Keirin listened to Eris as she explained what had happened to her in the past and how disappointed she was in him. He felt like a horrible person, but it wasn't a feeling he wasn't used to. This time was different though. It actually felt like this emotion was physically hurting him. His head felt light and his body felt heavy. His heart hurt and as he looked as Eris, he felt that she was viewing him as pathetic. He believed what she said to be true. He was sure that she felt horrible for burning down half her village, probably killing tons of people. The thing that hurt the most though was when she had politely excused herself after telling him off.
He watched as Asad stumbled onto the deck, from what Keirin figured, he was drunk. He was holding a gourd and when Jin walked over and took a swig, he knew that they were drunk. He didn't even look at them, partly because he was ashamed of himself.
Keirin sighed. He realized it would have been better if he said nothing because he was now being viewed as a bad person. He just sat as he tried to calm down. Besides the fact that the Eris girl had just told him her life story, he didn't want to talk about his. He may have lived a happier life, but he didn't care. His morals were his morals, and Eris' morals were Eris' morals. That's just how the world was. One person will never have the same view of life because no two people are the same. His most recent master had taught him that. Keirin decided that he should apologize for the way he had spoken to everyone. It was extremely rude and uncalled for. He wanted to be viewed as the mature person, but it was obvious he was not.
Keirin slowly stood up. He walked over Xue and stopped. He had no idea what to say. Then something quietly escaped his mouth. "I'm... Sorry." He was surprised that the words escaped his mouth. He started to panic. People are going to view me as a weak person. I can't have that. I have to keep the mature image in order to continue with this mission. Without realizing it, he had jumped into the air about fifty feet. He then sat on one of the masts up above everyone else where he couldn't hear them. He sat there and closed his eyes as he mentally scolded himself about what he said. But... Did I really mean that? I really don't trust her... Why did I say that? He clenched his hands into fists and wanted to hit himself. He then unclenched them and told himself that if they wanted an explanation that he would tell them when they got off the boat. He would have to explain his actions to Avatar Kasumi though, which worried him because he may be viewed as weak in her eyes for conceding to Xue. He just took deep breaths and sat there on the mast, thinking how he might handle the situation later.