Dreams of drowning, struggling to push to the surface of the ink waters, but something was holding her down. Arms and fingers tangled in her hair, shoving her down into the depths. Someone once called a sweet name was now a monster, there only to hurt her, to press her into the gloom and pull her away from her family, her sisters, those that she loved and cared for.
Oxygen bubbled from her lips, her vision growing increasingly dim, disappearing as quickly as sand through fingers. Her face was being pushed into the silt at the bottom of the water, filling her nose and mouth, clouding her vision, choking her. She would die here, with no one to mourn her, no body to bury.
But she could not die, not here, she couldn't leave her family alone in that house. They were able to function by themselves, live quite well without her, it wasn't that. No, it was a purely selfish reason that she couldn't die here; she was afraid that they would forget her, all about her. They would begin to depend on Ava, and any memory of Ellie would disappear from their minds.
It was not Ellie that had held Charlotte through many fevers, but Ava pressing the cold rag to her burning forehead. Not Ellie, but Ava, who held Dannie's hair when she was four as she emptied her stomach contents into the bowl at her bedside. Ava reading bedtime stories. Ava burning the breakfast and taking them all out. Ava assuring them things would be alright, that she would take care of them, now that Mommy and Daddy were gone.
And Ava herself...she would forget her own twin sister, forget the secrets they had shared, the nights they had clambered onto the roof and sung songs to the moon, the tears spilled after stupid quarrels. Ellie would be wiped away from the face of the earth, with no one to guide her to the Afterworld, to Hell, where she would ultimately go. She had no choice.
Fear gripped Ellena's heart, and she let out a scream, years of pain, anguish, and fear put into a single guttural yell. Rhodanthe, Charlotte, Ava, Mommy, Daddy, and all the others...she screamed for them, for the love that she needed. And then the hands holding her down were gone. And she wasn't drowning anymore.
Ellie sat up in bed with a start, pulling the sweat-soaked sheets away from her body. She whipped her head around wildly, desperate to feel her baby sisters in her arms again, to feel their hearts beating beside her own. As she began to sob, she croaked her sister's names, reaching her arms out to feel them as soon as they came into the room. She didn't exactly remember what had happened, why she was in this room, where everyone had gone. But she knew she was alive.
For the moment.