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Nicky smiled as he followed Lolly back into the party, but something wasn't right. As they walked back in, Nicky couldn't figure it out, but he wasn't feeling right, at least to him. They met up with Jason and Ria, Ria shot Lolly a knowing glance...Jason evidently couldn't have cared less. They exchanged small talk for awhile, Ria seemed to be really giggly and Nicky put two and two together and figured out what had happened, at least somebody was getting action he thought. Ria and Lolly excused themselves to go to the ladies room...which both guys knew was really bad code for "we gotta go talk about what just happened".

Jason was about to ask Nicky what happened with him and Lolly, when Nicky grabbed a bottle from the drink table, "I gotta go...check outside" he mumbled to Jason as he walked off and outside the barn. Some people hide their emotions well enough that you need to really know them to see what's going on...Nicky wasn't one of those people. Jason knew something was up, but Nicky was pissed off and had a glass bottle, so he figured he'd wait a few minutes first before following his friend outside.

Nicky walked outside. There was something he was feeling and he couldn't put a finger on it, and it pissed him off. Growing up with only his dad led to a few differences in his mindset and thinking than maybe some other people would have. Maybe somebody else would have been able to take what happened for what it was, Lolly was a virgin and wasn't ready to make that step yet. But that's not how things processed in Nicky's head. For him, it meant one thing, she didn't like him. To point out the obvious flaw in that thinking really wouldn't have helped Nicky much, the way he was wired, the way his brain worked said that if she really did like him, she'd have gone all the way with him. It wasn't the sex, or no sex, that was driving him to this point though, it was the first time he'd ever let his walls down, the first time he'd ever showed anyone his softer side...and to think that Lolly just didn't care about it hurt him...and Nicky, like Jason, wasn't somebody who responded gracefully to pain, for him, like Jason, the only response to pain was anger, anything less would just be acting soft.

After awhile Jason wandered outside, wishing he had the kevlar vest his dad bought him last year right now cause he knew, like himself, Nicky was never completely unarmed and probably had a knife at very least. "What's your fucking problem?" Jason asked as he found Nicky. The two of them would never have a future in counselling. "Nothing, forget about it...go back to your redhead girlfriend and fuck her brains out" Nicky snapped. "Yeah...as fun as that'd be...uh...you're a horrible liar, at least to me anyway. What happened with Lolly?" Jason asked. "What happened? NOTHING, because all that bull shit about being a nice guy, and acting like yourself...it's fucking bullshit" Nicky snapped, "you know you said bullshit twice, almost back to back right?" Jason countered matter-of-factly. Most people wouldn't feel like joking around with Nicky in this state...but most people weren't Jason either, maybe one of the few people who actually got how Nicky worked. "I mean the boyfriend stuff, sure it works for you, great...but that aint me man" Nicky said. "Well what the fuck happened?" Jason asked, still trying to get the story. "We went out back, everything was going good...then she told me she had never done it before, and wanted to go back to the party" Nicky said, maybe the only person he'd ever admit getting turned down to would be Jason. Jason was stunned at the revelation that Lolly was still a virgin, then he snapped back to the issue at hand. "That's your fucking issue? She said she wasn't ready? Fuck, what are you twelve?" Jason said shaking his head. Nicky just took a sip from the bottle and looked at Jason, "bro, do you know how many times I got shutdown by Ria? Hell I'd go above or below her waist and she'd stop me. It doesn't mean she doesn't like you...are you really that dense, I mean fuck if I get that...it can't be that fucking deep" Jason said almost laughing.

Nicky looked at Jason again, "I looked like a fucking moron to her...I got all soft and she thought I was some fucking pussy" Nicky snapped again. "Well...you ARE a fucking moron, and you're acting like a fucking pussy right now. Honestly man, she says no and you freak out like this?", somewhere in the back of Nicky's head Jason's words were starting to hit home, but he wasn't there yet. "Listen...just don't do anything stupid...or kill anyone out here alright? You're fine man, and trust me, if Lolly didn't like you, she'd have kicked your ass for trying to go that far with her....so just fucking chill...damn" Jason said as he walked back into the party.

He saw Ria and Lolly coming back, still kinda giggling. He looked at Lolly, "hey....uh...Nicky's a great guy, he's just a fucking dumb ass sometimes. Whatever happened between you two or whatever you said....in his world, translated into you telling him you thought he was some pathetic pussy...or something like that" Jason said, he then quickly continued as he saw Lolly's reaction, "Listen...Nicky is really good with one emotion...and sucks at all the rest. He likes you and he thinks he just embarrassed himself in front of you....in HIS mind. He won't listen to me...but maybe if you could go out there and tell him he's being a lunatic...he might listen to you" Jason said. He reminded himself to kick Nicky's ass later...he hated being the middle man in things like this.