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Her and Collin grinded for a while and for once it actually felt good that he was treating her like his girlfriend instead of his sex toy. She knew it was only temporary, but she’d been so heartbroken over Donnie for the last month that it felt good to actually feel wanted. One of Collin’s hands was up her dress rubbing her roughly while his other hand was fisted tightly in her hair kissing her hard, letting everyone around them know that she was his and it made her crazy the way he kissed her, but it was no comparison to the way she felt when Don kissed her.

“Think I can get the keys from Peterson, we can fuck on the roof.” Tansy smirk and Collin raised a brow. They both knew what she meant by that. She’d seduce him, fuck him, and get the keys. It was a bad idea considering he wasn’t the only teacher.

“I hear he keeps a shit ton of booze in his desk. Work your magic baby. Get those keys and will cause some real trouble.” Collin smirked kissing her hard, before Tansy slipped away. She was honestly surprised that he’d said yes, then again it wasn’t like he had any real competition when it came to Peterson, he wasn’t as good in bed as all the female student body like to think Tansy knew that first hand.

It took only a small amount of work to talk Darren Peterson, her freshman English teacher into the janitor’s closet. They fucked for a total of fifteen lousy minuets, before she’d blackmailed him into giving her the keys. They snorted a few lines together, before she slipped out of the closet walking back towards the dance as she adjust her dress and managed to nearly run into Donnie and Lauren. Her eyes locked with Donnie instantly with Lauren. Her teachers key’s in one hand as he passed the three of them adjusting himself and making it perfectly clear what they’d just done.

Tansy wanted to run, she didn’t want to deal with Donnie’s disappointed glare or Lauren’s triumphantly arrogant smirk that she’ ended up with Donnie. However thanks to her recent sex session and drug intake with her teacher she was feeling rather confident and instead of just walking away, she turned to her cold, bitter, bitchy self in a matter of seconds, wicked smirk on her perfectly glossed lips. Aside from the nasty bruise on the inside of her elbow, Tansy had a scary confidence about her that she’d only ever had before her and Collin had been together.

“I always knew you liked my sloppy seconds Lo.” Tansy said turning her gaze to a girl that used to be just as close to her as Candie. “How does it feel being second best…I wouldn’t know.” Tansy winked before turning back to Donnie but before she had the chance to speak Lauren spoke up.

“You’re just jealous Tansy! You ruin everything.” Lauren’s voice was a weak yell and the pain in made Tansy feel bad although she’d never admit it. Tansy laughed darkly.

“Jealous of what sweetheart?” Tansy shrugged as she pulled a cigarette out of her bra and lit it. “I’ve already had him, besides I have nothing to be jealous of. He’s still in love with me and he’s miserable with you.” She said cruelly. “Isn’t that right Tae?” she said flicking her eyes to him a dark smirk on her lips like she didn’t give a shit that she was totally destroying Lauren and she knew it would piss off Donnie, because he’d always been the one standing up for them or taking care of them when they were at their worst. Being with Collin turned her pure evil and even if she wanted to feel bad, it was like she couldn’t. She loved pissing people off.

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Lux and Lea managed to make their way inside and he was already ready to leave the second they step inside because he was dreading seeing anyone, especially Kaleb. He had gone from practically being inseparable with Kaleb, to completely hating his guts. He was honestly scared that if he stayed as high as he was at the moment and he saw Kaleb and Canide he’d beat the shit out of Kaleb. He hadn’t done it that night when he’d caught the two of them together and the anger had been building up in him for the past month.

Instead of going to dance like every other couple, him and Lea sat towards the back of the gym at one of the tables. His eyes were focused on his hands in front of him. All he wanted to do was shoot up. His addiction had gone progressively worse, if that was even possible. It had gone so bad, that he couldn’t go more than an hour without putting something in his system.

“Damn baby, your lookin fine as hell.” Collin’s voice came from the seat next to Lea and Lux’s fists clenched out of habit. It didn’t matter that he knew Collin wouldn’t touch Lea, he wasn’t that stupid, but it still irritated the fuck out of him. “Why don’t you go grab us something to drink.” he told Lea only it wasn’t an option he was ordering her.

“Fuck that Collin, get the hell out of here.” She spat and Reed rolled his eyes. “You know he’s trying to get clean.” She glared at Collin, at least that’s what Reed had been telling her he was nowhere near trying to get clean.

“I’ll be fine babe. I think I can handle myself.” Lux glanced up to her with a smirk kissing her lips and she sighed nodding knowing that was her cue to leave them alone for the moment and she got up heading over to the drink table. Collin waited till she was out of ear shot before he handed Lux a bag of coke and Lux handed him the money. “Don’t bring it up in front of my girl again.” He threatened Collin. “She’s not Tansy…you can’t just order her around.” Reed spat and Collin raised a brow. It was clear that there was tension between everyone in the group for a multitude of reasons.

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Donnie scoffed and she honestly thought maybe he would beg for her to come back and if he did, she wasn’t exactly sure what she’d do she just hoped she was high enough to ignore the heat between them, she doubted that though, because being high seemed to intensify the electric feel between them like it was in that moment and she found herself wanting so badly to kiss him. She wanted to take back everything she’d said. More than anything though she couldn’t fight the jealous ping of energy that ran through her when Donnie wrapped his arm around Lauren’s waist and pulled her close like he was completely over her and him and Lauren were happy together.

It was the worst feeling in the world. Her entire body ached and she could feel her heart break, because every cruel thing Collin had said about Donnie felt true in that moment and it killed her that she wasn’t the one he was fighting for anymore, she’d really fucked up this time and there was absolutely nothing she could do. Tansy hated not having people bending at her will, it was frustrating and Donnie knew exactly what to say to piss her off.

"You're full of shit Tansy." he held her eyes and she forced herself to hold his as he shrugged like there’d never been anything between them but sex and her jaw clenched. "How's life going with Collin? Any trips to the hospital lately?" his smirk was dark and his words were cruel, she’d thought with all the drugs in her system she could take his comments, however she was wrong. Had they been from anyone else she wouldn’t have cared, but somehow his words were as painful as if he’d literally stabbed her in the heart with a knife. She hated that he was using the night Collin had nearly killed her against her.

However, Tansy didn’t falter. It wasn’t in her nature to fall apart in front of people no matter how badly they hurt her. However it was clear in her eyes the pain she was feeling, how badly his words had hurt her and she made sure to hold his gaze and let him see it, not that she didn’t deserve it. She honestly deserved Donnie at his worse for what she’d done to him. She took a drag off her cigarette, before dropping it to the floor and stomping it out with her heel.

“Yeah, guess I’ve always been full of shit.” She said calmly holding his eyes, shrugging, ignoring his comment about Collin and the hospital, because she was scared she’d really fall apart if she talked about it. “You use to like that.” She breathed, wicked smirk on her lips, she took a step forward, close enough that all she had to do was lean up on her toes and their lips would be touching and she could feel that tension between the three of them, it was suffocating and thick enough to cut with a knife. She knew Donnie was on the verge of giving in, because it was taking everything in her to hold back, the heat was unmistakable.

“If you kiss him here…” Tansy trailed off pressing her lips to the corner of his jaw and letting them linger there for a second to long, before pulling away. “It really gets him off.” She smirked like she was giving Lauren a lesson on how to fuck Donnie, she took a step away. “Have fun with suicide Barbie.” She taunted before walking past him quickly because she was ten seconds from begging him to take her back.

She turned the corner quickly before ducking into the bathroom and thankfully she didn’t see anyone in there. She let out a frustrated noise, throwing the keys hard into the wall. “Shit, Tans.” Baylee’s gasped and Tansy jumped when she saw her friend sitting on the floor, the keys having landed right next to her, massacre trails running down her face and Tansy went and sat next to her. They’d talked for a few moments, but it was clear that both of them were really fucking high and before Tansy knew it the two of them were making-out pretty intensely.

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Lux and Collin had gone out the back door, behind the school and they’d both shot up. They’d talked shit on nearly everyone in the group before they’d snorted some coke. Reed had, had one of his violent coughing attacks, coughing up a dangerous amount of blood and when Collin asked questions he evaded them quickly. By the time Lea had found him and Collin they were dangerously fucked up and Lux’s temper was on the rise all it would take was saying the wrong thing to set him off and Lea had done just that. She nagged him about getting fucked up and about his medication and he’d slapped her hard enough it’d made her stumble backwards, before tripping and falling.

He’d gotten agitated and ripped her up by her arm from the ground. Collin only smirked at his violence. Eventually him, a puffy eyed Lea, and Collin had gone back inside only. It was then that Reed saw Kaleb and Candie together and his entire body tensed. His fists were clenched so tightly, his knuckles had started to turn white. Lux had started after them with every intent to put Kaleb in the hospital only Collin had enough sense to stop him.

It killed Lux, there was absolutely no word to describe how much he hated Kaleb and how badly he missed Candie. He was going out of his mind, the fact that even if he fought for her, she’d never really be his or the fact that he’d fucked up so badly that his girlfriend might be pregnant all of it was building up inside of him, making it dangerous for whoever he snapped on, which would more than likely be Lea.

“I want to talk to her.” Reed said his eyes on her. “I wanna know what the fuck he’s got that I don’t.” he spat.

“Baby, let’s just go home.” Lea begged him and the fear that she might lose him to his ex was clear in her voice. “Come on, we can go get high at home and fuck the rest of the night.” She continued to beg tugging on his arm like a little girl.

He ripped his arm away harshly. “I. Said. I. Just. Want to talk.” He repeated letting her know it wasn’t up for debate. He turned to Collin then, paying him off a shit tone of money to distract Kaleb, he watched Collin head over to Kaleb and interrupt Candie and Kaleb, before he turned back to Lea. “Don’t worry baby, you know your my number one.” He said almost mockingly, before kissing her hard, but the kiss was empty.

He left her there and headed towards Candie. He grabbed her wrist roughly and pulled her through the crowed of grinding bodies holding onto her wrist tightly so she couldn’t slip away, before they slipped out into the hallway alone and he smirked as he tossed her into the lockers roughly, despite the fact they were in the middle of the hallway and anyone could see them.

“Not even a fucking explanation!” He yelled, his voice rough, almost raw. “Jesus Candie, I at least expected you to beg for my forgiveness. To fight for us, not just give up.” He scoffed. “Oh but that’s right, I forgot you don’t give a flying fuck about anyone else’s feeling but your own!” He spat slamming his fist into the locker centimeters from her head, denting the lockers and making it very clear that if he wanted to he could hurt her, because he was nowhere close to the love sick puppy he’d been only a month ago. He was fed up of her fucking games and the way everything had ended.

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After a good few minuet’s Tansy pulled away realizing for the first time that unlike her Baylee was kissing her with more emotion then just an empty kiss. “Oh God, Baylee.” She breathed and Baylee looked away like she was going to cry again and Tansy sighed. “Babe, you can’t hide forever.” She said looking over her friend and Baylee shook her head like she couldn’t accept it. “You should be out there dancing…go.” Tansy smiled and Baylee sighed not arguing. Baylee had never been one to argue with Tansy or Candie, whatever they said was law to her.

Tansy was finally alone and she traced her lips with her fingers, because despite her intense make-out session with Baylee, they were still tingling from Donnie’s skin being on her lips and she desperately wanted to feel that again. She wished she’d never meet Collin, she wished it had been Donnie all along, she wished that Don had been the one that broke her heart and the one that she couldn’t say no to. It killed her to think that he might actually be over her and happy with Lauren.

Lauren didn’t know Dontae not like she did. She didn’t know that he enjoyed listening to classic rock or that he actually hated crowds of people. She didn’t know that look in his eyes that made butterflies kick in Tansy stomach, because he looked at her like she was his life, like he couldn’t live without her. Lauren didn’t know where to touch him to drive him crazy or what to say to piss him off. The thought of that made her hate herself, because until that moment that she’d actually let all those thoughts creep into her mind, she didn’t realize how much she actually needed Donnie and she hated that even if she had the chance to talk to him alone, she couldn’t tell him she loved him and actually look him in the eyes because she was to stubborn.

She lit herself a cigarette and took a drag off of it, just as the bathroom door opened up and she raised a brow seeing Donnie. She hated that he was there as much as she loved that he’d chased after her, so they could fight and then fuck and probably get back together it wasn’t fair to Lauren and she’d already fucked her friends over enough, she refused to do it again.

“Go away, I don’t want to talk to you. So get the hell out of here. “ she sighed breathing out a breath of smoke as she picked the sequence beads off her dress. “Collin will be back any minuet.” She lied hoping that would piss him off enough he’d just leave.

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"Fuck off Reed!" She screamed shoving him away and it took everything in him not to slap her across the face as she burned holes into him with her glare. "You don't get to be pissed at me. You dumped me." she spat bitterly and he rolled his eyes, like she’d been the one who’d caught him cheating on her that night. "I begged you not to that night, but you drove off anyway. It's your own damn fault if you miss me now." she spat angry at him as she lit a cigarette.

She was driving him crazy somehow she’s managed to turn the events of that entire night around on him, like everything was his fucking fault and he hadn’t tried hard enough and that pissed him off. He was scared that he’d really hurt her, if his temper got bad enough he was liable to kill her. His temper had gotten so out of hand lately, he almost didn’t trust himself to be around her and he was starting to think that talking to her at all was a bad idea.


"I'm not yours anymore, I don't have to answer to you so why don't you get back to your blond slut Lea," his jaw clenched and it wasn’t hard for him to put two and two together. She’d been with Demetri, because aside from Collin he was the only one who knew about Lea and that made his blood boil. “and I'll get back to Kaleb." she said slipping back down the hall like he’d really just let her go and they’d settled everything.

He made his way after her quickly, grabbing both her arms and yanking her close, so her back was against his chest and he held her arms so tightly that if she tried to move she was liable to break something. He’d snapped, her words, the drugs in his system, all the built up stress, and the fact that she’d blamed him was too much.

“You’re a vindictive fucking bitch.” He spat harshly, his words full of hatred. He slammed her body into one of the lockers, shoving her face into the cold metal. “You fucked my best friend. What did you expect me to do, forgive you? Let it go?” he scoffed, spinning her to face him, keeping her back pinned to the lockers he grabbed a hold of her jaw roughly forcing her to look at him. “I don’t think you fucking understand how much I love you Candie, I gave up everything for us!” He spat, pain clear in his voice. “I’ve done everything to please your ungrateful ass. Worked my ass off to get you out of your house, fed your drug addiction, put up with you fucking Demetri while I’m at work.” He shook his head tightening his grip on her. “You didn’t exactly hide that one well babe.” He hissed, his face centimeters from hers a dark look in his eyes. “And, don’t you dare talk about her like that. She treats me better then you ever did princess, but you know what’s fucked…I treat her the way you treated me because I can’t get over you.” He breathed taking a step away from her. “You’re right why don’t you just get back to Kaleb after all he’s the one who really loves you right?” he shrugged, feeling light headed and sick all of a sudden, and he didn’t want Candie to see him like that.

He turned away from her then leaving her there, and making his way towards one of the exits quickly, he was fairly certain that he was either going to pass out or cough up another unhealthy amount of blood and as far as Candie was concerned he was perfectly heathy.

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She hoped he’d just go away and leave her there. She didn’t deserve him at the very least she deserved to get the shit beat out of her, he had every right to hate her. She’d picked Collin over him, when Donnie was clearly a million times better. It was just easier to fall back into something that she’d been so comfortable in for so long, then start something new, because she was scared of what would happen if she actually let herself love him completely.

She hadn’t realized that he’d locked the door, until he yanked her up roughly from the ground and pinned her against the wall and her eyes glanced to the door and sure enough it was locked she knew Donnie all too well. It was silent between them for an agonizingly long moment as his eyes burned into hers, she wanted to look away because the pain in his eyes was killing her. She thought for sure he was going to yell at her or slap her, she knew when he was sober and when he was fucked up just by the way he touched her and he was really fucked up.

She held her breath, before he pressed his lips to hers kissing her hard. She all of a sudden felt completely alive again, like the fire had been lit again and the emptiness she’d felt for the past month was finally filled again. Kissing him was incredible, she could spend forever kissing him and even as she told herself to fight back as his grip tightened on her, she couldn’t help but relax into the kiss, her knees weak and if he wasn’t holding her so tightly they just might give out on her. She moaned deeply into the kiss hating the effect that he had on her and as he pulled away she tried to figure out a way to lie to him.

"Don't pretend you don't still love me Tansy." she could smell the alcohol on his breath and the taste of his lips was still fresh. She’d use that she thought. "You miss me, admit it." he said with a smirk that drove her insane and kind of pissed her off. She shoved him away but her efforts were weaker then she needed them to be because she was still weak from his kiss.

“Your drunk.” She smirked holding his eyes because she wanted to be mad at him and she wanted to run from them but she couldn’t bring herself to move because he was right, she desperately missed him, she needed him the way you needed air and it was killing her to be away from him. “You have a girlfriend Tae.” She breathed holding his eyes, it was a weak argument, because all she was thinking about was his lips on hers again and the way his touch burned her skin. “I should go.” She said quickly slipping past him however she hesitated at the door and she knew she shouldn’t have.

She turned back to him then and spun him to face her backing him up against the sink, she grabbed his suite jacket and pulled it off tossing it away with a wicked smirk on her lips. She undid his belt quickly, before slipping her hands past his pants. She leaned up on her tip toes kissing him hard while rubbing him roughly between his legs. Her lips moved along his jaw, kissing him in all the right places, that Lauren wished she knew.

“This is a one-time thing. You’ve got Lo now Don…you’re not going to fuck that up for yourself.” She breathed against his skin like she knew Lauren was better for him then she was.

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He knew Candie well enough to know she’d probably chase after him and start screaming, but he really hoped she’d didn’t because if she did he was liable to really hurt her, because not only was he high but he was agitated and feeling sick. She called after him but he didn’t stop not till she caught his arm and as she did Kaleb’s voice called her name and he was about to pull away, only before he had the chance she pulled him into a dark empty classroom.

"I'm sorry." she spat and although it was bitter, he could her sincerity in her voice. He couldn’t see her eyes but he could feel them on him and it was hard not to reach out and pull her into his arms and kiss her and forgive her for everything. He felt worthless without her and he hated that he needed her so damn much. "You're right, I'm a bitch so I think it's time we both moved the fuck on okay?" she spat and he winced, because he knew she got that from plenty of other people she didn’t need it from him and he knew why she was so screwed up. “Because you can slap me around all you want, it's not going to change a damn thing. We'll still be too fucked up to function."

It was quite for a long time and he had to lean against the teacher’s desk because he felt light headed. He suddenly wished he had listened to Lea and taken his fucking medicine. He sighed as he pulled a pack of cigarettes from inside his suite jacket, pocket and lit one taking a drag from it.

“I don’t think you understand, I can’t move on Candie.” He breathed out a breath of smoke. “You might be able to, but I can’t.” he sighed running his fingers through his hair. He wasn’t entirely sure what to do with her, she was right about one thing, they’d always be fucked up when they were together. He knew he should just walk away, but he knew he couldn’t do it, not again, she’d have to be the one to walk away this time. “Your all I think about. Your fucking perfect and I can’t get over that.” The pain was raw in his voice and he coughed, hoping he wouldn’t have another attack, but he managed to control it for the moment.

He put his cigarette out on his desk and took a step towards her, their bodies were nearly touching . He wrapped an arm around her waist and placed a hand on the back of her neck, tilting her neck up before pressing his lips to hers all in one fluid motion. He kissed her roughly, but still the kiss told her everything that he couldn’t put into words. There was no emptiness and no lies when he kissed her. He wasn’t holding her tight, because if she wanted to pull away he’d let her, because he didn’t want to kiss her if she didn’t want to kiss him.

“Tell me it’s over.” He breathed against her lips, his voice was quite. “And it’s over.” He said like for the past month they’d only been in a fight and all she had to do was say the words and they’d be together again. But, if she really didn’t want to be with him, he wanted to hear her say it, he wanted it to finally be over.

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Tansy knew better, she knew that it wasn’t a onetime thing, her and Donnie could never be a onetime thing. The thing was with Tansy was that if she thought you were worth dating for an extended period of time, then there would always be something about you that she couldn’t shake she’d always go back to you because she was weak to guys she actually wasted time on. Tansy had really only ever dated two guys in her entire life, Donnie and Collin. Every other guy she’d been with had been a meaningless hook up.

He placed a and on the back of her neck, making her shiver because there was a small part of her that was terrified he might reject her. He hadn’t though and as he kissed her harder she moaned against his lips despite herself. He slipped his tongue past her lips making her smirk, because there was a taste of entitlement in his kiss and she loved when he was in control. He spun her swiftly so her back was facing him and even then she knew she should stop what was about to happen. If Collin found out, there was no doubt he’d try and get rid of Donnie once and for all, but his touch was hypnotizing and when he was touching her, she couldn’t bring herself to stop it, even if his life was on the line. His lips moved along her neck and there was no way she was pushing him away now. He started unzipping her dress and a wicked smirk came across her lips.

"No it's not." He smirked against her skin making her shiver before he spun her back to face him and she held his eyes looking up at him and she couldn’t bring herself to look away, there was something about him that was completely intoxicating and even more terrifying then Collin and she assumed it was the simple fact that if she really let herself love him, she’d fall hard. [b]"You know that as well as I do. If we do this, we'll both be hooked again." He shrugged and she raised a brow.

She was about to open her mouth and shoot back something sarcastic until his hand wrapped around her throat and she bit her lip. His other hand slipping past her panties rubbing her hard between the legs, his touch took her breath away and her head rolled back. She closed her eyes letting out a deep moan. His touch made her higher than the drugs Collin had given her, he set her entire body on fire and made her want more. His touch made her desperate enough in that moment that if he asked her to beg she would without hesitation. She’d missed him more then she’d like to admit.

When she managed to get to get enough control over her feelings she unbuttoned his shirt and slid it off his shoulders tossing it away, she kissed him hard backing him up against the wall as she worked to undone his belt. It felt good to be bad with him, to feel reckless again instead of feeling like she was someone’s prisoner.

“I guess were going to have to get really good at sneaking around then.” She smirked as she slipped her hands down his pants and her lips traced his jawline. She was making it perfectly clear that he wasn’t leaving Lauren and she wasn’t leaving Collin.

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"Reed..." she breathed and he knew her well enough to know he’d already gotten her back and there was a part of him that knew what he’d done was a bad idea, but he needed Candie to much to care. "It won't ever be over, you know that." she whispered and he couldn’t help but smirk.

She kissed him hard, her arms wrapping around his neck and he kissed her back just as hard. It felt incredible to kiss her again and to know that she wasn’t over him. They were all just so fucked up that they couldn’t keep a relationship afloat, but for the moment he had her, even if he lost her an hour from now, it didn’t matter all that matter was for the moment he could touch and kiss her.

Her fingers unbuttoned his shirt and he just wanted her, he could only see her silhouette in the darkness, but that was mixed with her touch was all he needed. She ran her fingers across his skin making him groan, it felt like ages since he’d felt her touch despite it only having been a month.
"You should tell me to leave. I'm no good for you." she moaned against his lips, but he could tell just by the sound of her voice, she didn’t really mean it. She was just as desperate for him as he was for her.

She started to undo his belt as her lips trailed his neck and chest, but before she had a chance he spun her quickly, holding her tightly, completely in control of her. His lips moved along her shoulder blade, before he pulled away and unzipped her dress, slipping it off her. He turned her back to face him, lifting her up onto the desk, before pressing his lips against hers, he fisted her hair kissing her roughly and hard. He was letting her know how much he needed her, yet his kiss was a clear example of how much he changed, because as passionate and needing as it was it was also dangerous and bitter.

His free hand ran up her spine slowly and teasingly, before unclipping her bra and sliding it off without breaking the kiss. Finally he pulled away holding her eyes in the darkness. “I’m even worse for you.” He breathed, honesty lacing his voice, because she hadn’t seen just how dangerous he’d become. “I love you Candace.” He breathed against her lips before slipping his tongue past her lips.

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There was something Tansy did to Donnie and Collin, that made them so completely reckless and unpredictable when they were with her and she couldn’t help but love it. She realized for the first time as Donnie groaned at her touch just how much control she had over him and it made a wicked smirk cross her lips. He made her feel impossibly good and completely wild. She wanted him to fight for her, but she knew he was done fighting, because for some unknown reason she couldn’t let go of Collin and she desperately wished she could in that moment.

He grabbed both her hands and she smirked because she knew what was coming next. She loved how rough he was and it only made her want him that much more. When her and Donnie were fucking they were too completely different people. He pressed her face against the wall, before pressing his body against her making her moan, because it felt good to feel his body against hers. His lips moved along her neck teasingly, lighting that familiar fire through her body and she moaned louder, he was driving her fucking nuts. He slipped her panties off quickly tossing them aside.

“I guess you're right." he breathed into her ear and she could tell by the sound of his voice that he was only saying what she wanted to hear for the moment. Donnie wasn’t going to fight with her, but he also wasn’t going to play games with her and Collin and that scared the shit out of her, she knew she should have stopped it right then and there, because Collin’s threated had played in her head again.

His hand slipped between her legs and she suddenly forgot everything, her breath caught in her lungs and her heart raced. His touch was pure heroin to her, he rubbed her hard as his free hand unclipped her bra and his lips continued to move over her skin. Tansy had almost forgot how incredible his touch was compared to Collin.

They’d fucked for a long time. It was incredibly hot, reckless sex, better than before they’d broken up, because Donnie was pissed at her and the thought of Collin and she was desperate for his touch and that made for kinky make-up session between the two of them. However their make-up session was cut short when Tansy shoved him away, because someone had keys and they were unlocking the bathroom door.

“Shit. Fuck.” She breathed tossing him his jeans because she all of a sudden had a really bad feeling. She managed to get her bra back on and her dress half way zipped up, before Collin and Lauren were standing in the doorway and it was more than obvious what they’d just been doing. Tansy held her breath as her eyes met with Collins, before she flicked her eyes to Lauren who’d already started Crying.

“You fucking said I could trust you!” Lauren practically screamed and the pain in her voice actually made Tansy feel like complete shit, like she’d been the one to seduce Donnie and he’d always belonged to Lauren. Tansy was suddenly glad the music from the gym was so damn loud. “You’re a fucking Whore Tansy, you bitch!” Lauren spat and Tansy had to admit it hurt like hell. “I knew I couldn’t trust you and that’s why I followed you.” Lauren shrugged, glancing to Donnie tears running down her cheeks.

She hadn’t realized that Collin had crossed the room until he’d grabbed her roughly and shoved her up against the wall. “What the fuck did I tell you?” he spat harshly making her wince as his thumb dug into the bruise, she’d forgotten on the inside of her elbow. “Don’t fucking move.” He ordered and Tansy watched as he turned back to Donnie and wasted no time punching him Tansy winced, because there was a loud crack. “You and Your sister are one hell of a team Carmelo.” Collin started.

“Collin please, let’s just go.” Tansy begged, but he simply held a hand up to shut her up before punching Donnie in the stomach. Tansy could tell he was on something and he was more than a little dangerous, not to mention he was more than likely armed.

“Whatever happened to bros before bitches man?” Collin shook his head looking over Donnie. “You were my best friend and now your fucking my girl, come on Dontae, your better than that.” Collin smirked. “Let’ go Tans.” Collin ordered and Tansy hesitated, before she followed after him. “Why don’t you pick up the pieces Lauren.” Collin said cruelly and Lauren listened without hesitation, passing them and heading into the bathroom and Tansy was suddenly terrified of what Collin was going to do to her.

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He smirked as she wrapped her legs around him tightly and pulled his body to hers. She kissed him hard and he wrapped and arm around her waist closing any reaming space between them. He hated that he was pissed at her, yet he couldn’t help but fall for her every damn time he saw her. She was the drug that was slowly killing him, if his heart condition didn’t kill him she sure as hell would.

"I love you too baby." she breathed against his skin as her lips started to move along his jaw and neck, making everywhere her skin touched his electric. She slipped her hands into his pants making him groan and close his eyes. Her touch was like fire and it was driving him completely crazy, he was getting impatient. "Now why don't you show me just how bad you are for me?" she breathed seductively, making him smirk wickedly as he held her eyes in the darkness. She brought her lips back to his and kissed him roughly and he kissed her back just as roughly, fisting his hand in her hair tightly and pressing their lips harder together.

He couldn’t wait any longer and he pulled away from her. He pulled her off the desk, slipping off her panties quickly, before whirling her around and leaning her over the desk, grabbing a handful of her hair and using it to press the side of her face against the desk and pinning her there. He used his free hand to unbutton his pants and slip them off, before he started fucking her roughly. After a long moment he pulled away, using his grip in her hair to spin her back to face him as he sat her back up on the desk and climbed over her.

He grabbed his belt wrapping it around her wrists tightly enough it would more than likely leave bruises. He pulled her hands tightly over her head, he slipped his free hand between her legs rubbing her hard. “You can fuck Kaleb or any other guy all you want babe.” He breathed darkly, his hand coming up from between her legs, sliding up her body, slowly, purposely to drive her.

There was a hesitation in his touch, like any second he’d just stop and leave her there and that’s exactly how he wanted her to feel. He wanted to make her think that they weren’t going to finish. He didn’t stop though, he continued up her body, at an agonizingly slow pace even for him, but never letting her know just how bad he wanted her. He’d gotten better and hiding his emotions ever since they’d broken up. His hand came up around her throat and he tightened his grip enough to make her think he might actually hurt her.

“But, you know you’re always going to be mine.” he said possessively, before pressing his lips to hers hard slipping his tongue past her lips, before they started fucking again.

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He practically dragged her down the halls towards the Exit until Tansy managed to Pull away and create a little distance between them, his eyes were dark and she could tell he was pissed, but she really didn’t give a shit. She was sick of him and she was finally somewhat sober enough to think for herself for once and the thought of Lauren consoling Donnie, the idea of them kissing drove her just about as crazy as Donnie’s touch.

“Were over Collin. Why don’t you get that? It’s been over.” She spat and he raised a brow, like he knew she was sober and he just let out a dark laugh, like she’d said something funny.

“Then why the hell do you keep coming back princess.” He spat, she turned to run from only her dress made it hard to run and he caught up to her quickly shoving her hard against the lockers, stealing the breath from her lungs, when she finally breathed again she let out a pained noise. He held her tightly pinned against the locker as he slipped one hand into her panties, rubbing her hard between the legs, but for the first time ever, she wasn’t into it and she didn’t want him. “I’ll tell you why, because I’m the only one who knows how to get you off.” He smirked, pressing his lips against hers hard, but she only bit his tongue, causing him to pull away and slap her across the face hard.

“Do you see Donnie running after you Tans?” He spat harshly grabbing her jaw and forcing her to look at him and suddenly with those words Collin was back in control, because he was right and Donnie was too good a guy to come after her after having just practically destroyed his current girlfriend. “Neither do I because he doesn’t give a shit.” Collin hissed making her wince. Deep down Tansy knew that wasn’t true, but Collin made her feel like shit and made her believe it was true, because she was already feeling like shit for hurting Lauren, it was how Collin always pulled in, he knew exactly what to say to weaken her.

“Hey, you guys seen Candie?” Kaleb’s voice came from down the hallway and Collin’s grip seemed to loosen on her, because Kaleb was a lot of things, but one thing everyone knew was he’d straight up murder someone who was hurting Tansy, she just didn’t know how he hadn’t caught on to how bad Collin treated her.

“Yeah. Heard some moaning coming from the Johnson’s class room.” Collin smirked wickedly and as if Tansy was invisible, Kaleb had jogged passed the two of them towards the classroom Collin had mentioned. “You see Tans, you’re not the Queen be anymore.” He shrugged. “No one gives a shit about you, except me. So stop fighting me.” He breathed kissing her and she couldn’t help but kiss back because his words hurt and she didn’t know what else to do.

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They’d fucked for a long time all over the room and just like always, they destroyed every they’d touched and completely thrashed the room. Reed was running completely off adrenaline, which was part of the reason he hadn’t passed out from exhaustion or coughed up a lung. However he knew when he came down from Candie’s high he’d be fucked and Candie would probably find out there was a shit ton wrong with him.

At one point she’d practically begged him to stop, but he just pushed her to keep going, because he was still angry with her. He wanted her to remember him when some other guy was fucking her, because he wasn’t stupid he knew she wasn’t going to stay faithful to him, the same way he couldn’t stay faithful to Lea, because every one of them was so messed up that it was pointless to try and fix them. It had turned out to be one of the best make-up sessions they’d ever had and he’d have kept going, but she physically couldn’t and that was when he’d slipped his pants on and shut down all his emotions again.


"Think you can untie me babe?" she asked as he slipped his shirt back on and he glanced to her, running a hand through his hair. "I don't think I can get dressed like this and Kaleb probably has the police looking for me." he scoffed at the mention of Kaleb, he was pissed all over again that she was going to go right back to him.

His jaw clenched and his throat burned, he needed Lea, not because he wanted her, but because he knew she had his medication. It would completely stop him from being sick, but it help him enough. He was trying his best to hide his sickness from everyone around him, because he didn’t want to admit it himself.

“Fucking untie yourself.” He spat bitterly. An older Lux, would have untied her no questions asked, but this wasn’t the old Lux. He grabbed the belt then and pulled it even tighter. His free hand wrapped around her throat tightly, this time its wasn’t for some sick sexual fantasy, this time he really intended to scare her, maybe even really hurt her, because she was pissing him the fuck off, not to mention if he didn’t figure out a way to get his adrenaline back up, he’d be in the hospital again, because adrenaline pumping through his veins kept his sickness at bay, he’d learned that with Lea. “You can’t just play with people Candie, what’s it going to take for you to realize that!” He yelled his eyes trained on hers and his eyes had adjusted enough that he could finally see her expression.

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Once again Collin had cut Tansy down to size, made her think she was worthless and that Donnie didn’t love her. She felt sick as he kissed her, because all she wanted was Donnie, but there were too many things in there way for them to really be together. Sure they could try things again, he could dump Lauren and she could break up with Collin, but something would eventually go wrong and come between them again whether it was the fact that Tansy couldn’t be faithful or Dontae’s temper.

Tansy had to options, she could give into Collin and save herself another possible trip to the hospital or she could fight back and deal with whatever he did to her. Had Tansy been the right kind of drugged, she’d have given in. For the most part Collin kept her on downers to keep her from fighting him. However, she knew he only had uppers on him at the moment and she was still slightly high from what he’d given her and she knew she needed to be a little higher to fight him.

“Your right.” She sighed. “I don’t want to fight, let’s get high and go fuck on the principles desk like we talked about.” She said wrapping her arms around his neck and he seemed to buy her conning.

He slipped a few pills into her mouth, before they started making out again and it only took a few minutes for the drugs to boost her bravery. She used what strength she had to shove him away and he seemed confused, however she seemed just as confused at the purple lipstick marks on his neck that she’d just noticed and she raised a brow.

“Purples not really my color babe.” She gestured to the marks on his neck, with a smirk on her face. “Go fuck yourself.” She spat harshly as she quickly made her way down the hall and he started calling after her, only she ran into a pissed off Donnie and took a few steps back, his body was tense. “Where’s your girlfriend?” she spat harshly the drugs talking for her. “You can’t keep a girl can you Don?” she said cruely before slipping past him and continuing down the hall, knowing that pissing both guys off was probably not her best idea.

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She shoved him away harshly and he debated leaving because his temper was getting out of hand. The thought of her going back to Kaleb was pissing him off and the thought crossed his mind that she was better off if he killed her, because if he couldn’t have her he didn’t want anyone else touching her. The fact that he even thought that darkly about their relationship scared the shit out of him, but his rage was more convincing than his morals.

“Whatever Reed, what the fuck did you expect, you fuck the hell out of me and then we just ride off into the sunset together?" she scoffed pulling him from his thoughts as she search for something. "Don't pretend you weren't going to go back to Lea." she hissed and there was obvious distain when she spoke Lea’s name and that stuck a cord in him, because he hated the way Candie talked about her and she’d never even meet the girl or probably even seen her and there was a small part of Reed that honestly cared about Lea more than he’d like to admit. "I hate to inform you babe, but one good fuck isn't going to solve all our problems."

He watched her for a second as she pulled something out and started to cut the belt that was clearly digging into her skin. He moved quickly wrapping his arms around her from behind and grabbing her hand tightly, stopping her from cutting. He spun her around pinning her against the wall and prying the pocket knife from her hands, while his free hand moved quickly to restrain both her arms over her head. He pressed the knife to the skin, holding her eyes.

“I want to kill.” He breathed dead serious, there was no weaver in his voice, just pain at how obsessed he become with her. “Bury you pretty little body.” He continued, voice dark and low as he pressed the dulled blade of the knife deeper into her skin. “So you can’t fuck me over and maybe I could finally get over you.” He said honestly. “I was going to go back to Lea, because I have no other fucking choice, she’s pregnant.” He shrugged, because he was pretty positive that she was. “You can hate me all you want.” He said simple taking the knife and moving it to the side of her head, like all he had to do was press it into her temple and she’d be dead. “Say any vindictive thing that pretty mind can come up with, but it doesn’t change a damn thing.”

He breathed and it was silent for a long moment before the door flew open and the lights came on and he glanced behind him to Kaleb. “Get your hands off her.” He hissed and Reed rolled his eyes before glancing back to Candie.

“Looks like Prince charming came to save you.” He said smirked wickedly.

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It was easy for Tansy to be a cruel conniving bitch when she took the right drugs, she could piss off anyone, she could fight back a little harder, and feel a little less. Which was why it had been easy to spit venom filled words in Donnie’s direction, despite the fact that back in the bathroom it was her who made advance on Donnie knowing full well how badly she’d hurt Lauren and that she’d only be playing games with Dontae yet again.

Donnie caught up with her, grabbing her and pushing her up against the. His lips came down on hers hard and she kissed him back, because she couldn’t help herself only the kiss wasn’t desperate like it had been back in the bathroom, not it was angry and vengeful. She smirked against her lips because even before he pulled away she knew she’d piss him off and if she didn’t Collin was close behind.

"Done fucking that prick?" Donnie breathed, voice cruel against her lips, jealous staining every ounce of his voice and she merely smirked against his lips as he kissed her harder. "Because I'm free for the rest of the night. Why don't we go get a drink?" he offered with a shrug and she wanted to say yes, but her need to push him was stronger. She shoved him away glancing to the row of lockers on the other side of the hall.

“Not by a long shot. He fucks me hard, you fuck me rough. Why give up when I clearly have the best of both worlds.” She smirked darkly, a hint of honesty in her voice, like she was finally telling him why she couldn’t give up Collin and settle with him, simply because she knew it would drive him crazy.

Slipping him past across the hall to her locker and quickly spinning the combination before opening it and pulling a bottle of whisky, which she happened to know, made Donnie particularly mean. She tossed it to him, not bothering to worry if he’d catch it or not. She hadn’t heard shattering glass so she assumed he’d caught it. She grabbed the change of clothes she kept in her locker, slipping a pair of tight jeans on under her dress, before slipping her dress off and slipping a tight t-shirt that showed off most of her stomach.

“Drink your heart out Tae, but count me out.” She smirked wickedly. Before locking up her locker and gathering her dress shoving it in the nearest trash can before glancing to see Collin coming around the corner. “Why don’t you two kiss and make-up.” She laughed before slipping outside, knowing full well there was no way he wouldn’t chase her down and beat the shit out of her for what she’d just said, that was if Collin didn’t get to her first.

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He could tell by looking at her that Candie was pretty damn close to falling apart and there was a big part of him that wanted to give into his old self and apologize to her, take her home and make it up to her. But, he knew he couldn’t they were both better off if he scared the shit out of her so she’d hate him and she wouldn’t come around. Because him dying was a very big possibility and him being a father was an even bigger possibility.

"Just fucking let me go Reed." Candie breathed sternly, but she wasn’t just teling him to let her go in that moment, she was telling him to let go of them and he couldn’t do that. "You have to go back to Lea. We just have to forget about each other. We can't get back together and I'm not going to be the girl you're fucking on the side." She whispered shrugging and he held her eyes for a long moment, debating what to do.

He could feel Kaleb’s eyes burning into him, finally he stepped ways from her releasing his grip. He yanked the belt from its tight grip on her wrists and tossed it aside, before grabbing her dress and tossing it to her. However he wasn’t exactly letting her go, just letting her get dressed. He turned his attention to Kaleb then.

“If I were you, I suggest you get the fuck out of here.” He said emotionless and the smirk on Kaleb’s face made his jaw and fists clench simultaneously. “Unless of course you want me to beat the fuck out of you for fucking my girlfriend, because that’s long over do.” He said keeping his eyes trained on Kaleb.

Kaleb didn’t more, just kept the arrogant smirk on his lips. Lux watched Kaleb’s eyes glance to Candie behind him as she got dress, before Kaleb’s eyes came back to his. “If I recall, she was never really your girlfriend.” Kaleb shrugged. “I mean she’d been fucking me behind Tansy’s back since before you two started screwing.” He said simply. “Even while you two were a so-called “couple” she just can’t stop coming back.” he said clearly taunting Reed and that was when he lost it.

He crossed the room and him and Kaleb started throwing punch after punch, until Reed was stilling on top of him, Kaleb’s blood all over him. He’d completely lost it, he’d stopped when Kaleb stopped moving.

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Tansy had already decided what she’d do. She would head to a club and find some guy to spend the next week with, getting high and fucked up. Initially she was running like she always did. She heard footsteps behind her and it mad her quicken her pace, because if it was no matter who it was there was a chance she’d be going to the hospital. She felt someone reach out and grab her wrist and she knew it was Donnie, a part of her wished it was Collin, because she would just fold to him and apologize and it would be over. But, there was something about Donnie that always made her fight and not want to just give up.

He spun her around slamming her hard against the wall and her jaw clenched. "You're a bitch." He spat bitterly, his words stung because he meant them, but she kept her expression empty. "You run around fucking up people's lives without a care in the world expect in it not to touch you." he continued and she was about to start yelling at him and shove him away.

Only before she had the chance he slapped her across the face so hard that her head whipped to the side and the sound of the crack of the slap echoed in the silence. She let out a painful whimper. He’d slapped her before, but it had never been as full of hatred and anger as that had been. Her face burned and she could feel her lip swelling. Blood ran down her face from her nose and her lip. She was suddenly terrified of Donnie, but in the same sense it had only fueled her anger. He grabbed her chin forcing her to look at him and she couldn’t hide the tears that rimmed her eyes, but she refused to let them fall.

"You want to play your games with people Tansy?" He hissed, grip tightening on her. "Fine, go ahead, keep fucking with everyone around you." He shrugged. "Just know I'm done with you. The only way to win your petty games is not to play." he said simply and it killed her, she’d ended things between them before, but now hearing him say it made her desperate. "But let me tell you, it's going to hurt like hell when someone finally fucks you over, and when they do, I hope it tears you apart and there's no one left to put your pathetic pieces back together. Maybe then you'll realize you shouldn't have hurt everyone who cares about you." he said cruelly and she was pretty positive what he’d said was a million times worse than anything Collin had ever said or done to her.

He released her then and she stood there frozen not exactly sure whether or not she should go after him. Because she was pretty sure if she went after him, it’d just turn into a fight, because now she wasn’t just pissed, but she was hurt by his words. Not that she didn’t deserve every terrible thing he’d said, she knew she deserved it. It still hurt that they’d come from him.

Finally she pushed off the wall, whipping the blood from her face and ran after him. Grabbing his wrist, she knew it was dangerous he was ten times stronger than him and when he was angry and drunk, he was a million times worse, but she didn’t care. She stepped in front of him, eyes on his.

“You’re an ass hole.” She breathed, it wasn’t much of an argument, her voice shaky, but it was all she could manage because her face was still burning and she was still scared of him. She knew it was fucked up that she only ever begged for him to stay when he threatened to leave her for good. “Don’t go.” She breathed holding his eyes. She lend up and kissed his lips, the kiss was apologetic, but because she was high it wasn’t exactly sincere and she hoped he was too drunk to notice. “I changed my mind, let’s go get drunk.” She breathed against his lips, trying her best to pull him back in.

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He stood looking over Kaleb’s body and he really fucking hoped that he’d just knocked him unconscious, because he didn’t exactly look like he was breathing. He kept his eyes trained on Kaleb, worst case scenario running through his head. What if he really had killed Kaleb. He’d gone too far this and he was starting to freak out. He ran his fingers through his hair , feeling like complete shit.

"Reed, I should really just go." She breathed, pulling him from his thoughts and he watched her move towards the door, but he still wasn’t ready to let her go, even though he knew he should go find Lea and just go home.


“No, you shouldn’t.” he said simply as he glanced up to her, crossing the room quickly and grabbing her by the upper arm, he flipped off the lights and shut the door behind them as he drug her into the hall. “We didn’t see him all night, got it?” He said sternly referring to Kaleb. “You’re coming home.” He said not exactly giving her an option.
He pulled her with him through the halls towards the exit, where his car was parked only before they got there he released her and started coughing violently, he stumbled towards the wall leaning against hit heavily for support. He felt like complete shit, he’d put off taking his medication too long and now he was paying for it. His head was pounding and his hands were shaky and he wished he hadn’t have dragged Candie with him. Because too her it’d just look like he was having withdrawals.

The doors to the gym opened up revealing Lea, who’s eyes widened and panic suddenly crossed her face when she saw the way Lux was acting. “Shit!” She breathed running over to him and she wasn’t at all phased by the fact that him and Candie were just fucking and it was not too hard to put together, for the moment she only had one priority on her mind.

“Do you have a car?” she glanced to Candie. “We have to get him to the hospital.” She breathed making it clear there was something very wrong. She turned back to Reed. “Baby, you gotta stay with me.” She said holding him up.

“Just give me my damn pills.” He spat clearly in pain.

“Reed, you flushed them the other night, don’t you remember?” Lea sighed trying to hold him up to the best of her ability. “You’re the ex? Candie right?” She said her tone dead serious. “If you love him, we need to get him to the hospital right now. I’m going to need you to focus doll.” Lea spoke firmly to Candie.

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She was scared of his temper, sure, but what scared her the most was the fact that he actually might be serious this time. She was scared that for once she might not actually get her way, she was scared that maybe this time she’d fucked up so back that there was no fixing it, there was no amount of kissing him or batting her eyelash that could win him over and that fear hit her harder than his slap had when he shoved her away.

"No Tansy, I don't think you get it." his eyes were cold and angry and she hated that she was the cause for all of his pain and she deserved exactly what she was getting. He shrugged and his jaw clenched, she knew he was tired of fighting her. "I'm. Done. You picked Collin, so why don't you go have him alright?" he said lighting a cigarette and she finally let her tears fall because she’d really lost him. "Besides, even if you got down on your knees and swore from here to China that you've changed your mind and want me now, I don't really think I can trust you and I probably never will."

It was silent for an agonizingly long moment and Tansy could stop herself from crying. She wasn’t exactly sure what to say to get him to stay and it killed her. She’d never not had control of a situation. Suddenly she hated Lauren and Collin and her brother. She hated that she was so fucked up and she hated that this time she’d pushed Donnie too far. She had no one to blame but herself.

“Donnie…” She breathed trying to come up with something, anything to get him to stay. Because the realization of losing him and his slap had managed to sober her up. She whipped her tears, picking her brain for something to say, but there was nothing she could say, he was right about everything.

She knew full well what this would do to them, they could never be just friends again. The thought of not even having him as a friend was agonizingly painful and broke her heart. She’d always had him when things fell apart, he was always the one she ran to and now she didn’t have him. She wasn’t entirely sure what she’d do without him, he’d been her back bone for some many years that now she just felt paralyzed.

“Okay.” She finally breathed, like she was giving up, because he’d already made up his mind and she didn’t have the strength to fight him, because losing him had taken everything out of her. She’d never felt so completely broken in her entire life. “I’m sorry.” She whispered before walking to the curb and sitting because she honestly felt sick and he knees felt weak and when she walked away she didn’t want to watch.

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Reed couldn’t exactly focus on what was going on around him, because he was in too much pain. He just knew that Lea was barking orders, like she normally did when he was sick, keeping her cool when everyone else was freaking out. Eventually they’d gotten into car and he could only assume they were headed towards the hospital, he wasn’t particularly excited about it, but he didn’t exactly have much of a say. When they’d finally gotten there, EMT’s and Emergency doctors were waiting outside for them, which meant Lea had called on the drive over and he hadn’t even noticed.

Finally they’d gotten him onto the stretcher and pushed him back into the emergency room, he’d heard them tell Lea and Candie that they had to stay in the waiting room. Eventually though he’d passed out completely.

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Demetri and Lea and Reed had become fairly close over the past month and the first time Lux had passed out, was the first time Lea made him spit out what was going on with him. Lea called Demetri letting him know what was going on before she sat down next to Candie. She wasn’t stupid, she was a smart girl and it wasn’t hard to put two and two together that Lux and Candie had been fucking just before.

It killed her, because she was honestly in love with Reed, but she knew all too well that he didn’t love her and he never would no matter how good she was to him, because he was so hopelessly hooked on Canide. It was silent between the two of them for a long time.

“Do you love him?” She finally asked, she was fearless for as young as she was and pretty bold. She knew it was a touchy question to ask to a girl she’d never meet but she didn’t care. “If you plan on taking him away from me…at least make sure you love him.” She breathed not bothering to look at Candie. “Because he sure as hell loves you.” She sighed running her fingers through her long blonde hair. It was hard for her to talk about, because she was jealous of Candie, for having the hold she did on Reed.

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Tansy lit a cigarette and she told herself that she’d give him one full cigarette and if he didn’t come after her, then it was really over. Her hands shook as she lit the cigarette, from both emotional and physical exhaustion. She didn’t even really smoke the cigarette, she’d mostly just let it burn. Because letting it burn, gave Donnie more time to come and tell her it was all going to be okay, but when the cigarette finally burned out and she glanced up to where he’d been, he was gone.

She could feel herself dying, for once just like Donnie said, someone had fucked her over and there was no one left to pick up the pieces. Tansy couldn’t exactly find the energy to pick herself up from this one, but she had to. She had to accept the fact that he wasn’t coming back for her and it was her fault. She heard Collin calling her name and that was what forced her to get up, because if Collin got a hold of her and she spent the night with him, there was no guarantee she’d wake up in the morning.

By the time she’d gotten him, it was late and she was exhausted. All she wanted to do was sleep. Kaleb still wasn’t home and she hated him for that, because for the first time in a long time she needed him. She slipped inside ready to head up the stairs when she saw the burning end of a cigar and raised a brow. She knew who it was, because the familiar scent of the cigar gave it away, it was her father. Sitting alone in the dark and she knew something was seriously wrong.

“Dad? Are you okay?” she breathed sitting down next to him on the couch and she could only make out his silhouette as he lifted the cigar to his lips and it was quite for a long moment as she waited for him to answer.

“Your mom left.” His voice was shaky and Tansy’s stomach twisted, sure she hated her mom, but she was still her mom. “I tried everything.” He said his voice raw like he’d been crying and Tansy couldn’t remember her father ever crying.

She lend her head on her dad’s shoulder. Tansy’s heart was officially broken and she knew in the morning she’d be bitter and cold. She hadn’t just lost her boyfriend, she’d lost her mom now too. Everything seemed to be going wrong at once. She sat there with her dad for a long time in silence, because she wasn’t exactly sure what to say to make either of them feel better and she knew whatever she said would only make her fall apart.

Eventaully her dad had gone to bed, but Tansy couldn’t sleep. She’d sobered up and loosing Donnie had really sunk in and she’d cried until she couldn’t cry anymore. She’d dialed his number about a million times, but never actually called him, because she had no excuse and no amount of apologizing could fix them. Then she’d thought about calling Collin, but thankfully she was sober and knew that wouldn’t solve a God damn thing. Eventually the sky had started to lighten outside and she was still sitting on the couch, eyes burning from practically crying herself to death.

Finally she’d moved from the couch into the kitchen to make herself a cup of tea, hoping that it would calm her nerves enough, she could go upstairs and sleep away the rest of the weekend. She lend against the counter absentmindedly staring out the window, she raised a brow as a cop car pulled into her drive way and suddenly she had a bad feeling, because Kaleb had never come home last night and that was out of character for him, he always came home, it was Tansy who usually didn’t come home.

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Reed wasn’t entirely sure how long he’d been out of it, but when he finally woke up, they had him in his own room, hooked up to a bunch of machines. His shirt was off and they had wires hooked up to his chest, not that it had surprised him all that much. His body was sore and he felt like complete shit, he sure as hell didn’t want to be in the hospital, he’d much rather just rest at home, but he knew that they weren’t going to let him go for a good few hours.

Things were coming back to him in flashes and he remembered Candie. Fuck. He thought. She was going to probably be pretty pissed at him for not telling her, not that he really thought she cared all that much. He was sober now, probably cause they’d flushed his system of any drugs and he was starting to realize just how badly he’d fucked up last night, he hadn’t meant to cheat on Lean and he’d beat the shit out of Kaleb so badly he wasn’t even sure if he was alive or dead. It was all one big fucking mess because he couldn’t control his damn temper.

“Oh good, your finally awake.” And older nurse said with a bright smile and he just scoffed rolling his eyes, he knew the women well, somehow she ended up always being his nurse when he was admitted. “The doctor wasn’t expecting you to wake up this soon.” She said as she checked his monitors. “But, it’s a good thing you did, your girlfriend and her friends are out there waiting for you, they’ve been bugging us for news all night.” She smiled.

Making Reed realize for the first time that it was morning and he’d been out all night. Which meant his body had gone into shock and he’d glanced down at his chest to see bright red marks, meaning his heart had stopped at some point and they’d had to use the paddles to restart it. He glanced back up to the nurse with a sigh.

“Who’s the other two with Lea.” He asked, hoping that Candie was out there, but at the same time not really expecting her to be.

“A pretty brown haired girl and that guy that always tags along with your girl.” She said simply sliding a needle into his IV and he groaned in pain because whatever she’d filled his veins with was burning. “Do you want to see Lea?” she asked.

“No.” He shook his head. “I want to see the other girl.” He said and she knit her eyebrows in confusion, but just nodded as she left the room.

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There was a knock at Tansy’s door and she thought that maybe she shouldn’t answer it and whatever they were going to say, whatever trouble Kaleb had gotten into would just disappear. Only they knocked again and her father came down the stairs dressed in his suite ready to go to work making his way to answer the door before Tansy got the chance to and she walked behind him, listening the cops as she took a sip of her tea.

“Mr. Everett?” the officer spoke and Tansy could tell just by his voice that something was seriously wrong and suddenly her stomach was twisted in knots. Her father nodded. “We regret to inform you that your son Kaleb, was found dead this morning.”

Tansy’s whole body ran cold and she froze, her coffee cup full of tea falling from her grip and shatter on the floor, yet she didn’t move and her father turned around, managing to grabbed her before she collapsed to the floor out of pure shock. As strong as Tansy was, there were something things that completely tore her up. Loosing Donnie, then her mother, and now her brother, she’d managed to loose everyone aside from Candie that actually meant something to her in less than twenty-four hours.

She didn’t even realize how hard she was crying until she was gasping for air. Her father held her trying to calm her down, but it didn’t seem to be working. Before Collin her and Kaleb had been incredibly close, because all they had was each other and sure they’d had their disagreements, but she’d have traded her mother’s life for Kaleb’s any day of the week. Her father was holding it together well, only because he knew he couldn’t fall apart at least not yet, eventually though her father had carried her to her room, because the police insisted he needed to go down to the hospital and identify his body.

Tansy didn’t move, she couldn’t she felt paralyzed at the thought that she’d been there last night and not once had she tried to find her brother or see how he was doing. She’d just kept repeating the last time she’d seen him, they hadn’t exactly been on the best terms and she hated herself for that.

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Reed waited for what felt like an agonizingly long time. There was a part of him that doubted that the girl the nurse had been talking about was even Candie. He knew he well enough to know she didn’t do well under stress. She was a lot like Tansy in that both of them though running when things got bad, made the problem go away when in fact it made it worse. He sighed convinced she wasn’t coming. He wanted to be pissed at her, but he was honestly too damn exhausted.

"Reed..." he finally heard glancing up to see her walking in and even though she seemed completely overwhelmed and stressed, he was glad that she’d shown up instead of running from him. It was quite for a long moment before she finally spoke, keeping her eyes on her lap. "What's going on? What exactly is wrong with you and how long has it been going on?" she asked softly and he wasn’t sure he’d ever heard her voice take such a soft tone and it made him realize how fucked up everything was around them.

She was supposed to be strong and fearless on the outside even if she wasn’t feeling it on the inside and he was supposed to be taking care of her, not sitting in a hospital bed having almost died. He should have never let her go, he should have just ignored her affairs and kept his mouth shut. He’d have been miserable, but at least he still have her and it frustrated him to thing off all the other guys she was letting touch her, because they didn’t care about her not like he did.

He let silence fall between them for a long time, because he wasn’t exactly sure what to say to her. He could easily tell her that he’d just overdosed and keep her in the dark. It was easier that way, because he hated when people worried about him. However, he knew lying wouldn’t help, she’d find out one way or another and he’d much rather her hear it from him.

“Since Tansy and I were together.” He finally breathed. “It wasn’t as bad then.” He said honestly. “The drugs are killing me, my hearts failing Candie.” He shrugged like it wasn’t a big deal. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you, I thought I was protecting you. I just didn’t want you feeling sorry for me.” He said glancing to her. “And, I’m sorry about last night. I wasn’t in my right mind, I was an ass.” He said honestly and he was only apologizing because he was sober, had he still been high, he’d probably have tried to pick a fight with her. But, in all honesty he meant his apology.

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