My Suicide (Lyrics) - Part 1

[Dionysus]

When I stepped back on the scene, it came as no shock./
Still thuggin it, bumpin Tupac - 'On My Block'./
And lovin it, though I know a lot of people hate./
I maintain, cuz this music helps me escape./
I keep on stressin, only money makes me focus./
They claim to understand, but wonder why I'm hopeless./
I act a menace, but they know I'm not pretendin./
Because I've been this way, ever since they can remember./
I'm takin shots from everybody, on every side./
But I try to coincide, I will never tryda hide./
Facin a life of crime, if I violate these fines./
I gotta pay it off, I'm tired of doin time./
The systems full of lies, but I still struggle./
It's hard bein in trouble, knowin that no one loves you./
Sure to be in prison for the next five years./
So many tears shed over so many dead peers./
They gotta wonder why I keep groovin./
Refuse to give up or face losin, they keep booin./
It's not the life that I choose, but I'll do it./
Play the cards you're dealt, now keep movin./
The days aren't fair, the nights are long./
But writin songs helps that life go on./
I got foodstamps and a family to feed./
Tryna put money aside so I can help my seed./
With hopes that maybe she'll be different from me./
I got priorities, piss tests and no curtains./
Every time there's gunshots, I'm the one cops searchin./
But when I get robbed, I don't get no reimbersement./
I'm treated different because I gotta criminal record./
More tools pulled on me than they got at black and decker./
And I'm supposed to be a role model./
So much energy exhausted I'm drinkin full throttle./
And every night, I kill a whole bottle./
With sleepin pills, cuz I can't sleep until./
I pay my bills, and at least make a mill so I can chill./
I gotta get outta this situation that I'm facin./
So much contemplatin got me walkin back and forth pacin./
I can't relieve it, I ask God to help me beat it./
Believe me, cuz even former demons learn to take it easy./
And if nobody by my side, I'm still down to ride./
Mama don't cry, your baby boy was born to die./
Guess it was just suicide, this life of mine./
Fuck it, went suicidal on a homicide this time./

[RedPitbull]

I really liked it. But I had a mixture of Eminem's voice and Richy Nix's voices in my head as I read. xP