At this point, Blue didn't have in her to put up any resistance. The machine freely took from her the memories and thoughts that they worked to obtain. Things as meaningless as her childhood, how she was feared by the other children simply for being the daughter of Mr Nightingale. How she discovered the little friends she had were actually being forced to be her friends. To the few endearing moments she shared with her family, with her father, a time when Jacqueline wasn't some sick twisted monster. Somewhere in there, they saw what changed her but whether that was important enough to note in detail is a matter of opinion.
Up until a certain point, after the betrayal and destruction of her own Family and their legacy, a bored Jacqueline went about doing as she pleased. Killing as she pleased for amusement and toying with anyone and everyone she could. She was a sword swung in all directions, without a purpose or a goal. Varying from extreme boredom and frustration to twisted slaughter fueled joy and bliss. Somehow this wild Jacqueline stumbled upon the concept of Ascendance and proof of mortals who had done just that. It fascinated her, gave her a path to follow. That path caused her to run into and hunt down the one called Lochlynn, she even encountered him. Traded blows with him and became forced to kneel. Knowing Loch, that was merely part of his plan.. Despite her gritting teeth and senseless struggle to continue, his dominance seemed absolute and her resistance futile. It was from here on that Jacqueline was changed into the woman she was, when she became the Blue Switch. All it took was a single phrase, something even her very father had uttered to her once before in a memory....just how long had Loch been watching? Scheming...
"When the stars feel lonely, when they fail and succumb to sorrow, do they dim and fade or shine brighter? You choose, Ms. Nightingale. Dim and fade here...or Ascend into radiance ever lasting."
The answer was obvious. Yet before Loch could make himself her entire world, fate intervened. She met Red and was smitten. Perhaps a pure love, the kind that normal people have, could have been overcome. But what Blue had was not pure love. It was obsession, sick and twisted. It was dark and gritty. Still he could manipulate it. She was addicted to that drug, Red and so he would feed her doses.
On screen came many false memories. Ayla would be able to tell that they were false memories, the events as she recalled them occurred differently entirely or
simply Red was never actually there....
The Aschen Lieutenant began to pace a circle around the room. "You have given us little, I imagine, outside of a window into your vapid little soul," her tongue clicked. "I have been informed of your unhealthy obession with Mr.Yeoman.." She allowed the sentence to hang for a moment, trying to gauge Blue's reaction as she spoke
The light in her eyes flickered and momentarily became brighter at the mention of Tim's last name. The aching muscles of her face twitched but ultimately failed to express the emotion the mind had told them to convey.
"Would you like to see him again, Jacqueline?" Just then the door opened, the tech returning. He handed a holocron to Ayla, and resumed his post. "Because I can make that happen," she held the device up to Blue's glazed eyes. "With a simple press of the button."
The holoscreen flickered to life, displaying a nearly identical room, right down to the Chair, except there were only two people in it. Marlene, and Tim Yeoman. She walked around, himing and hawing, as he say in agony. Marlene whispered something, and Tim's Aurora screen came into focus.
A rapid sequence flashed, Tim's true feelings, Tim's undoctored memories of their time together. It was a montage of pure hatred, and loathing at every turn. A solid twenty, uninterrupted minutes of venom. Ayla sat, unspeaking as she let it play, watching her prisoner's every reaction.
This time, Blue reacted. Expecting the viper before her to spit poisonous words at her, to stab her ears with daggers, she gritted her teeth and her face conveyed a deep resentment for the woman that stood before her. It was as if, in that very instant, Ayla became the natural rival of Blue. Yet when the holocron shone brightly and displayed Tim...it took all of her attention away. Like a moth to a flame, she fixated on it very much like a dog whoms master had returned after a long journey.
The torrent of hatred and loathing that it showed her...it didn't shock her...Blue knew that Red despised her..somewhere in her she knew but...the fantasy showed to her. The world she had made for herself, fake though it was blissfully swell. This was a perverse intrusion upon that. A reminder most foul...and it shattered that frail world she made, that Loch used to control her.
Tears could not flow. Her throat would not voice what she felt, it couldn't. But her face...it showed her agony. Her body trembled...her very being trembled... It was something deep, her sorrow, her heart ache. More profound than than a mother weeping for her dead children or a husband for the murder of a spouse. It was the torment of a zealot, whom after devoting their entire life to their God, was told by that very God that their very existence was sin. That their salvation was impossible.
Yet despite this, the most heinous of betrayals was in Jacquelines own heart. It ached. It burned. It tore itself asunder with every venomous word she heard Red utter. As though a hand had gripped it tight and squeezed as if to crush it, that is what she felt and so much more. But still it refused to die. She mouthed the words, though she was desperately trying to audible confess for them all to here.
“Yes that is the man...that is my god. He hates me with all that he is...but I can't help but obsess over him with all that I am...”.
She hung her head low in shame and embraced herself, her naked body still trembling violently.