Jeffrey Brooks's Story

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Walking through the city wasn’t Jeffrey’s idea of a good time; there were too many people, too many noises, and the overwhelming anxiety that he was going to get lost. He was from a city, of course, but it was nothing compared to New York. He felt a little homesick, at times. Indiana seemed so simple in comparison. But especially when he knew he would be spending his birthday by himself. He was sure his friends would talk him into going out and doing something, but it just wasn’t the same. He had always tended to lean too much on his family, and though he and his sister constantly competed and argued with one another, he missed her the most. Most of the time, it didn’t bother him, he was pretty used to being away, but this was the first year they hadn’t used some form of creative scheduling to make it work so that they could somehow, even if they were on facetime, celebrate together.

Jeffrey had found the music store entirely by accident; he wasn’t super into music (he liked it, sure, but it wasn’t a passion of his), and didn’t typically go into music stores, or even actually buy albums. He’d happened upon the store while he was trying to find a gift for his sister, though the moment he stepped through the doors, he knew he was in way over his head. He’d never heard of even a fraction of the bands he saw on the shelves, and didn’t have a clue where to begin.

He slowly walked through the store, feeling lost and useless for a good thirty minutes before he decided he should ask for help. Did he even know what kind of music his sister was into? He couldn’t ask her, that would be weird. They didn’t even actually text one another, the most communication they regularly had was sending the occasional meme. He tried to think of her general vibe, anything that might help, but ultimately he knew that she just liked her music loud and obnoxious.

With a smile, he walked up to the counter, “Hi, you work here, right?” Stupid question, don’t dwell on it, “I’m looking for something for my sister, our birthday is coming up, and I can’t be there this year. I’m still not really used to not celebrating with her, so it just feels weird knowing that I won’t be there.” He paused, realizing he was oversharing, and attempted to reign his story in, “She just likes music a lot, and I am not an expert. At all. But I thought that maybe getting her something she doesn't already have would be really cool.” He briefly laughed at himself, and shrugged, “Could you help me?” He smiled at her; he was going for charming, but it was perhaps coming off as desperate. “I would really appreciate it.”

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Jeffrey nodded when the woman- Evelina- said she’d help him, and told him to follow her. He wondered if she got stuck with an old nametag, or if she just wasn’t the biggest fan of her name, but ultimately he knew it didn’t really matter. He was here to get a gift for his sister, and she’d forget all about him once he left. She was pretty, though, and had a unique style about her, too. Jeff liked that, honestly.

She asked him what kind of music he liked, and Jeffrey sighed to himself before answering, “If I’m being honest, I’m not totally sure. She likes loud music, with singers that wear tight pants.” the fact that that was the only thing he’d ever really noticed about her music was, perhaps, not the best review of him as a brother, but it was true enough. She asked him about him and his sister being twins, and he talked as they went looking through the shelves, “Yeah, we’re twins. We were always together growing up, but I guess that’s normal.” The chuckled to himself, almost nervously, “She’s always been cooler than I am, though.” Yeah, that was exactly the sort of thing you tell a pretty girl, that you’re not cool.

He tried to remember some of the bands or songs he knew she liked, and offered them when they came to him. Jeff offered a polite smile when Eve handed him some cds she thought his sister would like. He turned them over, checking out the cases for a second. He really didn’t know what made for good music, but they looked like bands she might like, so he figured they would be good picks. She pointed out that one was a favorite of hers, and he smiled at that, “Thank you,” He cleared his throat, “I mean, I know it’s your job, but still. I was a little hopeless.”

He followed her back to the counter, so he could check out, and he couldn’t help but want to say something to Evelina. He knew this was where she worked, and he didn’t want to be creepy, but he just kind of liked her. It could go horribly wrong, but worst case scenario, he never had to come back to this particular music store. New York was a big city, so his chances of running into her and seeing her wherever he went were probably pretty low. “I, um,” Keep it cool, Jeffrey, “I really like your hair.” Come on, you can’t think of anything better than that? This girl probably gets that constantly: she’s a cute girl with cool hair, working in a cool music store. “I just mean that, you know, you’ve got this cool and unique vibe going on, and you-” He stopped, and all but laughed at himself, “I’m sorry, that was weird.” He made a mental note that he was bad at flirting, “You’re just very pretty, and I’m a little awkward.”

He paused, realization dawning on his face, “Oh, I know you’re at work, I’m not… I mean I know that you’re being nice because you have to I just…” He shook his head, “Sorry. Thanks for your help.”

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She laughed at him, which would have been more devastating if not for the fact that Jeffrey knew his attempt at flirting was pathetic. She apologised for laughing, and complimented him, herself, but Jeffrey just shook it off. She was probably just trying to be nice. At this point, he honestly just wanted to move on, maybe get something to eat. He never flirted with people, and this was why, he tended to get frazzled and make himself look stupid.

Evelina mentioned that there was a download code for the music. Jeff didn’t really buy cds, he did most of his music listening through streaming services, so that struck him as a little odd, but as it had literally been years since he’d bought a physical copy of an album, but his sister had mentioned that amazon gave you a digital copy of music you purchased, so a part of him just figured that it had become a common practice now. But then she said the place closed in an hour. Which was weird. Then the thought occurred to him that she probably just wanted him to leave so she could start cleaning up or whatever she had to do. So he smiled, thanked her again, and then he left.

As he walked away, he started to run over the interaction in his head. It felt a little weird, he’d probably made her uncomfortable, which wasn’t his intention. He decided to stop kicking himself over the whole thing: he couldn’t change the past. He’d have to ask his sister or one of his female friends for an opinion on how that had gone later. He was actually sitting on the subway when he got curious about the download codes for the music. He figured that maybe he could give them to his sister. She might like to have a digital copy in case anything happened to the cds. He fished out the receipt to look at it, and it took him a moment to understand what he was looking at. Not a download code, a phone number. Wait, he thought, working out what that meant at all but a snail’s pace. She’d been flirting with him. He spent longer than he would like to admit trying to decide what to do, but eventually (after consulting his roommate), he settled on the idea that she gave him his number because she wanted him to contact her in some way. He decided on a text message.

Music Store Girl
Hey, it’s Jeffrey. The awkward nerd from the music store.

He sent the message just like that, but he quickly realized what a terrible opening that was, and quickly sent another message.

Music Store Girl
If you haven’t eaten yet, we could grab a bite to eat? If you’re interested? :)

He had deleted and re-typed the smiley face a total of four times before he decided to leave it in and send the message and a part of him felt like he was being presumptuous, but she had told him the store was closing soon, so that had to mean something.

After a little back-and-forth, it was set, and Jeff was going to meet her outside the store. It was a little after closing time when he’d managed to make it back to the store, and he hoped that he hadn’t made her wait too long, and that she understood that getting around in the city wasn’t always the easiest thing to accomplish. When he saw Eve, he smiled, hoped his nerves weren’t too obvious, and said, “Hey!” He paused for a moment before continuing on, “Thanks for,” What was he even thanking her for? Giving him her number? Agreeing to go out with him? That was weird. So instead of finishing that thought, he cleared his throat and half-gestured for her to lead the way, “What kind of food do you like?” Personally, moving to New York had opened Jeff up to an entirely different world of foods, and he still ran into things he’d never tried before on occasion. He didn’t like it all, but he was always willing to try something new, so he figured that they would probably just go with whatever it was Evelina liked.

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Evelina said what kind of food she liked, and Jeffrey just nodded, “Well, then that’s what we’ll have.” As they walked and talked, Jeff noticed how easy it seemed to be to talk to her. He often felt like he had trouble holding conversations with people, especially right after meeting them. He didn’t know if this was what people meant when they talked about meeting someone and having a connection that “clicks,” or if Evelina was just particularly patient and good at conversation. Either way, he didn’t mind it.

They’d been walking for a while when she stopped. By her word choice, Jeff guessed something was wrong, so he asked, “What’s wrong?” Her explanation brought two possibilities to mind. She hadn’t cashed her check and was genuinely short on cash, or she had changed her mind and was trying to come up with an excuse to get out of going to dinner with him. If he were being honest, he could accept either one, but he did want to know which was the case.

“I’ll pay for yours.” He didn’t even have to think about offering to pay, of course he would. When she agreed, he smiled, and quickly shook his head when she said she didn’t like owing people, “Don’t worry about it. I asked you, I’ll pick up the check. You won’t owe me anything.”

It wasn’t much longer before they got to the place Eve recommended. Jeffrey didn’t know what to order, so he just went with whatever she suggested.

“So, um,” Jeff didn’t want things to suddenly get awkward, so he felt the need to keep the conversation moving, “What do you like to do? Like. For fun.” The thought that she had known what he meant before he clarified crossed his mind. Because, of course she knew. He felt like he looked like a kid on his first date. His roommate and friends had been telling him he needed to get out there more, but if he were being honest, he didn’t give himself a whole lot of time to do so. He spent a lot of his free time studying, which, if he were being honest, was probably what he should have been doing. Typically, when he wasn’t studying, he was just doing whatever his roommate felt like doing. That was potentially dangerous, but she wasn’t all that bad.

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Jeffrey couldn’t help but smile at the way the people who worked at the place were acting. He figured Eve must come here pretty often for them to be so familiar with her.

When she asked if she could call him Jeff, he nodded, and she went on talking before he could even get the words “yeah, everyone does” out of his mouth. He was a little surprised that she was letting him see her sketchbook just like that. She either didn’t mind who saw her art, or he was just used to particularly shy artists. He looked at the cover for a minute, a little conflicted at the eves don’t open directive; but he figured that since she handed it to him, she likely didn’t mind if he flipped through it. “I like your drawings… Or, uh, art?” He never knew how to properly refer to the things creative people made. It was always either “these aren’t drawings, Jeff,” or “man, these are just doodles,” but the truth was that he loved seeing the things other people made. He wasn’t the most creative person out there, so it blew him away to see how people could do things like that.

When a man brought out their food, he handed the sketchbook back to Eve. There was a little more teasing about them being on a date, but Jeff just smiled and thanked the man before he walked away. Then he turned to Eve, “Not to pry, but I’m a little curious about the whole Lida thing. You know, these guys are calling you Lida, it was on your sketchbook,” He pointed out the name tag still pinned to her shirt, “And the name tag.” He looked at his food, trying to decide on the best first bite to try as Eve removed her name tag and put it away. He nodded at her explanation, “No, don’t apologise. I was just curious.” He thought Lida was a nice name, but she didn’t seem to like it, so he didn’t say anything. She’d probably think he was just trying to be nice, anyway.

When Eve asked Jeffrey about himself, a look of panic crossed his face for a split second. How was he supposed to talk about himself without making himself look like the most boring person on the planet? In the end, he figured that there was no use trying to act like he was more exciting than he really was. “I, uh, I’m in college right now. Studying physics. So I spend most of my free time studying. I don’t mind it though, I like math and science. And all that... Stuff.” He shrugged, “Though, I really love stargazing. Back home, I used to make star charts. You know, map them out and everything.” He gestured up towards the sky, “New York’s not always the best for that, though.” He smiled, “My grandparents live way out in the middle of nowhere, back in Indiana, the stars are so beautiful there. I fell in love with space then. I used to want to be an astronaut, but,” He paused to laugh, “Now I think that’s a little unrealistic.”

He cleared his throat, he’d talked too much about space. “I like bikes, too. Always wear a helmet.” That was worse, somehow. He quickly took a bite of his food as a way to force himself to shut up. When he finished the food in his mouth, he said, “I like this,” Pointing down to the remainder of his food, “Good choice.”

As Eve spoke, Jeffrey realized that he’d never even had to think about giving up his dreams, there was always enough money that he could at least entertain it all. Sure, his life wasn’t perfect, but he could afford to follow his dreams. He’d never thought about the fact that not everyone could.

But when Evelina said she’d never seen the stars, he felt a little sad for her. It wasn’t as if seeing the stars were necessary for a happy life, but he loved them so much, and he couldn’t imagine not being able to see them clearly. There were a few places in New York for stargazing, but they were only any good at certain times of the year, and they all still suffered from being in one of the biggest cities in the world. He understood never really seeing the stars if someone had lived in the city their entire life. Hell, most people who lived somewhere they could clearly see the stars didn’t ever pay them much attention.

Jeffrey wasn’t normally particularly impulsive, but he’d already asked out and gone to dinner with a pretty girl the day he met her, and there she was, wistfully talking about seeing the stars. What was one more impulsive decision? He pulled out his phone to check the time, if they left right away, they could probably catch the next train out of the city. “Would you like to go right now?” He stood up and shrugged, struggling to keep up the level of confidence he’d just asked with, “We can catch the train if we hurry.” He remembered then that she’d forgotten about her paycheck, and she might object because she wouldn’t want him to pay for her, “The weather’s nice, and it’s not too cloudy, it’ll be perfect.” He smiled, “So long as you’re comfortable with it, I’d love to go stargazing with you. I could probably point out some constellations for you.”

There was always the chance she might think he was a serial killer or something, so he wouldn’t blame her if she said no because she didn’t feel safe, but otherwise he really did think he might have to insist.

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Jeffrey deflated a little at Eve’s initial reaction. Of course she wasn’t going to want to go with him, and it was stupid of him to have asked. But when she said yes, a mixture of excitement and dread swelled within him. A part of him had almost been hoping she’d say no: he’d done fine during dinner, but he was almost sure he’d do something stupid or be exessively boring and make her regret this entire date if they spent too much more time together. At the same time, he didn’t want this time they had together to end.

He shrugged at Evelina’s joke about him being a serial killer, “You’d be my first victim, so I’d say you might get a decent portion of the documentary.” He nodded when she insisted that she wouldn’t let him pay for her subway ticket. Jeff figured that was fair enough, though all he said was, “Okay.”

He let Eve lead the way to the station, putting his hands in his pockets as he walked. This entire evening had been full of more impulsive behavior than Jeffrey normally displayed in a month (at least, without the influence of his friends), but he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t having a great time. Evelina was interesting, and talented, and there was something about her that Jeffrey found so charming. Maybe there was something there. She slowed down to walk down the stairs, and he just barely noticed her looking at him out of the corner of his eye. Of course, she looked away the moment he turned to look at her, but he couldn’t help but smile.

Somehow, it hadn’t even occurred to Jeffrey that Evelina might ditch him until she’d told him not to worry about her ditching him. “Okay,” He said, and- fighting the urge to ask if she was sure she didn’t want him to just pay her fare- added, “I’ll wait for you right inside.”

It didn’t take him long to get through the turnstiles and find a place to stand that was out of the way, but not somewhere Eve would have trouble finding him. As he waited, it struck him that he should text his roommate to let her know he might not be back until late. Not that she would worry, but there was a chance she might get worried, so it was better to let her know. He slid his phone back into his pocket as Evelina walked up to him. “Hey, if it works.” He said, with a smile and a shrug. Then a guard approached, and even though he’d personally done nothing wrong, Jeff found himself feeling nervous.

He didn’t get much of a chance to react, though. Eve grabbed his hand and started pulling him through the crowd. Jeff didn’t even really register her calling him David; it just rolled right off his back. He nearly ran into someone and said, “Sorry!” He actually did bump into someone else and shouted, “So sorry!”

There was a moment when he thought they were going to miss the train, but someone saw them running and held open the door, giving them just enough time to get inside before the doors closed. “Thank you so much,” He said to the stranger, who’d already started to move on. Jeff couldn’t help but laugh when he heard Evelina giggling, but he shook his head, “I’m not sure I’d classify that as ‘fun.’ Very thrilling, though.”

They only let go of each-other’s hands when they’d settled into a seat. The subway car wasn’t overly crowded, so there was a seat available for both of them. Jeff was thankful for that. He laughed when Eve promised not to be rowdy later, and nodded, “I’m not sure I could handle a repeat of that.” After the excitement, Jeffrey wasn’t sure what to talk about, but he also didn’t want to have any awkward silences to make this whole thing feel uncomfortable. As he was struggling to figure out what to do, he felt his phone go off in his pocket. He was sure it was from his roommate, probably some sort of “I wasn’t worried about you. Stop texting me on your date, loser.” Instead, he found himself staring at a screen of surprisingly sexually explicit emojis. Instantly, he felt incredibly embarrassed, and mumbled, “Why are you like this?” With a sigh.

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“Why am I like what?”

For a brief moment, Jeff thought he might die. Of course Eve would think he was talking about her if she overheard that. Why wouldn’t she? “No,” He said, maybe a little too quickly, “It’s my roommate. She’s, uh,” He shrugged, “A character.” Evelina’s reaction after that was a surprise to Jeffrey, though, and he had no idea what she was talking about, at first.

Once he realized that she’d seen the stupid message on his phone, and he felt his heartrate pick up again. He was doing a lot of panicking. “No, no, no, of course. Me either, I would never-” That wasn’t better, “Not that I wouldn’t sleep with you, of course I would. Anyone would.” No that was bad, “You know, you’re gorgeous, I mean-” Shit, it was like he’d never talked to a girl before, “It’s just, you know, I wouldn’t expect it or anything. We just met.” His face felt hot, he’d totally botched that.

He’d never been so happy to arrive in station in his life. Eve said she’d let him lead the way, so he did, and he took the opportunity to catch his breath and get his wits about him. He was bad enough with words under normal circumstances, but this was ridiculous. After a minute of walking, he slowed to Eve’s side and shot her a smile, “Sorry. I’ve never been great with words, and I guess I’m a little nervous.” He shrugged, as if that was the most logical way to end that thought.

It hit him when he looked back at Eve that she wasn’t really dressed for this. Maybe this was a bad idea. Still, they wouldn’t have to go too far out to find a good spot for stargazing, and he realized they wouldn’t need perfect conditions to see them more clearly, so for a bit he focused on finding a good, clear spot. “Do you have any siblings?” He asked, trying to make some idle conversation as they walked, “I’ve just got my sister. You’ve heard of her: the cool twin.” He wanted to fill the silence, but he also liked hearing Evelina speak. He found something about her so charming, but he wouldn’t have been able to explain it if he tried.

It wasn’t too much longer before he found a decent spot, and he took off his jacket and set it on the ground- in case the grass was wet- before gesturing for Eve to sit on it. He sat in the grass, himself, (it was a little wet) and leaned back, using his hands to prop him up. He looked up into the stars for a moment before turning to look at Evelina, and decided to give her a moment to just look before pointing anything out. When he did, he reached out to gesture, “You see that star? It’s okay if you don’t, it’s not the brightest,” He leaned in close, as if imparting some big secret, “That’s polaris, the north star.” He traced along the stars nearest to it, “It’s part of ursa minor, and just above it is ursa major, which is actually probably easier to see. They’re always visible, which makes them reliably easy to find.” He scooted his free hand behind Eve, so he could more easily lean in to talk to her while he pointed out the constellations and major stars he could find. “Let me see if I can find any of the seasonal ones.”

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When Eve asked about the big dipper, Jeffrey smiled softly. “Well, ursa major is the big dipper.” He spoke gently, not wanting to embarrass Evelina for not knowing something. “The north star is part of ursa minor- the little dipper- but ur- the big dipper’s stars are brighter, so it’s easier to find, and it’s kind of, uh, a landmark for finding the north star.” Eve quickly changed topics to ask about Pisces, and Jeff slightly grimaced, ”It’s kind of late in the season to see it. It might not be visible tonight.” He still looked, though, because there was a chance it would be visible, though he doubted even his own ability to find it.

Eve was in luck, though, because Jeff was able to find (most) of Pisces, dim as the stars were. There were several other constellations still visible, and Jeff pointed out as many as he could, and they were just able to catch Venus before it set, too.

It was probably the most relaxed first-date experience he’d ever had; laying in the grass stargazing, some casual cuddling going on. It was nice, and a nice change from all the awkward fumbling he’d done earlier in the evening. He didn’t know what he was expecting when Evelina said his name, but a kiss certainly wasn’t it. He smiled when she checked if that was okay. ”Yeah,” He said, voice barely above a whisper. Then their lips were together again, and Jeffrey had no complaints.

The kissing was slow, explorative. It was like getting to know someone, in a way. At first, he wasn’t entirely sure what to do with his hands. What would she be okay with? He let them explore a little- nothing too risque- hands on her waist, the small of her back, settled on her ass for a minute. He’d spent enough time staring at it earlier, may as well cop a feel while he had a chance.

It wasn’t long before they were both pulling away, ”It’s starting to get late, we should probably get back.” Jeffrey stood up and offered a hand to Eve to help her up. He grabbed his jacket off the ground and shook it out before draping it over Evelina’s shoulders.

The walk back to the station felt longer than the walk from it, but Jeffrey chalked it up to the hour. It was late, they were getting tired.

As they’d agreed earlier, Jeffrey bought the return tickets, and before long they were settled on the subway train. One minute, Jeffrey was smiling at Eve, saying something about how he was glad they’d decided to come out and see the stars, and the next she’d fallen asleep on his shoulder. He didn’t want to be that creepy guy that stares at you while you sleep, but she was pretty cute.

By the time Evelina woke up, they’d missed her stop. Jeffrey understood the frustration there, and it was late, and he figured she wouldn’t want to walk alone late at night. ”I could walk you home,” He cleared his throat, ”That is, if you don’t mind. You know, it’s just getting late, and you know how it can be in the city at night and-” He made himself stop, ”And I think I’d feel better about it, you know, if I knew for sure you made it okay.”

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Jeff didn’t mind that Evelina had fallen asleep on him. Truthfully, it was cute, so he just shrugged when she apologized, as if that would say, ”No, it’s no big deal. You’re really cute when you sleep. You hardly even drooled on me,” without having to use as many words.

Jeffrey had been a bit worried that Eve wouldn’t let him walk her home, but he was relieved when she accepted the offer. There was something, in the back of his mind, that knew he’d feel guilty if he let her walk alone and something happened.

The walk was filled with inconsequential smalltalk, jokes, and a healthy amount of laughter. Jeff was very obviously a lot more comfortable now, though that didn’t mean he wasn’t still awkward, or that he was somehow less clumsy with his words. He hoped Eve didn’t mind it too much- she had said she didn’t, but he’d met plenty of people who said they didn’t mind his awkwardness just to be polite.

Eve announced that they’d made it to her complex, and there was a part of Jeff that felt sad that the night was going to end. But Eve said she’d had a great time, and Jeffrey grinned, ”Yeah, me too,” Eve kissed his cheek before he could sputter out any awkward nonsense and, despite how they’d kissed earlier in the evening, Jeffrey felt heat creep across his cheeks. He was happy that, between the dark and his complexion, Eve wouldn’t be able to see the blush that made a home on his face. His mother had told him once that affection grows from little gestures, and maybe that was true. As Eve headed up the stairs and into the complex, he called out, ”I’ll text you later?” It was half a question- is it okay if I text you?- and half a statement, and the moment it left his lips he regretted it, so he quickly followed it with, ”Goodnight!”

He stayed rooted in place until he was sure that Eve was safely inside, and then began his own journey home. He was dead tired, and after walking for a few minutes, decided that calling a car was his best bet. He got the text from Eve on the way. He hadn’t thought to ask for his jacket back when they got to Eve’s apartment building. Would that have been rude?

He went into his contacts and changed her contact name to, well, her name, and added the selfie in as her picture, so her face would be at the top of the screen when he texted her. Only then did he text back.

xxEvelina
No worries. It looks better on you anyway. :)

As he got back to his apartment, Anne was asleep on the couch, with some sort of reality show playing in the background. Jeff decided to be quiet and leave her alone. She might be mad that he didn’t wake her so she could sleep in her bed, but she’d probably be angrier if he woke her up. Honestly, he never knew what to expect from her. So he went to bed, and absently wondered when he’d get to see Eve again. He already couldn’t wait.