adventure.