I’m an atheist, as I’m sure pretty much everyone in the D&D board knows this means I don’t believe there is any evidence of a God or Supernatural guiding force in the world. People often ask me what i get out of my faith and then I’m forced to explain that it’s not a faith. Being an Atheist, to me at least, means I realised the religion I had been born into didn’t have any satisfying answers so I started looking to other religions.
No luck there as it all seemed like nonsense to me. So I decided I’d believe in what’s provable and scientific. Everything else is just fiction or wishful thinking to me.
Then I stopped thinking about religion or Atheism and just tried to live my life as well as I could. Most atheists don’t wear it as a badge of honour it’s just part of who you are.
Anyway we’ve had a pretty crappy time in our family for deaths with both my Grandfather and uncle going in the same year.
The weird thing to come out of it was my Grandmother has been an in closet Atheist for decades but that’s a story for another time. The death of my Grandfather was the greatest test of my Atheism I’ve ever experienced because there has never been a man more deserving of paradise or heaven than him. Still the thought fo him going there never crossed my mind. Instead I felt guilt, because I was away with work while he was dying, along with the immense sene of loss that comes from a loved one dying. I never thought of him in an afterlife.
That’s when I realised I really don’t believe, before it had all been academic but when it’s made flesh and blood you find out what you really believe.
Less than a year later my uncle died from a long illness. Unfortunately this time I was around and got to see exactly how cancer can eat a person away to a nub. On a side note if someone you love smokes or if you smoke, do everything you can break that habit. It’s not a good death.
The point of this post is a discussion I had with one of my cousins whose father was the uncle who died.
She basically asked me “Where’s my dad now?”
I should explain my cousin is a Christian and the question was asked few weeks after the funeral. While I’m pretty firm in my lack of faith I’m not vocal about it. I don’t care if you believe in whatever so long as it doesn’t impact on my life. If you ask me what I believe I’ll tell you but I’m not going to stop people in the street. Bottom line is my cousin was assuming I was also a Christian.
I had no idea how to respond.
I knew what I believed which was he was nowhere but I couldn’t say that so I gave the cop out answer of “He’s at peace.”
While I’m an Atheist, I’m not about to tell my bereaved cousin I think her Dad is gone forever.
This is my first question for any fellow atheists out there. Has your Atheism ever placed you in situations like the one above where you’ve had to compromise your beliefs as it offers no comfort to others?
I’d like to end on a positive note though.
My Atheism isn’t something I normally think about a lot but it does affect my thinking. I’m often aware that every second is bringing me closer to my own death. This often forces me to ensure I use my time in ways that are interesting to me and will help me be comfortable and happy later in life.
I feel this is a strength of Atheism. I don’t believe a quick pray to God will save me from trouble which means only I can do it. This thought makes me responsible and in a way I take strength from it. It also means prayers or Gods will not help others who are in need. This thought makes me charitable. I'm not saying those who do believe are deficient in these respects I’m just saying these are things I take from my lack of belief.
This leads into my second question which is how has Atheism made you a better person?
Being sceptical unfortunately does not give us much comfort and it’s not supposed to. Often I find myself cringing at things people believe but because they make the person happy I bite my tongue. I guess I want to know if anybody else is faced this dilemma.
I'm still worried people will think this depressing so here's
Faithless the band.