Snippet #2300336

"You know for as long as I can remember you do this...torture yourself, blame yourself when it's not your fault. I want to be with you, you want to be with me...but can't...because of that fairy tale Karma shit" Jason said pulling his jeans and shirt on. "You know by comparison, this hurts a hell of a lot more than some fucking shotgun" he said, his emotions were getting to that spot where he wasn't sure what was coming next. "Sorry....I can't keep talking about this....I'll see you later, call me if you change your mind" Jason said walking out the door. He couldn't think straight, he wanted Lolly, she wanted him...but they weren't together, Jason hopped onto his bike and took off, not sure where he was going, but he just had to go somewhere.

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Jason ended up in the one place he seemed to go to when he needed to get away, the clubhouse garage. He'd been working on his bike for awhile when Nicky walked into the garage. "Hey, how's it going?" Nicky asked walking in. Jason didn't reply, there was only one person he'd have any interest in talking too...but he was pretty sure he wouldn't like the conversation. "I heard about getting the patch, that's a pretty sweet deal...although I guess you were always going to be the first one out of all of us" Nicky said. Jason stopped and looked at Nicky, "unless you want another wrench upside the head fuck off and leave me alone" Jason snapped. "Hey take it easy bro...I'm just coming to see what's up?" Nicky said. Jason was seeing red, he couldn't get angry at Lolly, it just didn't work that way...but because of everything at the barn, he and Lolly couldn't be together, at least that's how his mind read it. The unfortunate thing for Nicky is that Jason's mind was desperately searching for a target to focus his anger on and Nicky was in danger of becoming the lucky target. "Bro huh? Cause you couldn't fucking pull the trigger now everything is fucked up" Jason snapped. "What the hell are you talking about?" Nicky said confused. "Cause you didn't have the balls to finish the deal with Lolly, she's all fucking conflicted about what happened with me and her" Jason said angrily. "Sorry, I didn't know I had to leave EVERY girl alone, see you were pretty tight with Ria and all" Nicky snapped back, "Maybe if you could have kept it in your pants instead of cheating on your girlfriend like some fucking loser of an asshole..." and that's all Jason needed.

Deacon and Jimmy had been sharing a beer in the lounge when they heard banging and crashing coming from the garage. They ran into the garage and saw Jason and Nicky at each others throat. "Well...ya think if we let em keep going they'll beat the stupidity out of each other?" Jimmy quipped, "they'd have to kill each other for that brother" Deke said as the two men rushed over to the boys. Deacon grabbed Jason and pulled him away as Jimmy grabbed Nicky and yanked him back. "Cool it dumbass!" Jimmy snapped at Nicky, Jason tried lunging past his dad who slapped him upside the head "calm the fuck down!" Deke snapped at Jason. Finally both boys were just glaring at each other, Jimmy grinned "besides if we let you keep fighting like two fags what would people think?" Jimmy said laughing. "Fuck it...I got other places to be" Nicky said walking out the door, he started realizing the pain in his jaw, and realized he had been cut in a few places as well. Jimmy walked out as Deacon looked at Jason, "I don't know what this shit was all about...but you best sort it out before you kill somebody" and with that he walked out of the garage.

Jason just sat there by himself thinking....he then kicked a spare gas tank across the garage, this thing with Lolly was affecting him more than he'd ever thought it would.