“This was the truth at the core of my existence: this yawning emptiness, scantily clad in rage. It had been there all along.”
The last few days passed in a blur for Haruka, when she first woke up in the infirmary, she refused to talk to anyone, it didn't help when the Headmaster came to her and told her that neither of the bodies could be identify, it didn't help at all. She spent the last few days in the infirmary, not sleeping, not eating, and barely talking. In fact the only people she would talk to were Zenith and Asuka, but neither came to visit her, so she stayed alone. After two days the Headmaster told her she could go out and walk around if she wished, so she could get away from the pestering school Doctors for a short time, but they hadn't judge her mentally fit to go back to classes yet, and Haru didn't mind, she didn't want to go back just yet, she would rather be alone for now.
Part of her wanted to get better, to believe that those people hadn't been her parents, that she shouldn't feel as hurt over this as she did, but Haruka blocked that part of herself out and locked herself into an empty shell. The doctors couldn't send her home, because she had no home, she was completely alone and when she left this school she would be homeless too. Today was the first day she took the Headmaster on his offer to allow her to walk around. She was dressed in normal clothes instead of her uniform, she wasn't going to classes and was told not to bother wearing it while she was 'mentally ill' instead she wore a pair of jeans, a long sleeve white shirt, a gray jacket and a pair of her old snow boots. It was too cold to wear anything else at the moment. Her long red hair was left down, through like the rest of her, it looked lifeless, she looked lifeless. Her skin was paler than normal, and dark circles lay under her eyes, showing her lack of sleep to the world.
She silently walked down the hallways that were nearly empty, her eyes taking in everything around her and yet nothing at the same time. It was nice to just walk around, it was more peaceful than going to classes or sitting alone in a room all day. She turned a corner and nearly ran into someones back, however she stopped just in time to avoid collision. Slowly Haruka looked up, her blue eyes meeting the form of Zenith and the girl that appeared to be his sister. Her face was an empty mask as she gazed at the two for a moment before carefully walking around them both. "Sorry..." Her voice now sounded as empty and lifeless as her eyes looked, and the mere sound of it made her cringe inside.
Haruka stopped once more, standing a few feet away from the prefects, Asuka and Sora. She smiled tightly at the other girl and tried to sound more alive as she addressed her, but there was no point. "Asuka...thank you..." She looked down at the ground, flashes of the corpses playing in her mind over and over again like the rewind button had gotten stuck. She wanted to ask the other girl if she was okay, since it had to be a horrible experience for her as well, and it was Haruka's fault, she had let the Prefect trail along, she hoped it hadn't had the same effect on Asuka as it had on her. Haruka would have asked her if everything was okay now, but she didn't trust her own voice.