IN Sandrine Milandeaux
The wounded snake its hood unfurls,
The flame stirred up doth blaze,
The desert air resounds the calls
Of heart-struck lion’s rage.
The cloud puts forth it deluge strength
When lightning cleaves its breast,
When the soul is stirred to its in most depth
Great ones unfold their best.
Let eyes grow dim and heart grow faint,
And friendship fail and love betray,
Let Fate its hundred horrors send,
And clotted darkness block the way.
All nature wear one angry frown,
To crush you out - still know, my soul,
You are Divine. March on and on,
Nor right nor left but to the goal.
Nor angel I, nor man, nor brute,
Nor body, mind, nor he nor she,
The books do stop in wonder mute
To tell my nature; I am He.
Before the sun, the moon, the earth,
Before the stars or comets free,
Before e’en time has had its birth,
I was, I am, and I will be.
The beauteous earth, the glorious sun,
The calm sweet moon, the spangled sky,
Causation’s law do make them run;
They live in bonds, in bonds they die.
And mind its mantle dreamy net
Cast o’er them all and holds them fast.
In warp and woof of thought are set,
Earth, hells, and heavens, or worst or best.
Know these are but the outer crust -
All space and time, all effect, cause.
I am beyond all sense, all thoughts,
The witness of the universe.
Not two nor many, ’tis but one,
And thus in me all me’s I have;
I cannot hate, I cannot shun
Myself from me, I can but love.
From dreams awake, from bonds be free,
Be not afraid. This mystery,
My shadow, cannot frighten me,
Know once for all that I am He.
The words resounding in her mind over and over again. This poem, her mother taught her when she was just a young child - afraid of the darkness, afraid of such trivial things. Back then, her worst fears were not even close to what she felt in this now diminished state of pride and injustice. A cursed wound left open by the years of fear and anger, a deep sitting empathy crushed into her soul. Sitting by a small window in her hut, the last of the Milandeaux - Sandrine, wrapped up in a dark cloak - staring out of the narrow window as if she was expecting someones arrival.
The hut she lived in was nothing elaborate, the wall in the back was shimmering in tones of cold Grey and black - from the stone of the cliff it was build in. The rest of hut was made out of timber and earthwork - giving it a very dark brown undertone. There was a small bed, a table, chair and one shelf filled with books of all kinds. The lone candle - the only source of light was placed by the table near the window and next to it sat Sandrine. Emerald eyes watching the forest she knew like the back of her hand, though something was different this very night.
It wasn't the thick fog crawling its way through the forest nor was it the stars, which were twinkling like she had never seen before. It was an undeniable, uneasy feeling she felt deep within her being. Though she couldn't quite place it, after all these years what could cause her to feel this way. The Witch of Cairns had told her a thousand times before - that one day she would be free of the shackles her mere being carried.
Her eyes drifting away from the window, they settled upon something she had given her for safe keeping. The Glaive, which the Witch had entrusted her with many years ago. There was something odd about it, she swore she could hear its faint calling for it's master. The soft features of the woman turned into a fearsome frown. Could it be that one of that brood was on his way in search of that cursed weapon which... She had stopped herself from going any further with her thoughts.
At the moment, her hide out might have been jeopardized - being found out would be the last thing she needed. Her eyes still resting upon the weapon she begged for it to silence its call. Though knowing its history that was very unlikely to happen - it would rather see her dead than living free. Once more her eyes hit the ground beneath her feet, the pounding of her heart - the rushing heat of her own blood making her feel dizzy and sick. Closing her eyes for a moment, she tried to calm herself down.
Eyes shot open when she heard it - a man calling out her name, this was it - it was either make or break and she was sure she wouldn't go down without putting up a fight. If he had that crystal, she would be sentenced to death the moment she showed herself, but she was tired. Tired of it all, her existence was only tainted by sadness and solitude. She inhaled deeply before hastily looking out of the window, exhaling sharply with what sounded like a bitter sigh.
It really seemed like the time had come, the Glaive sounded as if it was almost screaming now, squinting her eyes slightly she picked it up from the wall it was hanging from. The hood of the cloak resting just above her eyes, throwing a dark shadow upon her face - Glaive in hand she stepped out of her home. Slowly walking around the small ponds, she was a good few meters away from the mountain of a man.
Her words calm and sharp, "What do you seek stranger?" she was standing upright, hidden away by the cloak - if she could get away, he wouldn't be able to recognize her. Planning her escape as she stood there, the aura surrounding the man she knew of so very well.
'Oh ... he is one of them ... the ones who were the solemn reason of my kinds demise' ...her eyes settling upon the man, fierce yet unbroken - she would show him and the rest of his kind what the Milandeaux were made of.