For a period of three full days or so, the airwaves were deathly silent. The last I had heard from the Administrator, I was told to sit tight. Someone was looking over M’s letters, and the DI assigned to the case were connecting dots as much as possible, but ultimately it meant that there was nothing for me to do. I got real lazy then. And I mean, epic lazy.
It was too late in the season for the outside pool, and the inside one was almost too warm, too bleachy, if that’s a word. I didn’t have enough pound coins to afford playing pool or paying for internet, so I amused myself by doing the two free things I could at the Marriott — watching TV, and eating.
The Marriott provided a host of interesting channels for its guests, along with buffet-styles meals. It got to the point where I would spend a whole night watching, I dunno German infomercials or strange British comedies, and then load up solely on plates of bacon and blueberries the following morning. I knew I had to get out of that hotel.
Problem was finding out where to go. All the major European cities start to look the same after a while. They’re old and busy and confusing and depending on the time of year, miserable to try and navigate. I’m sure I could have learned my way around London if I had sat down with a map and put my mind to it, but if I did that for every major city I’d ever been assigned to, I’d have a thousand public transportation networks all tangled together in my brain.
I usually did alright, I guess. I had an Oyster Pass for the rail, and the Administrator watching over me, so even if I did get lost, it wasn’t long before a humorless all-caps text got me back on the right track. At least the people around me spoke English, which made it drastically less of a nightmare to ask for directions, and much less bewildering to stand on a crowded street corner, and just feel swept away by all the noise.
When it came to deciding where to go in London, I guess I could have tried to get ahold of Deb, but pride made me turn to the stack of informative brochures by the Marriott’s check-in desk rather than him. Thinking myself some boundless maverick, I jotted down directions to some of the more tourist-friendly attractions in my area, preferring the idea of walking quietly through rather than being caught up with some sort of shouty guide. Soon, I left the Marriott wrapped in coat, scarf, passport tucked away, shoulder bag slung — intending fully to catch a bus and see Tower Bridge, but my general trepidation and uncertainty of my own hasty handwriting led me, I believe, to miss what I feel was the correct bus, and just begin walking towards the river.
There were people jogging, couples walking, school groups marching along the paved grass-side path. I was a fan of river walks, I guess, except it seemed like all the interesting things in the city were on the other side of the Thames. Oh well. It was still nice. I welcomed the relief from the rushing hiss of traffic, and if I walked at the right pace, the water looked like it wasn’t moving at all; instead, it was the world doing the turning.
I walked through a sort of river-side park with grass, wood chips, swings, and tiny modest bathrooms. A blot of color caught my eye. There was a young man sitting alone on a bench up ahead about a stone's throw from the largest slide, ankle crossed over his knee in a sweatshirt that looked suspiciously like Northwestern purple. Huh.
Northwestern University, of course, being one of the huge schools just to the north of Chicago, near the Gold Coast area. Ground zero was approaching fast, and I could have sworn it was indeed one of their school sweatshirts. He wore dark jeans to match, with bright white sneakers. I could only see the profile of his face, but he had thick curly black hair, and, I would have bet, a very nice smile.
Like any professional teenager, I went for my phone to do some spectacular pretend texting, flipping it open with a practiced swing, clicking aimlessly through contacts as I —
—
Yes, it was a Northwestern sweatshirt. I saw the
N splashed on the front, along with the Wildcats head. There was an awkward moment as I veered to the right, making a terrifyingly inelegant balance of pretending to have just caught sight of the man, and having been eyeballing him from about a hundred feet back.
“Hey!” I pointed, approaching, slipping my phone back in my pocket. He looked up — oh. I had his attention and I realized I had no plans on what to do with it. “I .. hi. I’m American,”
like he couldn’t tell from the accent, dumbs! “Couldn’t help but notice your sweatshirt. Northwestern!” I pointed at myself with both thumbs, as though this gave me extra validity. “
Go Wildcats!"
He stared blankly. I felt myself dying on the inside. "I’m from Chicago!”
“Oh! Yeah! Yes,” he touched his chest where the Wildcat was, as though remembering suddenly what he was wearing. "Awesome! I graduated there just this spring, actually .."
“Sorry, I don’t want you to think I’m some sort of stalker,” I said, not sorry, as I invited myself to sit down next to him. “But y’know. So far from home, I had to say something.”
“Right, right, definitely” he smiled at me the way that strangers smile at each other, but for some reason, it still felt a thousand times warmer than anything I had seen all week. “So where in Chicago are you from?”
“Kinda by Logan Square,” I made a vague gesture in the air. “I go to school around there. Well, I did. Now I’m here.”
“Cubs or Sox?”
“Cubs, baby."
“Damn straight," he nodded solemnly, awarding my mortification at calling him "baby" with a fist-bump. So. Are you, like, on vacation with family or something?”
Um. As he casually glanced around to see if there were any more people with me, I launched into one of my least developed skills — lying.
“No. I’m on .. I'm an, uh. Exchange. Student. At one of the schools here," I jerked a thumb over my shoulder in a general direction. "For a few months, yeah."
"Oh, neat,” he bobbed his head again. “How's that?"
"Lonely, boring .. ” oh my God he’s going to think you’re pathetic! “But really informative. Like, I’m learning things.”
“That’s cool!”
“All European cities start to look the same after a while, though.”
“Oh. So you travel a lot?”
“Yeah. I study abroad,” I lied quickly. Too quickly.
Shut up. “What are you studying?”
Okay. Slow down.Think about what you’re saying. “Languages.”
I thought I’d get away with that one, but he said something jovially to me in French. I withered.
“Okay, look,” I glanced down at my feet. “I’m gonna be honest with you. I’ve just been feeling really homesick and just .. lame lately. Everyone I'm working with is just .. and seeing the Northwestern purple, and like, hearing someone talk like me, just, I dunno. I guess I needed it. Does that make sense?"
" .. Yeah," he said. And we sat. And that was all I needed.
“Jerr?”
I turned. I saw purple. An attractive woman in a matching Northwestern sweatshirt had strolled over. She had thick brown hair with blonde highlights, was prettier than me. My phone buzzed against my thigh.
“Hi!” she said to me in polite puzzlement. "Jerr" opened his mouth to introduce me to her, but I saw the glint of gold on their fingers, now, and I had already stood.
“I have to take this,” I said in a tone that surprised me. I reached for my phone and had it pulled out and open before I could even once look back.