Hah… Have I not posted a few of these already? Looking back I can see that I have and the problem there was when I got a bit down I said to hell with it… but the next day I was standing tall and lurking the forums/chat like usual – like nothing happened. Well… this message changes that because I will be leaving this time and if any of you noticed – which I doubt many of you did – I haven’t been on for the past month or so really. I pop up in chat for a few minutes – maybe- or post in a random role-play or OOC, but for the most part I’m just not here. So, I’d rather formally tell you all goodbye rather than just vanish off the face of Role-Play Gateway, ceasing to be a blip on its radar.
I suppose I could give you some sop story of why I’m leaving or tell you that my life is in a dismal state, but, the truth is, it hasn’t changed much at all – and I could tell you I have better things to do than being on this site but that too would be a lie. But one fact that I can tell you is my inspiration/motivation/muse if you would for writing has somewhat been misplaced. Cracking my knuckles and typing out a 1000 word post just doesn’t give me much joy anymore and it’s by far not the highlight of my day. It has become more of an obligation to all of you than anything else, wanting to add a bit of spice to a role-play… but to me it doesn’t mean much. Making everyone here happy has been my drive lately but eventually it’s about time I climb off the horse and say enough is enough.
Also, as they say, it’s easier said than done. I completely enjoy sitting down and fleshing out a role-play but when it comes to the writing, I just fail. Where did I falter? It could have been a few relationships that made me lose a bit of self-esteem, it could be me just me being an idiot, or, it be could be missing the freedom it which all of us once tasted. I’ve been here a long time, longer than many of you, and when I first started I was the most immature little noob you had ever met. I still remember Azrican and Kira messing with me to hell and back… Why? Well, I was a stubborn little prick who wanted attention… but man did I have a lot to learn.
Now, without arrogance, I’m one of the best role-players around this site, a veteran if you would, but yet I still linger in the past and miss the time when I could just write without having to worry. People here nowadays are… well, it’s not the people; it’s just that times have changed – for better or worse. A new generation has slightly spawned it seems, that or I’m just too good for my own good. You plot out ideas and get on paper, but when it comes to the role-play what fun is there in having preset character biographies, personalities, and storyline? For some reason I still miss the days when I just started writing and no logic was present whatsoever. I’m sure a lot of you miss that… I know a few off the top of my head – but I won’t embarrass them. Some people around here are on about excellence, so I won’t call names.
That was a time when I would role-play and a few sentences would just drive me insane with anticipation, waiting on others like Kohanna and Law/Rion (Or whatever the hell his name is now) to post back. Sure, a lot of my posts caused people to go “WTF?!” but all the same it was an enjoyable experience – Fallen Angels is the example I’m using at the moment in terms of user cooperation. Now, I’m rushed to make at least one post a day which is expected to be nearly a 1000 words and to be honest, I don’t have a 1000 words in me nor do I even have a fourth of the moment. You may ask me why not downgrade a bit, and the answer is things have changed, people talk behind your back, and it just isn’t same when you’re in a different class than others all together.
I love you all, and god did we have one hell of a ride the past year and a half or so, writing out stories that are forever embedded in my mind. All of you have a lot of growing up to do, so for all those who are new to role-play, I say this. Enjoy your time as a beginner, enjoy seeking out new things and digging your claws into the wonderful world of role-play while you can, and when someone calls you a noob… well, just give them the finger and tell them to suck it (No, not really, don’t do what I would do).
Since I am leaving, I’m not sure if it’s really fair that I’m a Mentor because I don’t technically get the job done. I might return in small doses, but don’t quote me on that. Loved being a Mentor, and at least I can say I become Staff like I had always wanted, and that makes me very happy; sadly life went a little downhill the moment I did. If you want to leave me as a Mentor, that’s okay to because you can all contact me on my E-Mail which I check periodically – and will get back to you if you are in need of any assistance at all. You can also reach me on Windows Messenger which supports Yahoo, AIM, MSN, and so on and so forth.
This is Proclaimer Proclaimer (Pro)/Near (Far...
No, not really)/Maestro (Stro) signing off for the last time.
Good day to all of you.
