Amalgamation Syndrome

[Wen Jing]

Oh god, I feel your pain, girl. D;

It sucks when parents don't understand how frustrating/stressful shit at school can get. I totally know what you're going through and, unfortunately, parents are just going to be annoyingly obtuse about this shit. If they don't bitch and yell at you, they'll try to rationalize everything - as if being hyper-rational REALLY helped. :/

/hugs hugs hugs

But yeah, psychology is totally trippy. lol I took Psych 101 (which is an introductory course to the subject) and it was okay. It sucked because I barely learned anything and my teacher was sorta anal about random shit. And, for some stupid reason, I'm taking a Human Development course (another Psych class) with my friend. Hahaha, I'm totally not getting what is going on and I've pretty much given up. I just memorize and regurgitate.



On another note, I just realized that last night was the deadline to submit my economics homework... what the fuck. Oh well, I have leeway of four assignments before I get dropped. So yay for leeways....lolol. But how is everyone doing? Winter Olympics ARE starting which is SUPER SUPER awesome. I only got to watch half of the opening ceremony - so sad - but yaaaay! Excited! (;

[Eden-Poison]

CANADAAAAAAAAAA~!

[Eden-Poison]

Now it's Eden's turn for needing a hug...

[Strude]

What's up?

*nabs her screen and e-hugs Eden*

School? Work? Home? Siblings? o_o

[Eden-Poison]

Boyfriend. :\

*e-hugs back*

Asshole's basically been telling me he's 100% okay with a lot of things I've done, and just now explodes and tells me he's not okay with them. :\

/One/ of which is my RP - we RP at a great roleplaying nwn2 server, and one of my characters was considering getting in a relationship with someone. I ask him so many times to see if he's okay with that, get lots of "yes yes it's fine I trust you" and /after/ my character has jumped in and gotten pregnant, and gotten other players involved, he lets me know he's actually not.

Aarrrrrrrgh.

[Eden-Poison]

So basically we're at break-up point and I still can't decide whether there's anything salvageable since he's basically lied to me about his feelings for 2 years, then held it against me. >_<

And I feel awful for being so cold to be sad that I'd losing someone who actually agrees with me on a lot of things - which is /so/ hard, heh.

[Strude]

I'm not so sure where I stand on the whole issue. Personally I would be rather annoyed that my boyfriend is getting in a huff over a role play. I mean if you don't like it then come and role play the situation with me instead. If you don't want to role play with me, then live with the fact that I'll be role playing with other people. For one it isn't real life and what I do in my story telling will not effect my real life and my real life relationships. As everything I do within my game world is purely for entertainment and as I said you always have the option of joining me in-game, there isn't anything stopping him.

But I think or have the feeling that there is more to it than just roleplaying that is the issue.

[Eden-Poison]

Oh, yea. Roleplaying is /not/ the only thing. It's just the latest in a long line of things he's lied to me about his feelings on over the years.

I wouldn't be so upset if he were mad just about the roleplay - but it's not by a longshot the first thing he's lied about, and then he shows he's lied about a lot more than I thought he had.

I mean, when someone lies about their feelings and what they think about you for /2 years/, do you really know them at all?

[Strude]

Not as well as you assumed ya did. I would be majorly upset too. Does he want to end the relationship?

[Eden-Poison]

He did, when he was piss mad at me - then he went to bed, thought about it, and didn't want to end it. I thought about it, and kind of do now. I really can't bring myself to believe a word he says anymore. But...I do love him and everything, and I'd hate myself if I hurt him. So I'm kind of at a loss for what to do and asking him to just let me think about it for a few days.

[Strude]

Good idea.

I would be just as lost. I am at a loss. I can't even think of something constructive to say. @___@

[Eden-Poison]

Lol, it's fine.

I feel bad because he has a really shitty life, and I really don't know whether or not I'm helping or hurting. I would know if he were honest about it. ;>_<

Just talking about it helps, so thanks for listening. :)

[Eden-Poison]

Yea...I think we're going to end it...

now he's changed his story to he's angry at other things and took it out on me

and I just CANNOT accept having that done to me.

ugh

[Strude]

*blinks* Wow ain't he just a fickle fella. Shesh, I too would not take that kind of shit. That's just twisted and very unfair to your feelings.

[Eden-Poison]

Exactly. And now he's trying to guilt me into staying with him.

fml. >_<

*takes a very deep breath*

At least I'm knee deep in homework. :D

[Strude]

Something I would dread . . . I don't do homework well when I'm upset. I don't do anything well when upset. >___>'
But score for you, distraction heaven for j00!

[Eden-Poison]

Yea, I /so/ need a distraction. Yay for three midterms per course!

edit well not midterms bah whatever

[MadMagicMuffinMan]

Mwahahahahahahahaha!!!! I'm on break at the moment! Mwahahahahaha! MwahahahahACK *coughcoughwheeze*
Okay, done with the evil laughter. This place has some cool digs, though.

[ParadisiacMegane]

IT'S....IT'S....IT'S EDDDEEEEENNNNNN!!!!! So sad I haven't been here in a while. I blame life....in general....

[Strude]

Life has us all on a leash! I have to write a research paper, so that will likely suck my soul dry over the next while. :/

So aside from horrible boyfriends and school eating people alive. How is everyone?
(general conversation starter is general . . . and boring!)

OMFG FUCK YES! I GOTS COCKTAILS VOL.3 OWO
*is a very happy critter inside!*