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by Mannerheim on Tue Feb 17, 2009 10:03 pm
OOC: I was sitting here not doing anything important anyway, and your post in the nation rp just about broke my little heart. Then I remembered that long ass post I did, and how I kinda made my character big. So I am going to keep this one too, as I can't play COD4 and talk on the phone at the same time, but I can type and think and talk at the same time.
IC: The APC stopped abruptly, and Henry could tell. It shook him awake, he breathed hard. He was dreaming that he wasn't really Henry the widower, but Henry the butterfly. In his stressful state, he'd forgotten exactly which of the realities was more rediculous. He lay back, arms pulled up to his chest, hands facing outward at his neck. It was possibly the most submissive he'd ever looked in his life. A young cocky soldier with sagging BDU took him by the shoulder and shook him. "Yo dog, you gonna stand?" he asked with a perfect white smile. It made Henry self-concious about his own crooked teeth. The soldier though was what filled him with more anger than anything. He was a white kid, and from the look of those perfect teeth, not a less-fotunate kid either, probably some football team party boy from the suburbs. Henry didn't see any work in the boys light brown eyes, and it infuriated him, but there was nothing he could do. The boy looked back into Henry's dark blue eyes, eyes that had seen more horror and work than three men twice his own age. He frowned, the patches of whiskers on his face were unkept, and his clothes so dirty and greasy he looked like a vagrant. The boy was well kept however, shaven, toned, clean. "So you straight?" the cocky boy asked codescendingly. Henry mumbled under his breath while standing, "Fuck you" under his breath, stumbling out the door onto the wet grass. "What'yoo say?" the wannabee urban youth asked violently, raising his hands up in an unnatural fashion, like someone trying to act like an Italian. "Fuck you I said. I know your type, you don't know shit about shit, you're eighteen years old and the army is the most work you've ever done, now the world's gone to shit so you think it's all elementary again, it's all free game. Hear this you ignorant shithead, I know pain, you may have never cared about anyone before, but I have. I just lost everything, there's nothing left. I have no more fears, and therefore I am powerful. You got any fears?" he started the speech low, but by the end was at a talking volume. After he had spilled his guts he breathed hard, barely able to contain himself. The boy looked back into the man's eyes with pure hatred, not only for the man, but for himself.
The boy had always hated what he was, that's why he'd taken on a whole different persona. He didn't know what he wanted. But deep down, he didn't want to join the army at all. It's what his dumb friends did because they wanted to try and get into crime. All he knew was what MTV taught him. His parents never told him where he came from, what his ancestors did, and this lack of details gave him empty feelings. He didn't feel important, breeding didn't matter to them, or their parents, so it didn't matter to him. Not only was he not black, which is the only thing he'd ever wanted to be, but he didn't even know where his great grandparents came from. He couldn't speak a lick of any other language, besides what he'd learned from Dora the Explorer as a child, and even that had been drown out with lyrics to rap songs. Songs that he listened to, self-defeated himself to, songs about hatred toward his own people, songs about breaking down their values system and replacing one that wasn't human at all.
The boy sneered at Henry. Without warning, after thinking all the trivial thoughts he had thunk in the second before he threw a clean white fist into Henry's face, knocking the already weakened man to the ground. "I don't know shit about fear" the boy yelled to him, walking fast in another direction, unnoticed by his superiors, who were busy enough doing other things, and trying to find the time to follow their private agendas, these mostly included securing survivor women in the infirmary to bed.
Henry lay on the ground coughing up blood, it ran out of his nose and upper forehead, stinging his eyes, staining them red. He had no defense now, not in his state, but hell, even if he was prepared to take the hit, somehow a middle aged farmer going toe-to-toe with a newly trained marine didn't seem logical. Henry thought about his family again, but he refused to cry any longer. There wasn't any more time for that, not here, not now. He stood up and staggered a bit. He wiped his face and walked upright as best he could toward where he thought the closest shower might be. After that he'd most likely ditch these clothes and get new ones. All his designers, his work clothes, his suits, they were all gone now.
Everything was, yet he had a drive to go on.
In the shower he hung his head down, staring into the drain and then closing his eyes to listen to it's growl. He sighed. At very least the military had decent toiletries.
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