Jason, Nicky and Merc just sat there grinning as they watched Lolly kiss Ria. "Nah, that was barely a kiss...you chickened out" Jason said, hoping to get the girls to keep going. "I mean Ria didn't even really kiss you back" Jason said, "Yup they chickened out" Nicky piped in laughing, Merc was just grinning he was enjoying the show no matter what.

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"Jason's smarter than he lets on. And Nicky is smart enough to handle himself as well" Deke said, Jimmy nodded his head as well "They'll be fine, besides they don't have cuts...not even a bottom rocker...nobody will see them as being out of the ordinary than just some teens hanging around...it works perfect. Those mob guys start seeing patches pop up around them they'll start taking their business underground" Jimmy said.

Lolly and Ria both shook their heads. "So you want your girlfriend to kiss someone else?" Lolly asked and Jason had some smart ass remark. They both knew what he was doing. They were seriously getting off on the girls making out. "Look. Dumbasses. I spun the bottle. I kissed her. We're moving on." She said and looked at Jason. "Your turn, Big mouth." She said and rolled the bottle over to him. He something else to say. "Just spin the fucking bottle." She said folding her arms. And with yet another remark, he spun the bottle. Unfortunately for the both of them. It landed on her. Lolly palmed her forehead. "Of course." She muttered and Nicky had something to say about his turn. Merc just laughed really hard. Ria wasn't sure what to do. Did she want Jason to kiss Lolly. Lolly was one helluva kisser as she just found out and as was Jason. She wasn't sure how she felt about it.

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Beau agreed with a nod. "Alright. Sounds good to me." He said and for once he was glad he had a girl. Although at the very same time. Had Lolly been a boy, he probably wouldn't have felt that way at all.

Lolly rolled the bottle over to Jason, "wouldn't you like to see what my big mouth could do" Jason said smirking. He then spun the bottle and watched as it landed on Lolly. Lolly palmed her forehead as Jason looked at Lolly, he then looked over at Ria and saw the look on her face. First of all it would just be weird kissing Lolly, she was like his sister in a lot of ways, secondly, there was Ria, he really did like Ria. "Come on man, don't chicken out...or are you just a big pussy" Merc said taunting Jason. Had he not had so many drinks, Merc would have thought much differently than taunting Jason. Jason just grinned "thanks Merc buddy" he said, he picked up the bottle and smashed it over Merc's head, which caused Nicky to burst out laughing as Merc fell over dazed. "Whoops...bottle's broken, game over" Jason said with a grin laughing as Merc lay on the ground rubbing his head.

Lolly and Ria both gasped as Jason smashed the bottle over Merc's head then Lolly laughed really hard. She knew how Jason reacted to difficult situations. Violence. Which meant, he wasn't sure what the hell to do and unfortunately poor Merc baited him and thusly became his target.
Ria felt relieved but she didn't say anything. She just watched as they all laughed. It was all in good fun away. After all, Lolly kissed her and it didn't seem to phase her. What difference would Jason have been? Although, had it actually happened. She wasn't sure what she'd have done.

Lolly wiped tears from her eyes. She couldn't resist taunting him now. "You are such a wuss!" She squealed. Had that been anyone else, say Merc or Nicky. It'd been an all out those would have been their last words but it was Lolly. Just about the only person who could bait Jason and live to tell the tale. Unfortunately for Jason. She definitely would and no, she would never let him live this down. She stood up and pushed his head roughly with two fingers. "Always running that mouth of yours, and you chickened out!" She said with an evil grin. He glared at her and
stood up as if he'd really do something to her. She stood her ground, looking him in the face as he threatened her. Ria shook her head. 'Here we go.' She thought. Lolly was insane to taunt Jason the way she did. Ria knew it wasn't to get him to kiss her. It was simply to get under his skin the way only she could.

For a second, Jason looked as if he was gonna get her so Lolly took off and Jason ran after her. After a few laps around the barn. Lolly hid behind Nicky, peeking behind his shoulder. "Save me, Nick." She pleaded with a laugh, wrapping her arms around his waist, using him as a shield between him and Jason while Poor Merc was still holding his head but laughing along with Ria.

Nicky just laughed as Lolly hid behind him. "Sorry hun, he may not hit you but he won't think twice about breaking something over my head either" Nicky said laughing as he moved out of the way. Nicky laughed as Lolly gave a little squeal and kept running. Jason continued to chase after her, but this time she headed out into the field away from the barn, he wasn't even sure if she knew where she was going. She got a little ways into the field when Jason caught up to her and tackled her, a little harder than she may have thought he would. Jason landed ontop of her, pinning both her arms above her head with one hand, grabbing her chin with the other one. Something weird happened when Jason's eyes met Lolly's, it only lasted for a moment before Lolly came out with some wise-crack, Jason recognized the comment too, she got that way when she got nervous, maybe she really thought Jason was going to do something, "what did you call me?" Jason asked, the look on his face wasn't entirely one of somebody who was joking, but it wasn't entirely one of somebody who was angry either.

The others kept laughing until Jason and Lolly faded into the darkness out in the field, Nicky and Merc didn't seem to care, Lolly and Jason were like brother and sister anyway.

Lolly squealed as Nicky moved out of the way and Jason came after her again. She giggled and ran not really thinking about where she was headed. She knew of course he wouldn't hurt her but she knew she hated being tickled which she figured would have been his plan of attack. Then before she knew it, Jason tackled her to the ground and pinned her down with a hand and his other hand on her chin. She looked up at him and their eyes locked for a small moment. Her eyes fell away for a second as she felt a cool breeze on her stomach, Her top had rizen some and her flat bronze belly was exposed, her eyes snapped back on to his as she regained her ablilty to speak. "This is a white shirt, Jason, If it's stained you're washing it." She said, completely changing the subject. She wasn't sure what was going on in Jason's mind but the look on his face made her nervous in a way she couldn't explain. He then asked her what she called him and naturally her pride took over. "I called you a wuss." She said, it only hit her later but she'd challenged him in a way they both knew he couldn't back down from.

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Ria watched as Jason chased Lolly out into the field. Not thinking a thing of it. She just hoped they didn't kill each other. It was a definite possiblitiy.

"A wuss huh?" Jason said, and before either of them knew what was happening, Jason leaned down and kissed Lolly on the lips. Jason couldn't even explain why he'd kissed Lolly, I mean they were practically brother and sister in a lot of ways, but ever since she had gotten back from Europe she kept popping back into his head. To prove his point all Jason needed was one kiss, but he didn't stop there, he kept kissing her repeatedly, his hand that was on her chin had slid down to her stomach and was making it's way upwards. "Chickening out yet?" he gasped into Lolly's ear, as he caught his breath in between kisses to her lips and neck. Ria...the party....everything else was a million miles from his head right now, his only focus was on Lolly, and he couldn't explain why even if he wanted to.

Lolly watched Jason's expression as he repeated her statement then suddenly, his lips were on hers. She couldn't think of anything at that point but her and Jason. Had she had any lucid thoughts then she would have realised that only was she kissing Jason but she was kissing her best friend's boyfriend. Her eyes fluttered closed and she returned his kisses as his hand slid upward on her body. Suddenly, his lips from her mouth to her neck. "Never." She breathed as he challenged her more and soft moans escaped her lips. She'd thought she was over her school girl crush on him but that all came flooding back now. His hands sending chills on her skin. She didn't even have the good sense to stop him. This was wrong, somewhere, deep deep down in her mind she knew that so why couldn't she stop it.

Jason was being driven on by sheer lust and adrenaline at that moment. It was primal at the core, he had been chasing his prey, now he was enjoying the spoils. Lolly's shirt was gone in seconds, it wasn't romantic between them, not like it had been with Ria, this was almost a competition, a challenge. "Better run away now before you get more than you can handle" he whispered into her ear, challenging her on more. That was Nicky's downfall...he was being nice, Jason was challenging her, and he knew Lolly couldn't stand down from being challenged, not with her pride. Before she knew what was going on, Jason had her jeans all the way off, and was between her legs, kissing her deeply and passionately the whole time. She could feel his excitement growing from behind his jeans as well, and she noticed it was more defined than it had been with Nicky. Jason grinned as Lolly would fight against him a bit...he knew she was just playing, had she really wanted out she'd have probably head butted him already....and for Jason, the more she fought and he held her down, the more excited he grew. Clear, rational thinking had left the picture a long time ago, this was lust, simply put.

Lolly could barely breath as Jason kissed her with so much passionate it hurt. Not that she minded. She was too far gone. Her pride completely taken had over that added with baiting Jason the way she did, having turned her on. She couldn't stop if she wanted to. Her clothes were gone in a blink and she was left in her bra and panties. She could feel Jason's excitment and it wasn't what she'd witnessed with Nicky. This was something they'd both slightly regret later but now and they couldn't explain it if they wanted to. For Lolly. This was a game of endurance. Chicken almost. To see who'd back out before they'd crashed into the wall that was her virginity. The two of them was hardly the one to back down and they were dangerously competitive, especially toward one another. Jason whispered another challenge in her ear and she moaned so deep, she almost growled, struggling some against his grip. "You know you talk alot when you're nervous." She taunted with a dark grin. They both knew that they needed to stop this and stop it now but they also both knew that they wouldn't let other live it down. Lolly slipped a hand from his grip and grabbed a handful of his hair, forcing a deeper kiss. Whether she had a crush on him or not, this wasn't a matter of the heart. It was matrer of Pride and Ego to which both had too much of.

"You talk a lot period" Jason whispered into her ear, as he did that he worked Lolly's panties off in a rather fluid motion. There was a voice somewhere in the back of his head that sounded vaguely like himself, telling him that this was a really bad idea, but if there was a point that either or both of them were going to put a stop to this, it had past. Jason groaned, almost growled as Lolly grabbed his hair and pulled him in some more. Jason's jeans and boxers were soon gone, he wasn't even entirely sure how that had happened, but he wasn't stopping to figure out. He got between Lolly's legs as he kept kissing her, her bra soon realizing the same fate as the rest of her clothes. Neither one had bothered to stop the other....it wasn't like Jason was possessed, a simple no would have stopped him....whatever this was that was driving him on, had Lolly vocalized that she wanted it stopped, he'd have complied immediately. But she was too prideful to do that, and so was he, especially towards each other. Their competitiveness had gotten the better of them this time, their eyes locked as Jason went through the wall, whatever hope of a rational thought stopping this was wiped away. Jason moaned into Lolly's mouth as he kissed her.

Lolly knew somewhere that she should stop him and stop him now but it didn't happen, Rationality was gone as was her virginity. If it wasn't a challenge in the first place she would have stopped him long ago but that ship had sailed and sunk.


After a while, They lay there, staring up at the stars. Both realizing what they'd done. Not only to Lolly but to Ria. Lolly felt tears threaten her eyes but she didn't let them fall. She'd wait til she was home alone for that. She'd finally done it and hell it was Jason, she should have been happy but she wasn't. She felt dirty. Granted he was good and aparently her gymnastics had given her some skills she did not know she had to which he'd commented on. Asking her something about really being a virgin. But she felt weird. Not only that, She felt guilty. So guilty. How could she do that to Ria? How could she lose her virginity to the exact same guy Ria had? In the same night no less. Lolly began hating herself then. Cursing her pride as she ran her fingers through her hair and decided, She couldn't tell Ria. Ever. Ria would hate Jason and despise her. She wasn't sure she could deal with that.
"We fucked up this time, Jason." she said, in all seriousness, her voice finally returning to her. They're competitiveness was legendary but this was too far even for them. "We really fucked up."

As they came back down, and lay there, for a moment Jason enjoyed the moment. "You really were a virgin" Jason said, still a bit shocked about it all. He'd just got it on with Lolly, when she had turned down Nicky not even an hour earlier...what the fuck had happened. Jason turned Lolly to look at him, "this isn't the first dark skeleton me and you have had together" Jason said looking into her eyes. Growing up together, and with no siblings, they knew all of each other's darkest secrets, secrets that nobody else in the world ever knew, secrets that they both were taking to their graves. "We can't tell anyone about this" Jason said, then looked back into her eyes. "I'm sorry Lolly....I should have stopped....it's just....well...." he looked away, what the hell, this had just been a competition, hadn't it? But now looking at Lolly he felt the same way he did looking at Ria, "you're all sexy now" Jason said with a faint smile. He smirked as Lolly blushed, he knew how guilty she probably felt, with Ria and all, "listen...don't beat yourself up, this was...whatever it was...but you're still the best one out of all of us" he said stroking her hair.

Lolly stared up at the stars. What the hell was she thinking? Or Not thinking. Maybe her reputation precided itself. People thought she wasn't a virgin and now she wasn't. It was then her mind fell on Nicky. He'd been so hurt that she'd turned him down. She wasn't lying when said she wasn't ready but then maybe she was and didn't know. Had he'd been more aggressive then maybe...Her eyes closed and she sighed. It was then Jason forced her to look at him and reminded her of their shared dark secrets. She sighed heavily. This was far from anything they'd ever done before. He then said what she'd been thinking. She nodded in agreement. "Not a soul." She said softly. She wondered then what Jason thought of her. It was then his eyes fell on hers again and he'd apologized. As if somehow he'd been soley responsible then he looked away. She wasn't sure how to react then. He'd never looked away like that which meant he'd finally grasped the severity of the suitation. They'd gone there. He knew Lolly was a virgin and now she wasn't because of him. He understood that now and not only that, he was with Ria. He'd taken her virginity too. Not too long ago. Lolly felt sick then until his eyes was on her again. He explained that she was sexy now and despite herself she blushed. That seemed to be a running theme lately. Her body had become something these guys wanted in a way that was almost scary but that didn't excuse what she and Jason did. Not when they had Ria to think about. This thought must have been betrayed on her face as Jason told her not to beat herself up about it. They both knew they didn't do this to hurt Ria, They were merely trying to one up each other and it was a winnerless fight as they both didn't back down not once. He told her she was the best of them. She couldn't even respond to that. 'That just makes me the best of the worst.' She thought but she kept it to herself. She sat up, found her clothes, which where scattered all over the place. She slipped on her bra and panties, She fond her jeans a little ways away and her white top. Now she had to think, They were premium liars and the only people that could see pass their lies where each other so whatever story the decided to tell would be believed. She stood up to find her sweater. She looked around for a moment and she spotted it to her left. After she grabbed it and slipped it on, her foot found a rabbit hole causing her to slip and her ankle to twist in a violent direction. "Ah Fuck!" She yelped and droppd to the ground, gripping her ankle. She'd had plenty of twisted ankles being a gymnast but this wasn't twisted. This was dislocated. "Jason. My ankle." She winced, and Jason came over. They both realized this was, by some strange twist -pun not intended- of fate, they're excuse. They'd been gone for what seemed like forever and that could only arouse suspicion but if Lolly came back hurt. It wouldn't matter that she had twigs and dirt, entangled in her hair and her clothes were all dishoveled. She looked up at him, her eyes in his. "You chased me, and we got separated, I couldn't see where I was going and I dis-Ah! dislocated my ankle. It took you a while to find me." She said trying to massage her sore ankle but it just hurt more. It was a believable story, especially seeing as Lolly's pride wouldn't allow her to call for help even though she damn well needed it. That and her ankle was swelling up pretty bad. "Okay?"

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Ria looked back out the barn door. They were gone a really long time. She hoped everything was alright. She decided she'd check on them. She made her way outside and called for them.

Jason heard Lolly scream and ran over to her, he saw her clutching at her ankle. "Yeah that sounds like it'll work" he said. He then bent down and picked her up in his arms, looking into her eyes. He knew he was feeling the same things looking at Lolly as he did when he looked at Ria. Despite everything that happened, there was this protectiveness that flared up when Jason saw Lolly in pain, they'd always had each other's back growing up but this seemed different than anything before. Jason started carrying Lolly back to the barn in his arms. "You know I was thinking...maybe we should tell your dad what happened" Jason said with a grin looking at Lolly as they started walking back through the field. He laughed at Lolly's response. "Hey before we get back there....whatever happens....are we still good?" Jason asked looking into her eyes, her face lit up by the light of the moon as they walked.

Lolly actually flinched as Jason picked her up. She didn't know why but she didn't want him to touch her. She figured it had something to do with the fact that he'd taken her virginity. She swallowed it down as she couldn't walk. She felt so strange. She couldn't even begin to explain it but she didn't think on it long as Jason spoke. Her eyes widened and she almost pushed off of him. "Do you want to die?!" She gasped as he laughed. Leave it to Jason to joke about something like this. It was silent again as the moved through the field. She looked up at him as he asked if they were okay. The moon giving his profile a blue hue. She knew she hesitated but she nodded her head. "Yea." She said, her voice was uncharacteristically soft. She didn't want anything to be wrong between them and if -lord forbid- ever came up, she'd defend him to the end. She was like that with Jason. He protected her. Always and she'd do the same for him and maybe in some strange way, he was doing now. Who better then Jason to have taken her virginity. It wasn't just some random guy. Jason cared about her, Right?

She allowed herself to relax some in his arms. She still felt strange but she didn't want Jason to know that. She felt tired suddenly and her head slowly lay up against Jason's chest. "We're good." She said finally, believing it herself this time.

Jason carried Lolly back to the barn. When they saw her ankle, Ria started mothering her right away, and Nicky offered to take her to the hospital, neither one was any wiser about anything else happening, Lolly had tripped and she was lucky Jason had managed to find her, that was the story and it was so simple nobody thought anything else of it.

The next few days Jason didn't feel right, whenever he was with Ria he felt guilty. He tried every way he knew how to rationalize it, that he hadn't really planned on having sex with Lolly, it just happened, and that he would never intentionally do something to hurt her. But it was no use, he was too smart to talk himself out of the guilt. Oddly enough the fact that Nicky had struck out with Lolly didn't weigh on him as much, in some way he kinda got a kick out of the fact that Nicky had struck out with Lolly but Jason had sex with her that same night. Had it not been for Ria, Jason probably would have been lording that over Nicky's head non-stop all day long. He could also tell it was affecting Lolly, she wasn't her usual self and that bothered him. Jason had this thing about him that even despite the guilt, he could continue acting pretty much normal no matter what, but Lolly obviously didn't have that.

One day Jason ended up going over to Lolly's place, he needed to talk to her, they needed to sort this whole thing out. They were sitting in her room when he brought it up. "You know...even if we're not going to tell anyone...we need to talk this out". He sat there as Lolly agreed. "I know you think you're some horrible person....but I don't think of you like that. I mean it's not like we went out there planning on getting it on" he said, then sat there listening to Lolly. "Listen, you need to quit beating yourself up about this okay, it was more my fault than anything. Sure you went along with it but really....what happened....I was the one who threw you to the ground......I was the one who pinned you to the ground.....I was the one who took your virginity...." Jason's voice trailed off as they were both quiet. He then looked up at her, "and just so you know...it wasn't just sex for me...I mean....I know it was a big deal for you, and I care about you....I did before and I still do now" he said with a grin.

Lolly was about to say something when her bedroom door was kicked open, Jason turned, startled as much as Lolly. He saw Beau and a shotgun before he was able to register anything else the room echoed with the boom from the gun...Jason felt like his chest was on fire as he looked down and saw his white KOA shirt he was wearing splattered red with his own blood....he looked back up at Beau before the lights went out, the last thing he remembered was hearing Lolly screaming as everything went black.

Lolly felt as if she was in a daze afterwards. Guilt was weighing heavily on her and it wasn't an emotion she was familiar with. She kept to herself alot and Jason noticed and came over. They sat on her bed. That use to be normal. He'd been in her room plenty of times but now it felt different.
She looked up as he spoke and nodded in agreement. She sat with her legs over the side of the bed, her hands under her legs as he spoke. He blamed himself for this? How? Since when did Lolly do anything she didn't want to. Even her father couldn't get her to listen half the time. "She's my best friend." She said, feeling tears in her eyes. "We talk about everything. I can't even tell her about this because it was with you." She said runnin her hand through her hair. "Don't you get it. She told me immediately. She was excited, happy even, She trusted me. And You and the look on her face when she saw me hurt. Jason. She cares about us, and we hurt her. We didn't meant to but it doesn't change the reality of it." She said. He went on to explain what had happened. She was about to say more on that but her words were interrupted.

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Beau came home earlier that day. Lolly hadn't been herself since the accident and he figured he'd try to spend some time with her. He'd even bought her some of her favorites for dinner. Well take out anyway. He couldn't cook to save his life. He walked up the stairs and heard voices coming from her room. He could tell the other was Jason. He'd probably felt guilt having chased her into that field, causing her to trip. He didn't mind though...until he heard Jason say he pinned her down, he took her virginity. Beau had taken a step back. That.s what was wrong with her. She'd been too quiet, too distant. Too compliant these last couple of days and now he knew why. Jason raped her. Not only that, He took her virginity in doing so. That thought sent Beau into a blind rage and he had his shotgun the one he named Lolly after in his hand and fired before any rational thought could enter his mind.

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Lolly jumped at the sound of her door being kicked in. The loud boom of the sawed off shotgun and a smoke filled her room. She looked up to see her father with the gun and Jason had fallen backwards. "JASON!" she screamed, as his crisp white shirt turned red. Beau grabbed Lolly's arm and he yanked off the bed. "Why did you tell me, Babygirl?"He asked and Lolly was struck dumb. Jason was dying and her dad was the reason. She snatched away and reached for her phone, she dailed 911 quickly through quivering fingers. She called in the emergency and Beau didn't understand Lolly's reaction. It didn't matter now, Jason Walker was a dead man. Beau raised up and was about to deal the final blow but Lolly rushed him. Her swollen on fire, causing the shotgun to fire again. "What are you doing, es tu loco!" She screamed and ran to Jason. He'd gone deathly pale and he was covered in blood. Here he was trying to consul her and he was bleeding out on her bed. "Go!" She screamed as the sirens of the ambulance arrived. The last thing she wanted was her father arrested.


Everything after that seemed like a daze as Jason was carted off. She'd been able to come up with some excuse for him being shoot in the chest which got her father off the hook...with the authorities. At the hospital, Lolly knew that Jason's parents were a different story entirely.

Beau did not understand why Lolly reacted the way she did, not that he could at the moment. He still had plans on ending Jason's life. He didn't care what Deacon had to say. Nickie too for thst matter He was grateful to her for what she did for him and Lolly but none of that mattered. Jason raped his Babygirl. The only person in the world that mattered to him. All he had. Beau sae Deacon coming and Deacon knew immediately at a shotgun was Beau's weapon of choice. It didn't take him long to put two and two together.

Nikki was running behind Deacon trying to keep up. Something had to be wrong, Beau wouldn't shoot Jason, they were practically family, it had to be an accident. But she also knew, as often as they butted heads, Deacon and Jason had a tight bond, even though you had to look hard to find it sometimes. Nikki knew if Deacon thought for a second that Beau shot Jason for any other reason than a gross accident, it wouldn't matter where they were, Deacon would kill Beau on sight.

When news hit the clubhouse, Jimmy was out the door in an instant, he also knew that if it was Beau and Deke and their kids involved, this was fuel and gasoline mixing together. Jimmy had stopped by home to pick up Nicky as well, none of this was making sense, all Nicky knew was that he had to get to the hospital.

Deacon got into the waiting room and saw Beau in the waiting room. "You got one chance to try and explain to me why the hell you shot my son with a shotgun" Deacon said, Nikki quickly squeezed between the two men. Beau was still riled up and yelled at Deke that Jason had raped his little girl. "Bullshit!" Deke yelled back, and before anyone knew what was happening Deacon had pulled his gun from his vest and aimed it at Beau's head, "DEACON!" Nikki yelled at him to get his attention, whether Beau knew it or not, Nikki was the reason he was still standing, had it not been for her Deacon would have pulled the trigger before Beau would have had a chance to open his mouth. "Put the gun down" Nikki glared at him.

Nicky and Jimmy had gotten into the room as this was happening, a security guard was about to run into the room when Jimmy stopped him, "hey rent-a-cop, the red-head is the only one who's going to be able to talk those two down, so just stand down super hero" he said stepping in front of him.

Nikki turned to Beau, "listen, just because I stopped my husband from shooting you doesn't mean I'm okay with you trying to kill my son" she said giving him a look that could have cause hell to freeze over. "You just accused my son of raping Lolly, you better have good evidence to back that up" she said. Deacon glared at Beau. "You fucking ungrateful asshole!" Deacon yelled, "You wouldn't fucking BE HERE if it wasn't for me saving your fucking ass...I gave you a job when nobody in this city would have hired you....and THIS is how you thank me", Deacon was still too hot to talk things out. "Deacon shutup!" Nikki snapped. "Now..Beau...you better start explaining this shit" she said.

Beau told his story, how he heard Jason admit to raping Lolly in her bedroom. Nicky couldn't believe it, Jason would never have done that. Ria was in the room by now too. "Beau...are you sure....this is Jason we're talking about...he always was protecting Lolly" she said. Beau pointed out that it was a party and there was drinking going on. Nikki shook her head, Jason would never hurt Lolly...at least sober. But her thoughts went back immediately to a year or so before, Jason had come home drunk and when Nikki had confronted him he tried hitting her. Deacon had "dealt" with Jason over that, but if he was capable of doing that...perhaps it could have happened.

"Even if it did happen like you say....let's open YOUR closet Beau, how'd you like everyone here to know your secrets...you know, all those things that happened deep in the jungle in Vietnam...those things I swore I'd take to my grave....you're a fucking hypocrite" Deacon growled, maybe Beau was right, but he was far from a saint, especially during the war there were a lot of dark times.

Beau then said if Jason pulled through he was going to finish the job. Jimmy grabbed his gun...although he wasn't sure what he was going to do with it...but Beau had just drawn the line in the sand and this wasn't going to end well. Nikki looked at Beau, "Beau...I know you're angry...and if it happened like you say you have every right....if it's true I'm just as furious.....but you're talking about my son" Nikki said looking into Beau's eyes. Beau just looked at Nikki and said he was sorry, but that wasn't enough for him. Deacon heard enough "You won't get a chance to finish the job" Deacon said pulling his gun again, this was too much, after what Beau said Nikki had to pick sides...and she did, stepping out of Deacon's way. Jimmy's mind started spinning...all he had was his gun...but shooting Deke, even a flesh wound....wasn't something to be done lightly...

Nicky just stood there, almost in disbelief that this was unfolding in front of him. Ria had covered her eyes, then the room echoed as Lolly screamed at her dad....it was enough to cause everyone to stop

Lolly watched as everything unfolded. She wanted them to aim the gun at her. Sure what her dad had done was wrong and but he was defending her. Not only that, Deacon and Nickie were believing it too. Then Her Dad said he'd finish the job if Jason managed to pull through. Her eyes widened. She got her violence from him. She knew full well he meant every word. The Nickie moved from in front of him and Deacon's gun was aimed at him. She'd also gotten her pride from him as well seeing as he didn't bugde. He fully expected Deacon to shoot him and wasn't about to back down. Lolly saw this. He was gonna die, right then and there. "HE DIDN'T DO IT!" She screamed and jumped in front of Deacon's gun. She stared down the barrel of Deacon's gun. The room went silent, only the sound Lolly's breathing could be heard. Deacon's eyes fell on the girl. He knew she wasn't about to move and from the look on her face, the sweat on her brow, she was in pain as well. "Move, Lola." Beau said, his eyes never leaving Deacon's. "No. You all need to shut the fuck up and listen!" She screamed and everyone had been taken aback by that. Lolly never cursed in front if her father but this was the only way to get his -all of their- attention. Beau and Deacon's eyes fell on Lolly. She took a deep breath as she looked at the adults. She had to do it. She knew Jason wanted to keep this a secert but they were making him out to be a monster. "He didn't rape me." She said after a long silence. She looked at Deacon, Jimmy, Nickie and then her father. "He didn't." She said. Nickie told her she needed to explain and quickly. Lolly felt dizzy. "We were all at the party. We'd been playing spin the bottle." She said, still never moving from in front of Deacon's gun. Instead, she slowly placed her hand on top of the barrel and pressed it down. "Jason spun and it landed on me. He didn't want to kiss me so he broke the bottle, ending the game." She said and shifted uncomfortably. "Get to the point Lola." Her father ordered. "I am!" She said, she was trembling now and she was suddenly keenly aware of Nicky and Ria's presence. "I started picking on him cause that's what we do. We've doing been baiting each other for years. So I called him out for now kissing me. So he chased me and I ran. He caught me, and held me down." She knew by this point, it was sounding bad for Jason. Nickie looked sick and Deacon's grip tightened on his gun. "This sounds like rape, Lola." Beau said. "It wasn't." She said, tears in her eyes now. "I called him a wuss for not kissing me. So he did and I him." At that point, Ria stood. "Lolly?" She said shaking her head in disbelief. Lolly couldn't look at her, and continued. "Neither one of us wanted to stop the other so we kept going, at first just to see who'd back out." She said, and closed her eyes. It was the moment of truth now. Would it stop the madness. She didn't know but she couldn't let Jason be labeled as a rapist. "Neither of us did." Ria choked out a sob and ran out of the hospital. Nicky muttered something under his breath but Lolly couldn't think about them now. "What about your ankle?" Beau said, feeling bad for shooting Jason now that he knew he didn't rape her. "That happened after. I slipped in a rabbit hole." She said and looked at Deacon. "What you're doing now. How you're feeling." She was trembling so much, her voice was breaking. "That's how my Dad feels. Think about it. Someone hurt me. His daughter. Though, I will never forgive him for what he did. He was only trying to protect me." She said, somehow able to keep her eyes on Deacon then. "Please...don.t..."

Deacon looked at Lolly and lowered his gun. "Well...feel better...you may have killed my son for no fucking reason at all" Deacon said glaring at Beau. Nickie could tell Beau felt bad, but she was losing grip on her control too, she used most of it up stopping Deacon from shooting Beau, there wasn't much left in the tank, but then she saw Ria run out of the room, and saw Lolly...her motherly instincts kicked back in. "Thank you sweetie" Nickie said hugging Lolly. Suddenly there were beeping sounds coming from the emergency room, and a few nurses went rushing into the emergency room. Nickie had wasted enough time on drama, she bolted down the hallway, she had to see her son, she got to the doors when a nurse stopped her telling her she couldn't go in. All Nickie could do was catch a glimpse, she saw her son lying on a table, with doctors frantically working on something, that's when she finally lost it, dropping to her knees sobbing.

Deacon saw his wife drop to the ground, he looked at Beau "you may as well take the cut off already" he said as he ran down the hallway to try and console his wife. Jimmy walked up to Beau and Lolly, "hey sweetie, maybe you should go get some fresh air" he said stroking her hair. As she left Jimmy looked at Beau, "I can't say you were right or wrong....but if that kid doesn't pull through...." Jimmy trailed off, they both knew if Jason died, the best Beau could hope for was being kicked out of the club. Of course if Jason did pull through, things may be able to be patched over.

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Beau, and Jimmy stuck around, as did Deacon and Nickie obviously. Beau kept his distance from the Walkers for the most part, with Jimmy playing the role of the comforter for the two. Lolly stuck around too, she glanced up when she saw Nicky walk back into the room. There was a lot of tension in the room as most everyone remained silent. The doctor finally walked into the room which garnered everyone's attention. "Ummm, Mr. and Mrs. Walker..." the doctor started, Nikki's heart stopped, she couldn't take any bad news, she wouldn't be able to handle it. "We're having some issues..." the doctor started as Nikki started sobbing, she was mumbling something as Deacon held her, "Ummm...no...Mrs.Walker...nothing like that....we uh....we don't know where your son is" the doctor said. Out of all the things everyone expected...that wasn't it. "What do you mean you don't know where he is?" Deacon asked, annoyed, confused, and somewhat angry, "he was shot...it's not like he's just going to get up and walk away" Deacon said. "Well...uh...it's kinda looking like that" the doctor said.

Just then the waiting room door opened and everyone turned to look and see Jason, wearing his hospital gown, walk through the door carrying a bag of chips and a Coke. For a second everyone turned, stunned at the sight. "What?" Jason asked, as if his walking around was no big deal. "Jason...we need to do more tests to see..." the doctor started before Jason waved his hand "whatever, I got downstairs, jimmied the vending machines and got back up here with no problems...I think I'm fine" Jason said sitting down in a chair, eating some chips as if nothing was wrong. "Well at least could you go to your room so we could monitor you" the doctor said, Jason ignored him as Deacon and Nickie ran to their son, he held up his hand "I just got shot DO NOT hug me" he said, as Deacon chuckled a bit. "Jason...you can't get the drugs we gave you unless you're in your room" the doctor bargained, Jason looked at him..."deal" he said as he stood up and kissed Nickie on the cheek.

Jason followed the doctor and nurses back to his room. Nikki walked to Lolly, "you know if you want to go say hi...we'll hang out here" she said with a grin. Nicky looked at Lolly "it'd mean a lot to him if you went" he said with a small smile. Deacon walked over to Beau, Jimmy hovered nearby, just in case. "We're going to need to sort this out before we're cool with each other" Deacon said, "until then...you can keep your cut" Deacon said as he walked over to his wife. Jimmy then looked over at Beau, "you know you shot the kid point black, dead center with a shotgun and he just walked through the door with a can of Coke and bag of chips....that kid's tougher than all of us put together" Jimmy said as he headed out to grab a coffee.

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Jason had laid down in his bed when Lolly walked in. "You're dad is a fucking psycho" Jason said as he continued eating his chips. Lolly realized that Jason had no clue why he'd been shot, so she filled him in. Jason looked at her for a moment taking it all in..."still a psycho, but for what it's worth...if anyone did hurt you, I'd kill them before your dad got a chance" he said giving her a grin. "Guess Ria and Nicky know now too huh?" he asked, Lolly just nodded. "Well...guess we'll have more time to hang out" he said...he then slid over in his bed, "hey, you need some cheering up...hop up here" he said. Lolly looked skpetically at him, "not that...remember Saturday mornings...you'd wake me up by jumping into my bed and waking me up, then watch all the stupid cartoons you made me watch" he said grinning as he flicked the hospital TV onto the cartoon channel.

Lolly felt so alone now. She was furious with her father. She knew he was feeling horrible. If Jason died. She'd be alone for real then. She felt afraid of Deacon, not for her sake but for her father's. She felt responsible for all of this.
All because she couldn't back down. She just sat there. Staring into oblivion.

Beau watched Nickie drop to the floor sobbing. He'd barely heard Deacon's word of warning. He regretted what he done. Just not why he did it. It didn't matter who it was. No one hurts his little girl. No one.
Expect maybe him.That seemed to be all he'd been doing lately.
He'd shot her best friend, maybe killed him and she had to explain her first time to a room full of people. He looked over at her. She was pale and there were bags under her eyes as she stared into nothingness. Get your ass up, Jason...He thought solemly.

It was then doctors came in and said they couldn't find Jason. Lolly snapped back to reality just as Jason walked in with a bag of chips and a Coke. She felt so overwhelmingly guilty but happy. He was okay now but he shouldn't have been here. At all. It was all her fault.
Beau looked over at Lolly. The look on her face was something he hadn't be able to put there since she was 8 and he gave her first Beebee Gun. He was felt somewhat better that it had been Jason who she'd given herself to. If it had been some randon boy, He wouldn't have went for the chest.
It was then Deacon approached him, saying they'd needed to talk but he could keep his cut. He already knew what he was gonna say. He regretted being wrong but given Jason's words, Lolly's actions over those last few days. Everyone would have came to the sane conclusion. Aside from all that.He was protecting her daughter. He'd never apolgize for that.

As Jason made his way back into the room. Nickie suggested she'd go see him. Nicky, who hadn't spoken to her at all, finally spoke up telling her it mean alot to Jason if she did. Everyone could tell that Lolly was not okay. It was strange. Hadn't they known this was her fault? Ria hadn't come back since her confession so maybe she was the only one with the good sense to blame her.

She walked in the room with a slight limp, her ankle was on fire but she ingored it for the most part. Jason looked completely fine which was the exact opposite then what he was before. Ghostly pale, bleeding all over the place. She still had his blood on her pajama but she hadn't even noticed. No one did.
She cocked her head some as Jason spoke. Right. He was kinda dying on a hosptial table when her dad told people in Tibet, he raped her. She sat in one of the chairs beside the bed. "Well. He overheard you say... what you did... and thought you raped me. So Naturally, he snapped the fuck out." She said, her voice was still small and shaking. This whole thing made her never want to have sex again. If her first time was this dramatic... Jason seemed to be the only person to understand her dad's point. That figures. Jason was almost as protective of her as her dad was....Almost. He then proved that point with his next statement and she allowed herself a half grin but it faded when he asked about Nicky and Ria. She nodded solemly. He then said they'd have more time to hang on then slid over on his bed. She looked up at him. How could he been so calm? So relaxed after being shot like that. He shouldn't even be breathing let alone, snacking on chips like there was no mañana. He noticed her face and offered her a spot on his bed. She frowned with wide eyes but he quickly corrected himself and reminded her of simpler times. She laughed. It was small and meek but it was more then she'd done since the party. She gingerly took a seat beside him. She didn't get comfortable though. One, he was hurt and two. It would have just been werid.
After a moment, Lolly started to silently sob. She was scared. Another emotion she wasn't use to dealing with without violence.

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Beau watched as Lolly went in the room with Jason. He stood up and walked out. Jason was alive. Thank God. Not for himself or his parents but for the two kids. Lolly and Jason. Their names have been synonymous with one another since birth, He almost ended that because he stupidly thought Jason would hurt her. Somewhere he knew better then that. He sighed and decided he'd make it up to them the best way he knew how. Gifts.He didn't know how many times, he'd gifted Lolly when he missed a recital, or a tourtament, or as of Last Year, a Quienquiera. Lolly wasn't really a forgive and forget type of person so though she put on a brave face and accept his gifts and apologies. He knew it, he hurt her. He was still trying to make up for missing her Quienquiera. This set him way back now. He then thought, What do you give a kid, you shot after falsely accusing him of raping your daughter..? A way to protect her.
That made perfect sense in Beau's mind and he decided it was time to go gun shopping.

It was somewhat ironic, Jason spent most of his time in the hospital trying to comfort Lolly. Jason didn't care about getting shot, or any of the drama that was sure to ensue, the most important thing was that he and Lolly were good, even if they weren't going to be romantically involved, the thought of not having her around would have been worse for him than getting shot point blank by a shotgun...that in fact was something he was oddly proud of.

When Jason got out, all the guys in the club were giving him pats on the back, and even buying him beers at the clubhouse...when Nikki wasn't around. Jason was in the garage of the clubhouse working on his bike when Nicky walked into the garage. They hadn't talked since Jason got out of the hospital. "Hey thanks for coming by and visiting me when I was lying in the hospital with a gunshot wound" Jason said sarcastically. "Sorry...it's just....Lolly was always around and..." Nicky started explaining when Jason cut him off, "and for some reason now you can't be around her is that it?" Jason said somewhat pissed off. "Hey, sorry if I was a little pissed off...I mean minutes after the slut turns me down saying she's not ready..." Nicky didn't finish the statement as he caught a wrench to the side of the head. Jason was on top of him, landing two more punches to Nicky's face before he was able to flip Jason off of him. He threw two punches at Jason, who had blocked them, he then grabbed Nicky, brought himself up and head butted him in the face, sending him backwards. "Okay back the fuck off!" Nicky yelled, as both boys caught their breath. "What the fuck is your problem..." Nicky asked, then realized the answer "....right....okay....I shouldn't have said it. It just hurts ya know....I really care about her and all" Nicky said, sitting down against a shelf. "Bullshit" Jason snapped, "I'm the one who got shot point blank from her dad and I'm the only one who's bothered to spend anytime with her. If that's caring, don't bother caring about me" Jason said angrily. He was the one who got shot yet Nicky and Ria were acting like Lolly was some evil person, at first he tried understanding their point of view, but the longer it went on the more pissed off it made him. "Look...okay...I get your point, but still man...I'm just not ready yet. She's the first girl I ever opened myself up to and I got shot down, then of course...Jason Walker ends up hooking up with her not even an hour later. I mean fuck man...do you know what it's like living in your shadow? I mean I get it and all...but...this was the one thing I had, the one thing that I didn't have to worry about Jason Walker out-doing me in....and then you do." Jason looked at Nicky, "so do you even know who you're mad at, or are you crying about this shit like some pathetic bitch?" Jason snapped, Nicky glared at him. "Honestly, don't give me this living in my shadow bullshit. We're not fucking school girls here." Nicky and Jason just looked at each other for awhile, "I'll go over and talk to her" Nicky said, Jason grinned "bring your bullet proof vest" Jason said joking.

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Nikki walked up to the door of Beau's house. She knew that Deacon and Beau were going to have to sort out this issue between the two of them...both of them were still alive so that meant that there was still hope that things could somehow get worked out. But for herself, Nikki had to sort things out on her own with Beau. She rang the doorbell, Beau answered, Nikki looked up at him "hey...I came over cause I really need to talk with you", Beau just nodded as he waved Nikki in, they moved to the living room. Nikki sat down looking at Beau. "I needed to come talk to you...I've been trying as hard as I can to see your side. I mean....I love Lolly like she was my own daughter....had it really happened, had it been anyone else...I'd have been the one handing you the gun if I didn't do it myself....I get all that. But at the same time...you nearly killed my son...my only son. I saw him lying on that table...bleeding everywhere. I mean the only thought going through my mind was that the last time I saw him I didn't even say goodbye...let alone tell him I loved him. And all of that...because you shot him. I'm trying to get through this Beau....I love you and Lolly and the worst thing aside from losing Jason would be losing the two of you. I don't even know what I'm asking...I just need something to try and get over this. Cause as much as I try to sympathize....there's also this side of me that has nothing but anger...more anger than I've ever known....and I don't know how to get rid of it" Nikki said, almost breaking down. She hated the whole situation...she hated the anger she had towards Beau, she wanted it gone. "Dammit Beau...it was Jason...I know how protective you are of Lolly...but it was Jason...maybe the only one on this planet who's as protective of her as you are!" Nikki said, losing the battle of holding her tears back from behind her eyes.

Lolly moved through the world like a ghost. She felt solely responsible for everything thst happened. Ria hated her, she knew that. She wouldn't even talk to her. Nicky probably thought she was some sort of whore. She hadn't even spoken to her father, or Nickie or Deacon. If it weren't for Jason. She'd probably take a heavy dose of a Colt .45

To keep herself occupied, she buried herself in Training. She spent more time at the gymnasium then she did at home. Dressed in her black and gold leotard. She pulled herself up in the uneven bars. She pulled herself in a pencil straight handstand in the highest bar. Then spun a few times, during her last spin, she let go of the high bar and caught herself on the low one. She spun around that a few times, and then stopped in a handstand again. All the while, everything was on her mind. Nicky, Ria. Her Dad, Nickie, Deacon...Jason. Suddenly, she vividly remembered what it felt like to be with Jason. His lips on hers, his hands on her body. The thought of that, caused her to lose her grip but she caught herself in time. She dismounted and stuck the landed. Her foot not even bothering her anymore. She sighed heavily. How did she let this get so bad?
She held her face in her hands completely missing Nicky enter.

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Beau watched as Nickie broke down in front of him. All the resolve he had with Deacon was out the window. He let her get it all out. Voicing everything he'd been thinking. All he could say was. "I know."
He ran his hand over his head in frustration. "I know. I stopped thinking after I heard...She'd been acting so distant, she was too quiet. It scared me that I didn't know why, Then he said that...had I not heard those words come out of Jason's own mouth. I would have never believed it and would have killed the person that said it." He said and there was silence. " I'm sorry doesn't even begin to cover it." He said and sighed. He looked over at the silver box on the table. He'd been trying ti think of a way to properly apologize for shooting him but couldn't really think of it. He didn't want to hand him his gift and say 'Hey sorry I shot you, here...'He was truely sorry, regret wasn't something he was entirely use to so this was completely forgien to him.

"I don't want to be angry with you Beau. I don't, I really don't...I just don't know how to let it go" Nikki said with a slight sob. She then caught herself. "But you said something that offended me" she said, composing herself as Beau looked at her confused. "At the hospital....you said Lolly was all you had...I know what you meant....but dammit Beau, you ARE family to us, and don't ever think that Lolly is ALL you have....you have us. Dammit Beau, we're family, and we'll get through this....somehow...I don't know how yet...but we will." Nikki got up and wrapped her arms around Beau, "you're family to us Beau...." she whispered, then looked at him "which is probably the only reason you were able to shoot Jason and live to tell the story" she said with a slight grin, although what she said was entirely true. They hugged each other, silent for awhile, then Nikki looked at Beau, "you know...everything else aside, Lolly lost her virginity, and while as her dad you probably hate that idea....it's a big deal in her life, if you'd want me to talk with her...I would, I mean I can only imagine what's going through that poor girl's head" Nikki said.

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Nicky walked in seeing Lolly, almost about to break down. It was at that moment he felt badly for Lolly, she was taking a lot of this on herself. He walked over to the bars, "Hey" he said quietly, watching as Lolly jumped a bit startled. "Ya know...something hit me..." he said rubbing the side of his head where Jason had popped him with the wrench "I was mad at you...I guess I thought you did what you did intentionally. I just thought I should come by and tell you to your face...that I'm not mad at you for it. I mean, it wasn't the greatest moment of my life...but still, we're friends and I'd like to keep you as a friend" Nicky said with a grin as he waited for Lolly's response.

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After Beau talked with Nikki he had gone over to the clubhouse...as it turned out the clubhouse was somewhat empty, in fact the only person still around was Deke. He walked out of his office to grab something when he saw Beau walk in, the two of them both looked at each other for awhile, then Deacon broke the silence, "guess we should sort this out huh?" Deke said, Beau just simply gave a nod. Deacon gestured to the Church, "seems to me best place to do this?" he said as the two men walked into the Church. "Well this is a fucked up situation we're in ain't it?" Deacon said looking at Beau.